The following week, things went back to normal but I couldn't ignore a few changes I saw in Adam. He became more protective than before and checking up on me every now and then. Phone messages and calls at work, always asking for pin location. This was becoming questionable and every time I sat him down to ask ,he would tightly hug me and say he was afraid of loosing me. "Honey, I want you to be honest and tell me what going on. You've never been this overprotective before and asking for pin location?don't you think i need an explanation on all these changes? I asked."The world is becoming crazy. And my line of work sometimes exposes me to dangerous people. Me asking for a pin location is to know where to find you Incase of anything" he explained. " Are you under any kind of threat?" I asked as he held me by my face, kissed me on my lips and said"No, it's just a precaution."
There was nothing to worry about so the next few weeks passed so quick to this particular day I fell in the workplace and rushed to the hospital. I woke up in an hospital bed and my husband was sitting by the side of the bed. The hospital had called him over as the next of kin and I could tell how worried he seemed." You're back. How are you feeling? He asked as he sandwiched my hand in his huge palms. "What happened?" ,I asked. "You fainted and was rushed to the hospital . We are still waiting for the test results. " He said with alot of concern in his voice as the doctor walked in.
"The results are out and congratulations Mrs Adams , you are 5 weeks pregnant "she said with a light and warm smile on her face. "Wait , what? Am pregnant? I asked again in disbelief. These were definitely good news but I felt unsure and worried. Since our last miscarriage that happened a few years back , we decided to heal first before trying for another baby. I felt a sense of protection and I needed to take good care of myself to have a healthy baby.
I was lost in my own thoughts that I couldn't notice Adam who was on his feet , hands in his mouth and tears rolling down his cheeks. Out of excitement he hugged the doctor as he shouted"am gonna be a dad!" . I was alittle surprised by his reaction since the loss of our baby left him lost and in pain and disconnected from people and his friends. It had taken him months before he went back to his normal self. Seing him happy gave me the hope that I needed and I new I would draw energy from him in the coming few months. I would literally compare his excitement to that of a child offered a big candy. He hugged me tight for some minutes, held my face in his arms as he kissed me deep on my lips.. I could feel his deep breath on my face and his tears rolling on both our cheeks. We were lost in that moment that we forgot the doctor was in the room." Thanks for making me a dad again." He said tears still rolling down his cheeks. "Doctor", he called. "Is the baby in perfect health?". "From the results everything seems normal, but we will do a scan to check on the heartbeats and development of the baby." The doctor said as she walked out of the room.
Later, a nurse wheeled me to a scan lab and a scan was done. Everything was fine, so we went back home. I was carried up the stairs by the daddy to be, as he kept saying, you two will be fine. He placed me on the bed as he kissed me on the forehead and said, "I love you, I deeply love you , so much more for giving me a child". He gave me another kiss now on the lips, to the neck then stopped. "You are in your first trimester so I can't do this. I need to refrain myself from this till you are out of danger zone. I want you and the baby to be okay. He held me as we laid on the bed for a nap that extended till night hours.
I woke up later to a dinning full of delicacies and I couldn't help but tear emotionally for him always being the best. This became a norm when he was at home, dropping me off at my workplace , picking me up later in the evening and dinner date a few times a week.
At the end of my second trimester, he became so caught up in work, working late hours and sometimes staying out at night, which I completely understood considering the state visit by US president.Adam was known to be thorough in his work and in his years of work there had never been any kind of hiccups and this time he needed to put all his mind into the extra security detail that was needed.
Being a retired soldier, promoted into a bigger rank into state office, should tell you of what an excellent agent he was.This meant he would be away for a few days and I had to reassure him that I would be okay. One thing that drew me closer to this man was how committed he was into anything he did .
Nights without him on the side became so long and unbearable which reminded me of the days I longed to see him with my first child in college. When we met he didn't tell me he was a soldier working for defense forces until I was pregnant and I needed to see him. He had only three days left before they reported back to their duty station. He agreed to meet me while I surprised him with the news.
I watched him cry like a baby in excitement, couldn't control his emotions but waited to calm to tell me that he would be leaving in three days. I didn't know what to say or how to react and I couldn't help myself from thinking of rejection. So many things came in mind. Was he married? Did he had another girlfriend? Did I fall short of his expectations? I was lost for a moment, and I had no choice but pick my bag and leave with whatever small dignity left to protect.