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My first act, my first action
It may mean the same thing, it may not
What you say may mean nothing to you, but for me it is different
You hide the truth in a myriad of ways, within your words, within your actions, within your very lie
What you started may not always have an end, but it would always be the beginning of something else
I don't have the courage to test a person
I don't have the will to test your limit
I don't have the faintest clue as to who you are
We live together, we grow together
I claim I know you, but do I?
I claim you are the most important to me, but when will I show it?
Am I truly showing what I feel?
Am I truly???
I claim this
I claim that
I claim to the ends of the world "that I am with you"
So…why do I feel that even together I am alone, that we are alone
We were never truly together, we were never one
I judge something differently, you trust something differently
A difference in faith, a difference in belief
You were never truly hearing me, you were never truly understanding my pain
You place your trust in that one, I place my trust in no one
Or so I say
You know what I'm a hypocrite
I can never truly place my trust in them, but I still place your lives in them
Because I know that you place your trust in them
Because I know you will appreciate it, even though I will never tell you about it
But I doubt
What am I truly doing, what am I doing all this for, what am I truly thinking when I do all this
But then it all comes down to one thing
I had the intention, for your protection, for your future, for your strength, for your beliefs
I had the intention to place my trust in them
Even if at the end of the day I want nothing, or do I
Do I place my trust in them, do I do anything for myself?
Do I place that very same trust you have and direct it at myself?
Do I have the intention "To trust my future to them"
"To trust in their protection"
"To trust in their strength"
To trust myself enough that I would forsake my belief
To that I would have to say "No"
"No I don't have that intention"
"No I don't have the trust"
But in the end I will have to say
For you all, all my intentions will always somehow turn to them
For from the very beginning
I
HAD
THE INTENTION