Everybody was waiting to hear what she would say next but looking at her—I could tell the two sentences she uttered had already exhausted her energy, she was reaching her limits as a shy person.
To my surprise, Maya rolled her brown eyes looking towards the direction of Lucy and Rika, "The name of my final year project is 'White Paradise," she disclosed, forcing a smile on her face.
"It's a lovely name," Rika said, smiling back at Maya.
"I like the sound of it," Lucy chirped while a smile formed between her lips.
Being the closest one to Maya, I could tell that she was begging deep inside for the attention to move away from her. I turned the upper part of my body completely towards her as she sat beside me, using my right hand I scrubbed over her hair gently and she turned towards me.
I winked at her before turning my vision towards Lucy and Rika with a small grin on my face.
"You know how much I like Vincent van Gogh's art paintings right," I snickered, "Especially 'The Starry Night' the painting of the night sky he made".
I leaned forward and grabbed the bottle of red wine in front of Lucy. "Well for my final year project, I have decided to mix my passion for cosmic love and the painting of the night sky to create my unique art collection called ' Eclipse of the Heart."
Pouring the wine inside my glass cup—I continued, "The art collection would be the constellation of the vivid images I have about what the universe would look like if it were to appear before me—"
Before I could complete my explanation of the project I intended to work on, Lucy interrupted me. She lowered her head onto the table and her piercing blue eyes locked onto mine.
"There you go again Janna, rambling about the Universe. I understand your obsession with romance but I could not wrap my head around how the Universe is somehow connected to love?" she asked.
At that time, I cleared my voice again, "If you do not know about the heavenly love orchestrated by the universe, I will volunteer to tell you what it is all about."I responded.
Having a sip of the red wine in front of me I continued. "You see Lucy, when the cosmos wants you to be together with someone, it would weave the silk of fate so that you would meet in the most natural way possible, from there, before you know it, you would be overtaken by the strings of fate and made to be soulmates who would last for eternity."
I was just scratching the surface of what I intended to say to Lucy when Rika suddenly started speaking in a slightly loud voice.
She rested her cheek on the palm of her hand while staring at Lucy.
"You know how hard it is to stop Janna when she is rambling about her universe love fantasies, so why on earth would you ask her a question about it when you know fully well that none of what she says make any sense".
Rika sighed after she finished interrupting me.
I Stopped talking after hearing what she had to say and then turned towards Maya to see if at least she was interested in what I was saying.
Maya smiled shyly after she caught me looking at her, at that moment, I realized that I was explaining the concept of Universe love to Lucy for the thousand time, it has almost become a routine for me to always blab about universe love when I am spending time with my three girlfriends.
For the rest of the time we spent eating dinner, we talked about different stuff and how our college life was about to end in a year.
At that time, we all silently thought within ourselves, if fate would allow us to be together after we graduate from Virginia College of Fine Arts.
Our friendship has matured since we met during our first year in college, and the thought of us being separated from each other in about a year is making us silently worried.
Amidst the silent mood that slowly engulfed us as we finished the last bite of our dinner, Rika suggested that we head back to campus before we fall deeper into the night, she always advises us to be on campus at least before ten o'clock and now it was already passed 9 pm. I wanted to visit a nearby art shop so I asked them to go first without me.
When they left the restaurant, I ordered one cup of latte coffee and stayed back in the restaurant to relax a bit before I set out to the nearby art shop, at that moment. My mind was filled with random thoughts, I was thinking to myself, that maybe my college life would end just like how it started, without me getting a boyfriend.
The thought of how Yamada is the last person who ever said he loves me romantically is still bothering me.
I do not want to leave the last memory of my relationship to be that of a person who did not even care to say goodbye to me when he left me. He just left without even indicating to me whether our relationship was over or he still loves me.
I could not afford to shed a single tear for what Yamada did to me anymore, my heart had already passed the stage of crying deep in the darkness of the night for what he did to me.
However, it still frustrates me that whenever I think of love and my possible soulmate, his image appears in my mind which is so frustrating.
Yamada is my first love and I loved him dearly, he broke my heart without saying a single word to me and left without a trace of how I could contact him. The void Yamada left in my heart is still empty, I thought a lot about how maybe my three best friends would be able to fill that hole for me but it just didn't happen.