INTRODUCTION
Death can reach you when you least expect it, but you can also look for it when you want, there is a difference between these, from the second one you can survive and see a light at the end, look for help and always think that you will leave behind, who will miss you, don't worry there is a second chance luck, survivor.
THE STONE SHOESÂ
Hello, good, I'm going to tell you my story, it's funny it was an old method of getting rid of bodies by the old mafias and I wanted to get rid of myself, this to me seemed epic enough to leave this world, although the drowning is annoying, but sure I will suffer just for a while, well let's start.
It all started on a Monday, I went to work as usual and it was monotonous, day after day was the same constant pressure from my boss, that I should give more, supporting areas that did not correspond to me without any recognition, but well they always said do it for the company that needs you, The good thing was that at the end of the day I always went to visit a big pond that was near the place where I live, sitting on the edge of the pond to admire it, whenever I was sitting; (I must clarify that I always left late because of my boss who asked me with overtime demands, well I do not know how to say no) about 8 o'clock at night passed by me, some people randĂłn, since there was a road, of all of them a beautiful woman always passed by there jogging at that time and looked at me out of the corner of her eye I did too, maybe those little moments were what kept me helping me to endure this miserable life.
I am a 28 year old single man, I live with my mother still, I am no one special just a typical monotonous person.
One day of rest, so-called rest, since I was called to cover a shift of half a block in the morning, I was watching an old movie where gangsters filled a container with cement on the feet of a guy and threw him off a pier to get rid of him, that's when I got the idea, My mother saw me every day tired and worried about me, but I could no longer worry her with my problems since she is a little older, so I never said anything, I had also thought of leaving all my savings to her so she would not suffer too much when I am not around, since my father abandoned us when I was a little boy, classic cliché story, but anyway.
One day I arrived at the same pond, it was already 10 o'clock at night; My town is small and at that time there are never people, I did not want to bother anyone with my crazy decision, I brought very skillfully a bag of cement with a container and a large cup, determined to end this, I looked up thinking and looking at the starry sky with doubts to do so, but I remembered all the bad and perhaps thinking that I was doing good to go and leaving my mother without me so I no longer have concerns, decided to grab the cup filled with water and proceeded to make the mixture by pouring them into the container that I brought later putting my bare feet.
Already arrived at 4 am the cement was already a little hard and with the last strength I had left, I proceeded to push the block into the pond, submerging quickly seemed to be 4 meters deep, I felt like in about 20 seconds I was drowning, the truth I have never had good physical condition felt like my senses were leaving quickly, when I heard already far away a "splash" in the water, I felt like some hands helped me and saw just as someone with a stone broke the block I had between my feet before fainting.
After I passed out, I woke up in a hospital, my mother was next to me and when she saw me open my eyes she cried heartbreakingly and on my other side was the girl who always passed by me jogging, she looked at me and said "what was I thinking? crying I told her a little of my story and I told her that I have never had someone who loved me, she looked at me seriously and answered me with an annoying tone that next to me I have a person who loves you, she said it for my mother and left me cold, for my own selfish thoughts that had me cut off from the wonderful mother I had, she then ends up telling me that there is also another person who loves you blushing, when she finished talking I looked at her and I started to cry harder, but these tears are of happiness because I discovered that I am not alone, then she told me that she found me, because that day she had an urgent matter and did not go out to run at the time she normally does and as she is not to give up she went out at dawn to run, there she saw me in the distance and recognized me just when I dived into the pond and ran to save me without thinking and so we were talking for a while and she told me that I had to learn to say no, there I realized that sometimes fate has something else prepared for you.
It has been a while and I started dating the beautiful woman whose name is Lorena and we became boyfriend and girlfriend, I quit my toxic job and now I am following my goals, I always wanted to be a psychologist to be able to save the lives of other people who suffer the horrendous depression that almost ended me, with the savings I had I am making it and I will manage to get ahead, well and this has been my story, it is true I have not introduced myself until now, my name is Tommy and I would like to leave you a message, sometimes life makes you desperate, but remember there is always something waiting for you and do not disappoint your loved ones that you have left, because they would also suffer for your bad decisions and always keep in mind that there are times when you must learn to value more what you have and learn to say no, well, thank you for your attention and good luck, survivor.