The silence between us was just for a moment but for me, it felt like an eternity, I knew that it was hard for him to accept the things I was going to say. Even though he didn't know what I was going to say he probably judged by his knowledge of me it was not going to be something good.
He stopped hiding his face and looked at me, even though he didn't cry his eyes were red. Seeing this I felt hatred for myself, I wanted to not hurt him but sometimes things don't go the way you want.
I could have looked away from him but I didn't do that, I kept my eyes locked with his eyes. We simply kept staring at each other without saying a word.
"Do you remember the time I cried and asked you about my parents and why I don't have one but you simply rubbed my head and said that you are my parent...I was happy, so happy that I did not care why everyone hated me in the village and never complained about anything to you ever again"
As I said this my voice trembled and cracked, I took a deep breath to compose myself. Thomas was looking at me with concentration to hear me finish what I was going to say.
"So what I am trying to say is I.... I think of you as the most important person to me. I am not good at talking or maintaining a good relationship with anyone. Even speaking to you like this is taking everything I have so what I wanted to tell you.... I will never leave you as long as I don't die."
I finally conveyed my feelings to him, he covered his face with his hand. I could hear grumble voice, he was crying when I said this to him. I didn't know whether he was crying because he was happy, emotional or he didn't believe me.
I didn't know which one was it but I didn't have the guts to ask him whether he didn't believe me and I was afraid that I was going to hear that I was the reason for his tears.
The muffled voice finally stopped as he rubbed his face with his hand, he finally took away his hand from his face. He looked at me with his face that shone when the moonlight fell from the window on his tear marks.
"Tell me, I want to know what you want to do."
When he finally spoke a sigh of relief left me, I was joyed that he was finally willing to talk to me and not close himself. I recalled all the things I wanted to say to him and finally gathered myself and spoke.
"I plan to join the Arcane Academy when I am 16 years old"
"Do you even know the requirements for it, just because you have awakened a superpower doesn't mean you would be able to join it. You have to at least reach a 2nd star to reach it-no that is the requirement for people with money and I don't have anything close to the amount. Then the only method you have is to reach the 3rd star, the 3rd star do you even what it means?"
Everything he said was true, it might look easy to reach 3rd much less 2nd star but only those who have spent their entire life to reach it know how hard it is in reality.
I didn't think of asking him for money even if he had enough saved for the academy as I was going to join as a scholarship student. I knew he thought that it was impossible for me to reach the 3rd star but I plan to reach the 4th star before sixteen and even higher if possible.
"I will reach 3rd star by the time I am of 16th years old"
"Is that the reason you did that brutal training every day because of wanting to attend the academy!"
His sharp voice cut what I was going to say next but I didn't mind it as long as he was willing to talk, But as expected he knew about my training and just wanted to ignore it.
"Yes, I am going through hell every single day and I am not going to say it was easy but still I want to do it. I want to become strong-stronger than anyone but that's not at all I want to see the entire continent and that's not all I want to see the Dark Continent"
"YOU-WHAT, ARE YOU CRAZY"
He shouted at me with wrath on his face when he heard my comment about going to the dark continent, I didn't know whether to be sad or happy that I don't have a parent like those Main characters who think it's okay for their child to go on the battlefield.
"I know what I am saying and I am not crazy, I know that there is hell if I choose this path but I am okay with choosing this path. I don't know whether everything I want will come true but I will regret it if I don't even try to the point of wanting to die"
"Can't you just stay, I know that life here might be dull but at least we are together, If you seriously choose this path you are likely to die. If you stay here you can still train your superpower."
I shook my head and looked at him and slowly and calmly I said the word that shook Thomas to the core making his face turn so pale that it looked like he had no blood.
" I am ready to die If that's my fate but I am not ready to stay even if it means I am safe so please don't stop me. Even if I leave it is going to be a temporary separation and I am going to come back so you can think of it as me going on a trip for short periods of time"
I said this to him in a pleading voice as desperation leaked from me, after hearing my words he didn't say anything to me and simply stood up and walked to his room.