"C'mon Mizuyuki, you have to eat something... you need to take your medication." Sebastián said with a bowl of Cream of Wheat and scrambled eggs in his hands.
Stephen and Todd were taking their naps and Sebastián had morning duty. Mizuyuki however was being a moody brat. It was expected since he had barely slept more than 20 minutes the night before, but it didn't make it easier forcing him to do things he didn't want to do.
'Uhh... I gotta be the bad guy today...'
"I can't eat it... I'm not hungry... I don't feel well..."
"Mizuyuki you don't feel well because you need to take your meds... Mizuyuki, if you don't eat then you're going to have to get a feeding tube put in. We'll have to strap you to a bed, and you'll stay like that until the liquidated food has circulated through your system."
Mizuyuki flinched giving him the usual pleading puppy dog eyes.
"No no no. Don't you flash those adorable things at me. I'll wake Stephen up and make him feed you instead."
He pouted and took the bowl from Sebastián. Sebastián couldn't help but chuckle, Stephen was unrelenting when it came to feeding Mizuyuki, and Mizuyuki could never win. It was Day 2 of their shaky routine, and Mizuyuki was at least able to walk a bit better now.
He crawled through the house the first night when Stephen had fallen asleep with him. Unfortunately while the house was asleep something happened that triggered Yuki in the bathroom, his screams woke the whole house. He had simply wanted to use the toilet without bothering anyone, but ended up doing the opposite.
After that they divided the days into shifts. Sebastián for breakfast, Todd for lunch, and Stephen for dinner. They would each pitch in if they were around, but they all tried to get some sleep in when they could. Yuki ended up being a full-time job.
Sebastián watched him eat slowly with shaky hands, he had tried to make soft foods he wouldn't have to chew and also wasn't heavy on seasoning either.
"Its... really good Sebastián... thank you." Mizuyuki said, smiling a smile that didn't quite reach his eyes.
He was tired, he had heavy bags under his eyes. His movements and blinking were lethargic. He was putting up a good fight, but he was sure to collapse soon.
"No problem Yuki, feel better soon ok?" Sebastián said, giving him a pat on the head.
It wasn't lost on him that Mizuyuki seemed to really like head pats and pressing their foreheads together. It was the same for Todd as well, Stephen on the other hand had to give him kisses. Often times more than one, or Mizuyuki would pout for hours.
It was adorable but something told them there were deeper meanings behind each action. So no one protested and they certainly didn't ask questions.
"Sebastián?" Mizuyuki called pushing his bowl away.
"What's up buddy?"
"How come none of you have asked me what happened?" He asked laying his head on his arms on the island countertop.
Sebastián stopped in his tracks on his way to the sink. Mizuyuki wasn't even looking in his direction, just merely curious and asking questions. Sebastián placed the bowl in the sink and walked back to Mizuyuki sitting next to him on a bar stool. His eyes were closed but Sebastián knew he was not sleeping.
"Well I can't speak for the other guys but I can tell you why I won't ask. Is that ok?"
"Mm–hmm... tell me... why..."
"Well do you want to talk about it?"
"Not... really... it's still scary..."
"Yea I figured, you'll talk when you're ready... so just let me know when that day comes oka–"
Sebastián noticed Mizuyuki breaths even out and stopped talking. He picked Mizuyuki up and laid him on the sofa, then sat on the floor right beside his face. It wouldn't be long before he was awake again. Even though the medication made him drowsy it never outright knocked him out. However since he was already so sleep deprived, he would pass out then wake up with a start everytime.
It was the same thing with the sedative that Gloria gave him, it was a muscle relaxant that caught him unaware. With Mizuyuki no longer feeling the pain in his body, he passed out in no time. But with said muscle relaxant circulating through his system, he couldn't perceive touch either so waking him had been impossible.
"No... stop... it hurts... you're hurting me... please... get off of me... huff... huff..."
Like clockwork he began to have a panic attack in his nightmare.
"Mizuyuki, it's Sebastián. Time to wake up buddy. Let's drink some hot chocolate." Sebastián said rubbing Mizuyuki's eyebrows and cheek.
"Ngh... Hngh... Ah!" Mizuyuki's eyes snapped open and Sebastián was staring right into his eyes sitting on the floor.
"Good morning Yuki, let's drink some hot chocolate okay? Do you think you can do that?" Sebastián asked touching foreheads to Mizuyuki's.
"Sebastián...? Ngh... Where's Stephen?" Mizuyuki asked slowly closing his eyes before patting Sebastián's head.
"He's still sleeping... do you want me to wake him up? Or do you want to go lay with him?"
"Ugh... no... I hurt all over... my head hurts too... but I wanted him to brush my hair..." He replied curling up on the sofa.
"You can take your pain meds if you want to. Should I get them for you?"
"Please..."
"Hang tight, I'll get them for you."
Sebastián stood up and went to retrieve two of his pain pills. He boiled a cups worth of water in a kettle while pouring the hot chocolate powder into a mug.
Once the water began to steam a bit he poured it into the mug mixing up the powder. He topped it with a large helping of whipped cream and grabbed a silly straw that Todd had gotten for Yuki. When he got back to the sofa Yuki was trembling and had a sheen of cold sweat on his face.
"Sit up buddy so you can take these." He said handing the pills and mug to Yuki.
He then took out the bottle in his pocket and took one pill out snapping it in half. He watched Yuki put the silly straw in the mug and then take the pain medication. He then handed him the half pill and said, "Here this is to help with the shakiness you are feeling."
"Thanks Sebastián..."
"Don't mention it."
"Are you doing okay, Sebastián?" He asked looking concerned.
"Yeah... why do you ask?"
"You seem troubled is all." He replied putting the mug down and settling back down on the sofa.
"Ah well... I just wish there was more I could do for you. I never know what you need. And I don't really know how to help you."
"Mmm... you're really good at taking care of people though... I have no complaints."
"Hmm... well if you say that much, how could I ever doubt you?"
"Will you tell me more about your childhood, Sebastián?"
"My childhood?"
"Mm–hmm... I would like to know more about you."
"It's not a very happy story..."
"Haha... neither is mine... though if it's too painful you don't have to say. I just wanted to talk. I'm too scared to sleep Bas." Mizuyuki said looking pained.
"Well, if you insist... My father was not always a sadistic asshole, but around the time my mother left and he went out with Daimian more, he slowly started to change. Then he would bring random men and women home all the time. At the time I was about 8 or 9, but those people would be so high out of their minds on the drugs that my father was pumping into the streets. They would have their fun together then do more drugs."
"That sounds dangerous..."
"Yea it was. I was sexual assaulted and raped a few times myself, from the ages of 8 to 15. Until I left the house to stay with Stephen. At the time I just thought he must have a better life than me, he was always alone after his mother left. Little did I know he had his own hell too. We basically licked each other's wounds and made plans to be our own people as soon as we were old enough."
Mizuyuki was staring in shock and confusion. Then he swallowed dryly asking, "You... you were raped and assaulted, Sebastián?"
"Yeah, by total strangers my father had brought over. They had some big orgy, but at the time I didn't know what was happening. I was merely just curious as to what my dad was doing with so many people, but those people were so fucked up they didn't care who they slept with and I was helplessly dragged into the room. The one adult who was supposed to protect me was too busy chasing his own orgasm to care about his son."
"I'm sorry that happened to you... it sounds terrifying. My struggles didn't start until my parents died. First it was my uncle, and although he never raped me per say, he did everything else. Myah saved me from him and helped me get my own place after staying with her for a short while. The real troubles came in college, I could never bring myself to get on a subway alone again."
"Well Stephen's so loaded just make him get you a car. He'd totally love it."
"Haha... I bet he would."
"What are you guys talking about?" Todd asked yawning while walking into the kitchen.
"Oh nothing just sharing war stories. Did you sleep well?" Sebastián asked.
"Hmm... a little..." He replied making coffee.
"Stephen's still sleep so we were just killing time." Mizuyuki said.
"What'd you eat for breakfast, Yuki?" Todd asked.
"Sebastián made me cream of wheat and scrambled eggs."
"Mmm that'd be perfect with some bacon. Sebastián did you eat?"
"Nah, figured I'd eat whatever you make for lunch."
"I'm thinking chicken and dumplings... or maybe tomato soup and grilled cheese? What do you think Yuki?"
"You make really good tomato soup..." was all he said.
"Well then tomato soup and grilled cheese it is." Todd said sipping his coffee.
"Sebastián... I have to use the toilet..."
"Do you need my help?"
"No but... can you cover the mirror...? I know that was the trigger last time. It made me remember something seeing the injection marks on my neck so..."
"Right. Give me 3 minutes." Sebastián said standing up quickly and patting Todd on the shoulder before he headed to the linen closet for a thick towel.
He draped it over the large mirror tucking it into the medicine cabinet as well. Then he went to tell Mizuyuki he was done.
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Mizuyuki walked into the bathroom and avoided the mirror even though he knew it was covered he didn't want to chance it. The marks on his body were devastating.
After using the bathroom and washing my hands I paused in the doorway. I could go back to the living room with Todd and Sebastián, but I wanted to see Stephen's face.
I lumbered my way to my room supporting myself on the wall. The door was open, so I walked in and saw Stephen asleep on the bed. His brow was furrowed and his face in an angry scrunch.
I walked over to the bed and sat beside him touching his face. It softened in an instant, and I couldn't help but smile at that.
"Just who do you think is touching your face? Or are you just satisfied with anyone touching your face?" I said lightly pinching his face.
"Only Mizuyuki Shin is allowed to touch my face, and I will have no other." Stephen said smiling, his eyes still closed.
I gasped and immediately stood up, embarrassed that he had heard a jealous rant he shouldn't have.
"How long have you been awake? You scared the hell out of me!"
"Since you touched my face, and I apologize. I didn't mean to scare you." He said, snagging me by the waist and gently pulling me back to the bed.
I sat down on the bed while Stephen hugged my waist. It was the suble physical contact without being too much. It was comfortable and extremely comforting, knowing that he didn't find me dirty or repulsive after everything he saw and knew, it helped settle my mind and nerves.
"I... I just wanted to see your face, I didn't mean to wake you." I said honestly.
"I can't think of a better way to wake up. So, thank you." Stephen said taking my hand and placing it back on his cheek.
"Hmm... Good Morning, Stephen." I said rubbing his eyebrow with my thumb.
We stayed like that for a moment, that is until Sebastián's voice pierced the air, "Mizuyuki?! You okay? Ah! Where'd he go? Mizuyu–"
"He's in here, calm down..." Stephen said in a loud sleepy voice.
Sebastián came to the door and sighed deeply.
"I'm sorry... I just... wanted to see his face..." I said looking away.
I knew they were all going through great pains watching over me, and that they wouldn't tell me I couldn't come in here now. I just had an impulse and acted on it, but Sebastián hadn't known that.
"It's fine Yuki, do what you want I just wanted to know where you are. Sorry I freaked out." Sebastián said waving and walking out.
"How was your morning? You spent it with Bas right?" Stephen asked kissing my forearm.
"Yes... he made me breakfast and gave me my medication. We also talked about his childhood a bit."
"Oh? His childhood huh? That's rare for him... in fact I don't know anyone else who knows him other than me. He keeps his cards close to the chest. I'm glad he trusts you enough to open up." Stephen said looking thoughtful.
"Well it was more like sharing war stories I guess... that's how he put it when telling Todd."
"Ah I see."
"Todd is making tomato soup and grilled cheese sandwiches for lunch."
"Mmm... that sounds pretty good."
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"Lunch is ready guys!" Todd yelled.
Todd placed plates and bowls down on the table, while Sebastián placed the napkins, knives, and spoons down. A platter of grilled cheese sandwiches and a pot of tomato soup was placed in the middle. Sebastián put a ladle in the pot of soup.
Everyone sat down and began getting their sandwiches, except me. Stephen placed a sandwich on my plate and then cut it diagonally. He then ladled two scoops of soup into my bowl, and four into his own.
I smelled the soup and it smelled delicious, I just wasn't hungry. Or more like I was hungry but not for food. One thing I realized the first night here was that no matter what my mind thought, my body wanted the drugs, it wanted the mind-numbing pleasure. But Day 2 was proving to be difficult.
I sipped a spoonful of soup then sighed, I really couldn't taste it. I picked up a slice of the sandwich and took a bite. It smelled good but it was tasteless to me too. It was another reason why I didn't particularly want to eat. I dipped the sandwich into the soup and took another bite, still tasteless.
I leaned over, placing my head on Stephen's bicep. I was so tired, but the nightmares were so real I didn't want to sleep ever again. Daimian's face was seared into my mind. He became unhinged after injecting me with enough drugs to make me beg. I shuddered at the memory.
I finished the slice of sandwich and picked up the other half dunking it into the soup as well. The silence at the table was awkward, they tried not to talk about anything too deep with me. Alone the guys were always talkative, but together they were like embarrassed school girls.
"Any plans for today?" I asked, startling everyone present.
"Do you want to do anything in particular?" Stephen asked.
"I don't really mind, as long as you guys are there too. I just... feel bad keeping you cooped up in my apartment all day."
"Would you like to go shopping?" Sebastián asked.
"Hmm... I don't think I can handle crowds right now. Maybe a bookstore or the grocery store? Let's start small... work our way up... okay?"
"Well we do need food for dinner, I'm not sure what I'm going to cook just yet. How's your throat Mizuyuki? Think you can eat more solid foods?" Stephen asked.
"Hmm... swallowing isn't the problem, my throat is sort of fine. You can make what you want."
"Alright, then we'll go grocery shopping in an hour. Okay?" Sebastián said.
Everyone agreed. I finished my other sandwich half and took a few more sips of the soup and called it quits.
"You should eat more Mizuyuki." Stephen said holding out his spoon.
"I don't want anymore..."
"Okay you ate the whole sandwich so I won't push you too much this time, but you have to eat more for dinner okay?"
"Fine..."
"Here Yuki take your medication now..." Todd said putting the five pills down in front of me.
I grimaced while reaching for my cup of juice with a silly straw. I knew Todd was the one who got them, even if no one said anything. He had done the same thing when he looked after me before.
The medication for the withdrawal symptoms helped with the shakiness I felt all the time but it never took the edge off or satiated the cravings. My body was in a state of chaos. I couldn't go a few hours without touch or physical contact, it made me nauseous and some times gave me headaches.
I was glad nobody had an issue with it. I knew they all needed their sleep, but they were also determined to look after me. It felt wrong to wake Stephen up just to touch him or be touched.
I took the medication and stood up on shaky legs. I wasn't really sure how they timed it, but meals weren't necessarily made at a specific time, it was always around the time the withdrawal medication wore off.
'They're way more observant than I thought.'
I steadied myself on the table before walking away, "I'm going to get dressed now." I said over my shoulder.
"Okay I'll be there in a bit." Stephen called back.
I slowly walked towards my room, leaning along the wall.
"Would you like some help?" Sebastián asked already starting to stand.
"No, no. It's okay, finish eating. I'll be fine."
I continued to walk and soon reached my room. I had to sit on my bed once I got there. My body already shaking too hard to properly move. I laid face down on Stephen's pillow taking in his smell.
His smell was so soft and peaceful I couldn't help but close my eyes. I could feel my medication kicking in making me drowsy but not knocking me out. I hadn't had a peaceful sleep in such a long time I didn't fight it, my body refused to rise, just shaking and trembling. Fatigue set in and I couldn't open my eyes anymore.
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{Ah! Mmm... Yes... I-It's so good... It f-feels so good! Hngh! Agh!}
[Daimian you're going to break him if you don't calm down.]
{Hngh! Ungh! AH!}
[You're damaging his soft skin with all the welts.]
{Mm–hmm.. More! Fuck me more! S-so good!}
{No, don't touch it! Ah! Ungh! It's too much! Uhh! I'm cumming! I'm gonna cum! AHH!}
[How could I resist? He's so deliciously entertaining. What is that, the 5th time? And he's still hard. Haha... How perverted Yuki.]
{Ngh... I-I'm sorry...}
more, then let's give him more.>
[What are you talking about Daam?]
[You really are trying to break him.]
{W-Wait... not both... Ngh! Stop! No, I-I don't need any m-more drugs... please wait! ACK!}
{N-No! W-Wait I can't do both! Hngh! Stop! AHHHH! NO! Huff... Huff! Too... big! ACK! PLEASE!}
[Fuck! It's so tight inside you, Yuki... Mmm... it feels great. Do you like it too?]
{It's too much... so full... Hngh! Ugh, I'm gonna... Ngh! Ah! Wait! Too fast! Augh! Cumming! I'm cumming! Please stop!}
[Uhh! So good! Hngh Yuki! It's so good!]
{Take them out now... I'm so full... it hurts...]
{Wait No!}
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"Mizuyuki! Wake up, please!" I heard a muted mumble.
"Please, wake up..."
"Stephen...? Did I fall asleep again? I'm sorr-"
My words died in my throat and my face heated up. I was sure to be flushed down to my neck. Not only did I have an erection, but I clearly had had a wet dream of sorts.
'So incredibly appalling and embarrassing!'
"Mizuyuki? Are you ok?"
Since I fell asleep face down only I was currently aware of my situation, however that wouldn't stay true for long once I sat up... Stephen would be so disgusted. I was disgusted so how could he not be. I didn't know how to respond. I wasn't okay at all, how could I explain that what I wanted and what my body wanted were two different things.
"U-Um... I'm sorry..." I stammered out. I didn't know how else to respond. The current situation was mortifying.
"What's wrong? Why are you apologizing? You weren't moving and you didn't answer when I called for you. I was just worried is all." Stephen said rubbing my head.
I felt guilty as hell, even him rubbing my head made my dick twitch. I wanted to die.
"I-It's not that..." I said rolling to my side and blocking my crotch. The squishing sound only making matters worse.
"Oh... I see..." Stephen said gazing at the wet spot on the bed, then at me.