Chapter 45 - V

「Special Notes for This Mission」

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Duke/ Duchess

Archduke/ archduchess

Marquees/ Marchioness

Earl/Countess

Viscount/ Viscountess

Baron/ Baroness

Baronets

Knight/ Dame

Esquire

Gentlemen/ Lady

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My first act, my first action

It may mean the same thing, it may not

What you say may mean nothing to you, but for me it is different

You hide the truth in a myriad of ways, within your words, within your actions, within your very lie

What you started may not always have an end, but it would always be the beginning of something else

I don't have the courage to test a person

I don't have the will to test your limit

I don't have the faintest clue as to who you are

We live together, we grow together

I claim I know you, but do I?

I claim you are the most important to me, but when will I show it?

Am I truly showing what I feel?

Am I truly???

I claim this

I claim that

I claim to the ends of the world "that I am with you"

So…why do I feel that even together I am alone, that we are alone

We were never truly together, we were never one

I judge something differently, you trust something differently

A difference in faith, a difference in belief

You were never truly hearing me, you were never truly understanding my pain

You place your trust in that one, I place my trust in no one

Or so I say

You know what I'm a hypocrite

I can never truly place my trust in them, but I still place your lives in them

Because I know that you place your trust in them

Because I know you will appreciate it, even though I will never tell you about it

But I doubt

What am I truly doing, what am I doing all this for, what am I truly thinking when I do all this

But then it all comes down to one thing

I had the intention, for your protection, for your future, for your strength, for your beliefs

I had the intention to place my trust in them

Even if at the end of the day I want nothing, or do I

Do I place my trust in them, do I do anything for myself?

Do I place that very same trust you have and direct it at myself?

Do I have the intention "To trust my future to them"

"To trust in their protection"

"To trust in their strength"

To trust myself enough that I would forsake my belief

To that I would have to say "No"

"No I don't have that intention"

"No I don't have the trust"

But in the end I will have to say

For you all, all my intentions will always somehow turn to them

For from the very beginning

I

HAD

THE INTENTION

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