Chapter Ten
The plan
~Raven~
I was so exhausted.
The last time I had felt this way was when I was preparing for finals in my last year of university. But with Ethan fucking me to sleep and then rousing me from sleep just to fuck me again was making me have rather short amounts of sleep.
To add salt to injury, I couldn't bring myself to deny him. I kinda hated to admit, but I loved every second of contact we made and I loved how he both fucked me and made love to me at the same time.
I had hoped to get a break from him on my day offs, but then he had taken those too. I couldn't be anywhere around him, without him stimulating me, and next thing you know, he'd be balls deep inside me. His stamina was both admiral and to be feared.
Since he was fucking me to oblivion and exhaustion, my performance at work was beginning to suffer. I was slower than usual, making small mistakes and typos that I barely noticed, even after reviewing a document twice.
My mood too, had depleted. Where I had engaged in conversations and talked about the latest bestsellers to read, now I favored my sleep. I slept at any chance I got, because my sex-craving beast of husband wasn't letting me sleep.
I was always left wondering how he was even a human, cause nothing about his schedule had even changed.
But that hadn't been my only problem. I still hadn't achieved the one thing I wanted most. His love and affection. Putting it simply, his heart. While I was over the moon that I had caught his attention, and this couldn't declare him from my body, I was still crestfallen that our relationship had only one foundation, being physical.
I wanted more. I wanted him to give himself entirely to me just like I had. But I didn't want him to do that just because I asked him. I wanted him to do that selflessly, desire me all on his own and maybe eventually fall in love with him, just likeni had.
I was probably contradicting myself, but I really needed him to want me.
Ethan had stayed over, and surprisingly or probably not, he had decided to stay and work from home. I didn't want him to know I was awake yet, so I took the opportunity to call my best friend. With a wince, I stepped out of bed, then went ahead to lock myself out and onto my bedroom balcony.
From here, I hoped I wouldn't be interrupted. As for Nicole, I really hoped that she was close. Her schedule had been so hectic, the last time we had spoken, she had flown out the country. Thankfully, she picked up after after a few rings. By the time I finished, my carefully throughout conversation had turned into a full blown rant.
Nicole listened patiently, adding in an occasional 'hmm' or 'really? ' just to let me know she was listening. "So, what do you think I should do? "
"Lemme make a few things clear first, okay? "
"So, from what I've gathered, your physical intimacy is quite active, right? "
"Yeah. That's good enough. I know, you want him to love you back just as fast as you did for him, but I'm gonna ask you to be patient. This is Ethan we're talking about. He cannot be rushed. "
I already knew that, and it was the reason I was halfway depressed. I stayed silent though, letting her continue.
"Alright, have you had this saying before, " Absence makes the heart fonder? "
"Yeah? "
"Good, because that's what we are going to do. "
"Huh? " I shook my head. "Please explain. "
"What I'm saying is, you are going to have to limit his physical accessibility to you. So you're going to have to lay low on the sex or any other physical intimacy this time."
"So like, no sort of physical intimacy or contact whatsoever? At all? Not even kissing? "
"Well, maybe we would just be taking that a little too far, but you could limit him to perhaps a few kisses, hand holding and maybe cuddling once in a while. We are of course aiming to keep him interested, but let's tone it down a little. "
Phew. I don't think I wanted to be entirely deprived of Ethan, but so far, this was a solid plan. "Okay got it. "
"Girl, don't hang up yet. I'm not done. "
"Oh, then let me here the rest of not. "
After almost an hour of talking, I hang up and then attempted to go down stairsstairs, except that I couldn't. My legs were trembling. I felt a wave of annoyance coming over meme as I yelled for him. Gosh, this was entirely his fault.
Ethan was quick, and I was thankful he didn't tease my about it. However, I didn't expect that be had invited guests over. I glanced at him, accusatory. He smiled, as if he knew what was I was thinking. "I'm sorry, I didn't know we would have guests over. "
I said nothing and he proceeded to carry me down stairs. He plopped me on his lap, acting as of him serving me breakfast every morning was something he did everyday. He lifted the forkful of my mouth, glancing at me like this was normal behavior from him.
I probably wouldn't have minded if we were alone, but the two men in my living room were aggressively staring. I had been trying do hard, but now my mask was slipping and I couldn't help but feel embarrassed. "I can't, those two are staring a lot. "
"Avert your f**cking eyes. " Ethan growled at them. By the air around them, I could tell he was really irritated by them. Thankfully, they scrambled, already ushering themselves out the door. "Alright. That's our cue to leave. It was nice meeting you, Mrs. Henderson. "
"We look forward to meeting you again. "
"Like he'll you will. "
Ethan swore back, but the door was already shutting behind them. I couldn't help but giggle. This was yet a new side of him that I had gotten to experience, and that itself had brought me joy.
Ethan, noticing me laugh, said nothing, but continued to feed me. I didn't miss the tiny smile on his mouth. It was nice to know there was someone capable of ruffling his feathers too.