It has already been a week since perilia came to Korea. The girl who was already broken but at least still managed to smile while she was in America was not the Same anymore.
This perilia hades now looked lifeless, face void of expression.Behind those lifeless eyes is a broken teenager who is only living because she doesn't have any other option.
She managed to get a daily part-time job which she used to survive.
Perilia was done with work for the day , she left walking down to the park she usually slept. The park was quiet and secluded, people don't usually come by here at night which makes it a little bit secure for her. She had ran into this place by chance after she left the former one where her things were stolen.
She spread her blanket which She founded at the trash park when she had helped a granny throw out her trash . Since then it has become her new bed.
While she was sleeping,she noticed a stumbling figure hovered over her. Fear gripped her but she closed her eyes still maintaining her posture.
The figure trailed his hand on her face, he reeks of cheap alcohol, he muttered something in Korea which she didn't understand .Before she could grasp what was happening the drunk man started unbuttoning her cloth his hands waved unsteadily.
That when she realized what was happening, with a rush of adrenaline she pushed the man away and took to her hills. She ran as fast as her feet could take her without turning back.
Being raped in this unfriendly situation of hers was the last thing she would want to happen to her. She finally arrived at a safety crowded place and sucked in a deep breath.
She found a suitable place to sit and collapsed on the floor,her body still shaking as wild thoughts rushed her mind. Thinking what would have happened if she was a deep sleeper, she would have just woken up to see that she had been raped or if the man had caught her.
Looking up to the sky, pained tears streamed her face; is it not enough already?, will her suffer ever end?, she can't continue anymore, she's tired of all this. Maybe all this wouldn't have happened if her mother didn't birth her in the first place and then leave her to fend for herself. For crying out loud she was almost raped ,all in the name of living , if this is what living meant,she didn't even want to be born again in any next life that is if there is one.
Her heart sanked in sorrow, tears drying off her eyes , she can't even cry anymore.she sat there like that, not even realizing it was morning.
She stood up briskly , yesterday's incident buried in the depths of heart. She had decided to continue living till there is no more life to live.
Walking aimlessly she came across people sharing a flyer, she went there and she was given one. Since she looked Korean , i mean she's Korean, wait she's not sure , Infact she doesn't give a Damn about her mom anymore she could go to hell or whatever. Anyways with her looks it was easy to blend in , that's how she got her part- time job in the first place even though she didn't speak they just thought she was dumb.
Reading the flyer, she found out it was a loan flyer , it states that you could take loan from 500 won above . All you need is a passport , name and address for teenagers only.
Well this is good , I'll take the loan and rent a small room for myself she had thought at that time, I wouldn't want to experience what happens yesterday again, and to do that she needed her own room .
If only she knew taking loans in Korea from illegal site was the same as having a knife in your throat, it was a life trap.
After she took the 500 won loan she rented this room for herself for 300 won per year. The loan came with 50 won interest per month. You are to pay 100 won per month plus interest which makes it 150 won monthly . It was going well at first until she missed a month without paying they increased the interest to 100 won like c'mmon .
This continued for two years and now perilla is already owing ten thousand won. From 500 won to ten thousand won. The more she pays the bigger it becomes,that's when she realized she had fallen into the trap of loan sharks at just eighteen. Will I ever pay my debts? Questions that crossed her mind everyday.
Not been able to pay for this month. She started running wherever she sees them , the loan sharks are said to be very brutal.
Having heard stories about them, if you're caught you could be killed. They came home to find her today and she ran away thinking they will go but they started chasing her.it was a narrow escape if not perilla would have been caught just now.
Bang, bang, bang came a bang at my already threatening to fall door jolting me out of my long thought. I turned to look around, checking the time from the old stopwatch laying on the floor.
Hmm it's already 11 pm , I didn't even realize I was lost in thought for that long.
Bang bang bang , the bang continued
I finally stood up and walked to the door already guessing who it was.
You bitch ! How dare you keep me here for long, the house owner a woman in her late fourties' cursed in Korea though i understood the language now but never spoke it.
Silence resounded, I had long stopped talking for two reasons; one I lost the will to speak, two I have no reasons to speak. I don't even know if I can speak anymore call it locking myself.
Do you think crying will make me leave you be this time the woman questioned mockingly,
Cry , was i crying? I thought touching my face when I felt wet liquid on my face. Hmm I sighed in realization,I usually cry when I think about the mess called my life. Must be while I was in the room just now.
Am giving you five minutes to pack your things and leave the menacing looking woman shouted.
Huh.