Keep this with you in case you need it for anything. Also… and if you need time to think this over you can take it but if it would be okay with you I would like you to get a few pregnancy tests? We don't have to do anything yet b…
I interrupted him with a kiss. I smiled and said: Daniel, I am terrified to have a baby with you, I mean it's essentially making the commitment to be a single mom and that's not only scary but something I've never wanted. But… Olivia is a piece of my parents that I wouldn't give up for anything. Knowing that your dying and I'm going to lose you kills me, but maybe I can keep a piece of YOU as well.
His eyes welled with tears and he struggled to lean forward to kiss me, I closed the remaining distance so he could, he leaned back and didn't say anything in response, he just smiled at me, I got up and left to go visit Olivia at the hospital, walking into the room, the first thing I saw was the rocking chair from the nursery at home sitting next to her bed, Daniel must have had it sent over after I complained about the guest chairs hurting my back. A nurse was walking by and stopped next to the door: Isnt that thoughtful? A very large gentleman brought it by for you.
I turned to look at her with a smile on my face: That is very thoughtful. She went about her way and I lingered in the doorway a little longer thinking about Daniel just how amazing he turned out to be, it was bittersweet, but I found myself smiling at his thoughtfulness. I noticed Olivia standing in her crib smiling at my expression, it seemed she was feeling good today, I sat in the chair and rocked her for a few hours until it was time for me to come home. On the way home I stopped and got the tests he asked me to get.
I made it home in time to eat in Daniels room with him. Nearly every day Daniel and I would eat dinner together and talk about our day, his was always fairly short not being able to go places. After he had come to the hospital to pick me up I told him I wasn't okay with him doing it again, in his weakened state it could make him feel worse and I couldn't stand the idea him risking himself for me. Every day he would ask me how Olivia was doing and he would just listen to me ramble on about all the little things she did, or he would listen to me vent or gush about the nurses I hated and loved, in truth I think he probably wouldn't be so interested if he wasn't so bored in his bed, I found myself embellishing to try and entertain him.
As I walked into Daniels room for our daily routine I saw a handsome man standing in front of the bed, he was taller but smaller framed then Daniel or what I think Daniel used to be but he worse a suit so I couldn't be sure, the suit looked like it had been tailor made so my guess would be that he was wealthy as well, His hair was dark brown and styled neatly and he had green eyes. He turned to see me: Oh you must be Lizzie!
I took his out reached hand and he pulled me towards him as he shook vigorously and added: I'm Grant Monahue, its so good to meet you, I've heard so much about in all of the last five minutes I've been here.
I pried his hand off of mine and rubbed my hand as I finally was able to reply: Yes well, I've not heard about you either, but its lovely meeting you. I walked over to Daniel and sat next to him on the bed, he took my hand in his and said: Oh don't be bothered by Grant, he's just sore that I didn't invite him to our wedding, well ceremony.
"Well you were my best man, its only fair that I get to be yours." He slightly pouted as if he was throwing a fit but I had to hold back laughter because I was almost certain that it wasn't an act. "Well listen man I gotta go or my wife is going to kill me but it was good seeing you, I'll come visit again soon okay? Feel better man, Lizzie it was nice meeting you, take care of him" They said their goodbyes and he walked out of the room.
I looked over to Daniel: He's a character isn't he? Daniel smiled and shrugged his shoulders: He my childhood best friend, we've been through everything together.
"Really? He didn't seem to be bothered by your current health" I looked at him curiously. His facial expression changed slightly, he looked across the room where Grant had been standing as he thought for a moment: I know it doesn't seem like its affecting him but it is, I've told him everything that's going on but he still thinks i'll get better, like this is just a bad flu or something. In truth I don't know how he will survive without me. He chuckled and looked over at me smiling, it was clearly something he'd already made peace with and I was glad for that.
After dinner I took a shower in the bathroom connected to Daniels room, I came out and dried off in the room before getting dressed in nothing but a night gown as he watched me smirking with his devilish smile.
As we laid in bed, we faced each other in silence, he caressed my face and the feeling of his warm hand caused my chest to tighten and a tears were threatening to form, I took a deep breath to cam I cannot allow myself to be an emotional mess in his last few months I took a few more breaths and tried to start talking about anything that would get losing him off my mind: I want ice cream, want some?
I jumped out of the bed and he barely got out "Uh… I, I Guess so sure" before I ran out of the room.