I looked up at him shocked and speechless.
"It's okay to be scared Cora." He says, "and your not ugly."
"In fact.. your really beautiful."
I blush with tears forming into my eyes making eye contact.
No boys ever said that to me.
PAST
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I was always the unattractive type. I don't recall ever having a boyfriend.
"Your ugly Cora."
"You are too hard to look at."
"no one will like you cause you don't give anybody a chance."
"You can't find love cause you don't act feminine. Girls want a man to save them,You don't."
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I never could understand.How did that make me ugly? How did that make me any less girly? I never got why everybody treated me so bad just because of that.
They treated me like I wasn't even human.
All because I didn't want to put my all into a man.
All because I wasn't like every other girl.
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"Why don't you just want to do things yourself?" I'd say, "Why do you think a man is the only solution to living."
Everyone around me always expected men to do things for them and wipe them off their feet. But why was that so important?
Maybe I never watched enough romance movies to get it.
Maybe I was born to be unloved.
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But she… she said I'd find it
My friend Amy.
She said it'd come to me one day.
So I'll believe her.
I'll believe that I can be loved.
I'll believe…
That there is a possibility.