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Chapter 9 - Letting it out

The dinner table in the dining room was filled with delicious aromas as everyone gathered for their meal. Everyone had changed into their pajamas for a cozy evening. I had not packed any pajama, I was used to sleeping in loose pants the size of innerwear or naked when alone. Anything like full pajama , felt heavy on me. I borrowed pajama from joseph who was 6'1 feet and am 5'6.. it was overly oversized but I felt cozy in it .

After dinner, we moved to the lounge area, where a fire crackled invitingly in the hearth. A large, plush rug was spread out before the fire place, surrounded by comfortable seating. We gathered around with our drinks as we let our bodies feel the warmth and relax for the night. We stayed silent, sipping our wine , trying to absorb the calm that comes with less care, responsibilities, and worries of building a better tomorrow. It was just us and the moment. "It feels good to step out of campus for a minute."Hailey stated." I want to sit, eat, sleep and enjoy life for a moment. I want to wake up to my family every morning without thinking of work. I want a life." She added.

" I want to travel the world with the most important person in my life. I want to live a life that I dreamt of as a child. The fantasy world I created in my head. I want live in that dream. To learn different languages and cultures, and to mingle with people from all kinds of walk"Rebecca cried.

We stayed silent for some time not knowing what to say or how to say next, but I felt bottled up and I needed to empty my heavy conscious.

" Am tired of me. My life, and the heavy burden I have to carry with me. Nothing comes easy in my world. I have to work for everything. I don't want to become strong independent woman, it comes with heavy sacrifices and responsibilities. I want to be loved, to be wanted, cherished and adored. I want to let my guard down and know there'll always be someone to protect me. I want a good life and easiness that comes with less effort. I Want a man and I want his love too." I confessed with tears rolling down my cheeks . I uncontrollably weeped feeling like all my problems had disappeared into the thin air. Joseph sat next to me , pulled me into a tight embrace,running his hands through my hair as he said. "Let it all out,am here to protect you." I felt so comfortable in his grip and fell asleep. I guess I was alittle drunk, that's why I found such courage to pour it all out. I woke up the next day on the bed , to Joseph lying on the couch trying to fit his long legs on the sides . It must have been so uncomfortable and cold to lay on such small couch. I didn't want to wake him up, I tiptoed to the bathroom to freshen up before he woke up. With the rising sun and the natural lighting, everything looked beautiful.I had a clear view of the surrounding , the guests and the hosts and I could tell it's a very expensive place to afford. I went online, tried to book a villa on their website to see their daily ratings. "Holy cow! What!," I found myself shouting." $20,000 per week?".where would a student get all this cash. I mean ..... . I started thinking of the savings I had in my account, they couldn't amount to a fraction of what would be considered half a deposit if we defaulted. I must have woken Joseph, he was already up sitting on the couch not sure what's my reaction was about." Good morning ", he greeted, you seem better today.You held me for hours yesterday, you didn't want to let go. "He added with a smile on his face. " Oh sorry about that." I must have had way too many glasses of wine." I whispered under my breath." Not a big deal. I was happy I could help". I was dressed in a swim suite ready to dive into the swimming from our room's balcony."Want to join me? "I asked as I approached the balcony." Wait, wait, wait ! He exclaimed." You don't want to jump into the water you've not tested. Trust me, check with the host or the management first, if it's safe for swimming."

" What?" What do you mean safe? It's a resort? Again with all that cash no swimming?, I understand, it's okay to be paranoid it's saves us from so much. But clearly this is just water." I stated. "Bella, last year, same season a young girl was found Dead in this resort, her dead body floating in a swimming. She had missed a sign 'under maintenance ' since she jumped from the balcony too. They tend to clean their pools in the early hours, and again the water would be freezing outside. It was cold yesterday. So please let ask if they've heated the water. Please."Joseph said with a command in his voice, I had no choice but listen to him.

Everyone had gathered around the dinning table, taking breakfast and dressed for the day. I left Joseph to freshen up and prepare for the day.Everyone had been waiting for us, and joining them alone made them question our new friendship. "Did you guys had a fight?" Surprisingly peter asked. "Not at all. He had a long night. I let him sleep but he'll be out in a minute." I responded. "ooo Bella, the one with a good mind, awoke conscious and the one with a beautiful heart. The mindful one." Hailey jokingly tissed . "When are you making the move Bella?" Tara Asked as she shoved a piece of pancake in her mouth."Ah...wh .. what! Why should I ? I mean ,Joseph is into someone else .It's not my story to tell but he has someone." I tried to keep my words flowing to cover the stutter that comes with emotions and confusion." Excuse me guys." I said as I walked towards the buffet table to serve myself breakfast.