This fall is different,
And the credit goes to him,
Past some years,
Fall was not so fun,
But this year, it's something special,
It's more beautiful and fun,
All because of his existence.
However, every October,
I had some bad memories,
Until, this October,
I've some extra amazing ones,
Which are worth all those terrible ones,
I didn't thought life would take a different turn,
It was out of my imagination,
But somehow, he made it possible.
I thought it's just a chapter,
Like every other ended,
This might end soon too,
But this time I feel like I am wrong,
There is this feeling I get,
With every leaf falling of the tree,
Which makes me believe,
It's a lot better than past,
A lot better than I had thought of.
My heart, it's not healing,
But..
All those scars are getting medication,
And there is no other reason behind that,
Except for him,
I had lost interest in fall, since what happened,
But he is willing to change my mind, and my interests,
I'm scared I might fall in love with fall again.
He is different,
Not like my past,
I did fell for him a long time ago,
But lost feelings by the time I grew older,
And somehow, god had another plans,
He definetly wanted us to be together, to heal each other,
We wouldn't talk,
But suddenly we did,
And maybe it was written,
Maybe it was written that he would fall for me this time,
It feels like, "she fell first, he fell harder",
But this time my mind tells at me,
It says, "what if he lose feelings?",
After what had happend,
But oh, my silly heart.
My heart has some other plans,
It regrew the love I had for him,
I always loved him,
First as a stranger,
Then as a friend,
Then as a best friend,
Then as a crush,
And now, as a partner,
This fall had a very different plans,
Instead of shedding my tears,
I'm healing, all because of him,
I keep falling for him,
Just like all the leaves from those beautiful yellow trees.
The way he loves me,
Makes me feel like I have never been loved before,
It's hard for me, to trust him,
My past, which was basically a nightmare,
I still see glimpse of it every time I close my eyes,
Or everytime when someone is comforting me,
All those pretty little lies,
And sweet promises,
I hear them in the back of my mind,
Which creates a tsunami in my head,
But however,
When i see him loving me like that,
My eyes get filled with water,
And my heart gets a little happy,
I don't smile anymore,
But this little guy,
Who is my eveything,
Always does his best to make me smile,
He desires to heal my scars,
But i know very well how hurt he is too,
It is not easy for him either,
I have known him my whole life,
And I hope I will die knowing that he is my partner for life,
Who is going to be next to me in the grave,
There is no one in this world,
Who I love more than him,
He, he is the reason,
I am still going on,
He is my man, my universe,
This is how,
"We fell in love in October".