The effect is quite good.
Carl gave a wry smile.
But it seems the effect is a little too good.
Reach out and touch the water droplets in front of you casually.
He closed his eyes peacefully, feeling a little uncomfortable as the water droplets and hair stung his eyeballs.
Memory is finally fully reaccepted,
but,
Something seems to be wrong...
Very serious problem...
Carl opened his eyes again, and both memories emerged in his mind.
real,
Fake.
but...
They didn't merge.
That's right, they are clearly all my own memories, but at this moment, they are not completely integrated together.
The two memories were clearly separated, as if one on the left and one on the right. If Carl wanted to check, he could only look at one of them first.
It would be fine if it was real, but if Carl looked carefully at the fake ones, it would be easy to get immersed in them.
Carl's brows were furrowed. He himself had not expected this situation.
Carl at this moment is Carl with real memories. He remembers a lot, including the existence of that false memory.
But if Carl allowed himself to be the real Carl at this moment, then Carl would not know the fake part, many things, and many details.
Maybe I know something, but it's just knowledge, like something I heard casually from someone else, that's all.
But at this moment, Carl had to let that part of the real memory occupy his brain and make himself the real Carl.
"Damn it!"
Carl felt like crying but had no tears. Just as he expected, there really was a problem.
There was really something wrong with his mental state. Carl felt that he might even be schizophrenic, or even have some delusions.
Maybe I should see a psychiatrist before my condition gets too serious.
Carl showed a helpless smile.
But where can I find a psychologist now? And is my condition really not serious now?
Carl could tell that something was wrong with him, but...
"Hehe…"
Leaning against the bathroom wall, the smooth tiles were still wet. Even though it was early summer, the night was still a little chilly.
Carl's teeth chattered instinctively because of the cold.
But this also made Carl sober up and realized that he couldn't just sit on the ground like this.
He touched the back of his head and found some blood on his hands.
Carl smiled indifferently. It seemed that the back of his head was really full of troubles, but it was all thanks to this.
The first injury saved him, and the second injury made him remember everything. For Carl, this was no less than being rescued, or even more.
I stood up with the help of the wall. The back of my head hurt and was still bleeding. The inside of my brain also hurt, which seemed to be due to some conflict between the two memories.
And the buttocks, or to be more precise, the tail end of the spine, was hit pretty hard.
There are many people who would be paralyzed after falling in such a posture, but Carl's luck was obviously not that bad.
Although it was very painful, Carl did not check the specific injury on the back of his head.
But Carl didn't care, he walked back under the water and continued his bath.
Pain can make Carl sober.
Carl even felt that the reason he was so clear-headed at this moment was entirely due to the pain in his body.
If that is true...
As long as it can keep him awake, Carl will be madly obsessed with it even if it hurts.
Maybe I should do something useful during this time.
As for the wound, as long as you are not dead or disabled, it is not a big problem.
With eyes closed, he scrubbed his body while thinking.
Behind Carl's invisible head, the blood flowed along with the water, mixed into the water, became extremely thin, and then slowly flowed down to the ground along the surface of Carl's body.
As the water flowed over the wound, the blood flowing out became less and the flesh at the wound began to turn white.
"Beth, are you still there? Do you remember me?"
Carl whispered softly,
"I miss you so much, you know? But I..."
But Carl knew that he wouldn't be able to see Beth for at least a short time.
Karl's eyes were fixed, his eyes were slightly focused, and his eyes were extremely firm.
"I will succeed, I will come back to see you, as long as you don't forget me..."
"Success? No! I can't do that."
"Damn it!"
"Mr. Governor is a very good person. You can't treat him like that. And Penny, can I forget about Penny? How can I do that!"
"Damn it!…"
The two memories in my mind suddenly began to approach each other.
But this is not fusion, but mutual influence.
The difference between the two memories is too great, like water and fire, it is impossible for them to be truly integrated.
How can water and fire coexist peacefully?
What can be done is to either keep a distance and live in peace,
Either devour the other.
"Karl, I'm Karl, I'm Karl, I'm Karl..."
Karl suddenly squatted down with his head in his hands, looking painful.
His eyes were closed, his brows were furrowed, his face was even distorted in pain, and his mouth was slightly opening and closing, somewhat unconsciously.
"I am also Carl. I am Carl..."
"Damn it! You're not! No, not you, I can't do this…."
Carl fell silent suddenly.
The worsening of a mental patient's condition is usually due to himself. Because of his own delusions, his stress increases dramatically and he even pushes himself to the brink of collapse.
Immersing oneself in one's own delusions, the delusions again put pressure on oneself, this is a vicious circle.Once you really step into Xunhua, it is difficult to get out.
This is why it is almost impossible for severely mentally ill people to recover.
They already think they are normal.
Now Carl at least knows that he is not normal. No, at least he can no longer talk to himself.
This will only compound your problems...
Slowly letting go of his hands, Karl shook his head helplessly and slowly stood up.
"How can I talk to myself? Really, well, don't think too much, I'm actually fine.
Yes, there is nothing wrong with you. These are just your delusions. Don't let your imagination run wild.
Well, that's it. Haha, if Beth saw me like this, she would be scared. I can't..."
"Well..."
Karl's soft murmurs suddenly stopped, as if he was choked, starting from when he said the name.
Carl tried to whisper the name again.
"Beth..."
"Well..."
He was choked again, or more than choked, a completely new pronunciation came out of Carl's mouth and turned into a name.
"Penny!"
Karl's face suddenly changed, and he said quickly,
"Beth! Beth! Beth..."
"Penny, Penny, Penny, Penny..."
"Damn it! You're just a liar!"
"No... I am real, I am who I am, and we will believe it."
"Damn it! It's not us! It was only me from the beginning to the end! It's me! I'm Carl!"
"I am also Karl. Don't you think I am not?"
After hearing this, Karl's expression became extremely playful, and the slight curve of his mouth was so natural.
Carl was panicked. It was the first time he was so flustered that even his own hopes and keys were of no use.
No,
It's not that it doesn't work, it's that I made up another unique one, and now,
It also has its own sustenance and keys.
No, not that, it's...
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