Lilly's POV
Opening my eyes I saw Leo's face, he looked so innocent while he slept, I've never slept with a man in my bed before, the way he held me gave me butterflies and I thought I could get used to this. I touched his lip lightly which caused him to smack his lips together and wiggle his upper lip and nose. I couldn't help but smile at how cute it was. His arms were wrapped around me as if I was the air he breathed and he would suffocate without me. It would be overwhelming and intimidating if I didn't feel the same for him as he did for me. Somehow in a matter of just a week he had become the center of my universe and everything else has become second. I've seen Sam do this with men time and time again, making them her whole world while everything else would start to degrade, her grades, her friendships and her job then the guy would would break up with her or vise versa. I would never tell her this because I'd never want to be the cause of pain for her but I secretly despised that part of her. Now here I am doing the exact same thing and on one hand I wanted to slap myself for making a man my entire priority and I probably would if he hadn't shown me through his every action that I was his, even getting me fired albeit the worst decision ever, was done out of Love? I know that I love him now but could he really love me? I guess love.
Laying in bed I start to feel a fear that I've never known its paralyzed me. For the first time in my life I have no idea what to do next. I've always known I'd have kids and a family one day and that has never been a question for me, but I guess I always thought about it as a dream or fantasy but rather more like a goal that would be tackled later on in life. I was never like the other girls in school, sure I had a crush here and there even in college but when they would open their mouth and be an ass it was just a turn off and I assumed I just had a broken picker. I never thought about being with any specific man and now Leo is consuming me and if I am wrong even slightly about his intentions I am afraid that he will swallow me whole. And then there's the whole thing about him being a giant freaking wolf which I dont even know if I am going to be able to wrap my head around that. I started to think back to when I saw him change. It was scary hearing his bones pop and crack as if they were breaking and relocating, I could see claws coming out of the tips of his nails. Once he did turn he was glorious albeit terrifying. His fur was thick, rich espresso brown with areas of lighter brown and shiny as if he conditions his fur. I covered my mouth to hide my laugh at the thought of a massive wolf trying to put conditioner all over his fur. My smile disappeared as I thought back to the one thing that has kept me running for the hills, Leo's eyes. His eyes were how I knew he wouldn't hurt me, his entire body had changed into an animal who could quite literally rip my head of with his teeth but yet, when he looked at me I could see it was still him, still Leo, he had the same eyes, sure they were pitch black but they gave me the same feeling and when he looked at me I could see his love. That is before I past out from sheer shock.
I laid for a little while longer but my body wouldn't allow me to stay in bed. I needed to stretch my sore muscles and walk around. I tried to move but his grip tightened around me, which caused a searing pain in my ribs but I didn't want to wake him up so I held my breath, my cheeks puffed with air and I could feel my eyes bulge and face redden as I struggled in pain to get out from between his arms. I finally popped out and slid down the side of the bed to the ground. I sat for a moment letting out the air I was holding into a massive exhale which blew the red curly mess of hair out of my face as I rapidly blinked to get the black dots to disappear from my vision Maybe don't hold your breath for quite so long next time I slowly got up and put a robe on to go downstairs quietly and slowly as to not wake Leo.
I decided I'd make a latte at home today, my aunt on my mothers side sent me an espresso machine for my last birthday like 6 months ago but I still haven't even opened it because I never had the time until now. Andy had come out to see who was up and I convinced him, rather gave him a guilt trip, to go get everything I needed to make a good latte while I set the machine up and in turn I'd make him a cup and breakfast. I'll admit it took me longer due to my bruising, every movement felt like someone was jabbing me with a ballpoint pen. I finally got it set up and started on breakfast while I waited for Andy to get back. I put some bacon on while I prepared the pancake batter and a bowl of eggs to scramble.
I finally got the bacon and pancakes done and was just about to put the eggs in the pan when I heard a crash and tumbling down the stairs. I ran out of the kitchen gripping my sides to not jostle my rib-cage and found Leo on the ground in a panicked state. He looked at me frantically as he practically clawed at the floor trying to get to his feet and me at the same time. He made it to my feet and grabbed my legs making me fall backwards but to my surprise he caught me. He looked into my eyes which were the picture of pure shock and he pulled my face to his chest tightly, to which I mumbled through his shirt: Um good morning to you too, want to tell me whats happening?
He released my head from his chest to look at me but his eyes were full of tears making the colors in his eyes shine brighter. I touched his face my brows furrowed now in concern and asked him again: Leo whats wrong?
He blinked sending the tears cascading down his now flushed cheeks and with a broken voice he finally spoke: I didnt want to go to sleep because I couldn't shake the feeling that when I woke you would be gone, then when I opened my eyes you were gone and then I think I might have had a heart attack. My chest tightened and hurt and my vision kind of blurred and I couldn't breathe.
My lips pursed downward as I tried to hold in a smile before composing myself to say: That's a panic attack Leo, have you never had one before? He shook his head clearly still very upset so I continued: Well I'm clearly here, I normally get up at 6 every morning and so even when I do have the opportunity to sleep in, my body still wakes me up early. Also I needed to stretch so I figured I'd just make breakfast.
I could see his body start to relax at my explanation and a small smile start to appear on his face as we stared into each others eyes.
"Ahem… am I interrupting something?"
We looked up to see Andy and I immediately started to pull myself up with his support: Uh, no I'm just about to put eggs in the pan and breakfast will be ready in about 10 minutes.