No. No. No.
What the hell? There's no way I could be pregnant. I sped to the store flying through several stop signs without hesitation. My nerves are working on overdrive. The panic I can feel rising with each passing second made everything worse. I gripped my steering wheel tighter while trying to take even steady breaths. I don't know anything for certain yet. Now I'm almost home and we can figure out this ridiculous accusation Dimitri made. It's possible he's upset and took out his frustration on me with a lie. He doesn't seem like the type to lie though. Why was everything becoming so fucked up!
"Stupid bitch!" I slapped the steering wheel angrily.
I ran up the stairs as fast as my legs would take me, desperate to pee on this stick. I never thought I'd think that. Waiting is the worst of it all. I fumbled my keys and dropped them repeatedly attempting to unlock my front door.
"Fuck!" I cried while pounding my fists into my front door.
I pressed my head against the cold metal taking a deep breath. Finally, the keys slide into the lock. I threw all my things on the ground and rushed to the bathroom.
I can't be a mother. I never wanted to be a mother. This child wouldn't know who their father was because their mother was having too much fun jerking around three men at once. I wouldn't know how to love it, care for it, give it the life it deserves. I would only ruin it. Turn it into a monster most likely. My mind works in perverse ways, I wouldn't want this for a child. Especially a child I don't want to bear by any of these men.
Dimitri had a family of his own already and was happily with Eve. Eric is one of the few people I care for, but I still couldn't see it. I could see him being an amazing father, but not myself as a mother. Zeus. Zeus scared me. Dimitri was a tough man, but Zeus had a look in his eyes like he wasn't afraid to kill one if need be. I'd be terrified.
"Come on!" I shouted at the pregnancy test in frustration, "How long does it fucking take!"
I refrained from throwing the test into the wall and placed it in the sink. I gripped the cold edges trying my best to calm down. This is the most gruesome time lag ever. I closed my eyes. With each long drawn-out breath, I counted to ten and back. Gradually my heart began to slow and my anxiety was manageable compared to a few moments ago. I defiantly opened my eyes. With a final breath, I reached out for the test.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
Who the hell could that be? No one knows I'm home right now.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
"One moment!" I hollered while making my way out of the bathroom. I opened my front door only to reveal someone I didn't care to see. Someone I never thought I would see again. Did it have to be him? Of all people?
"Hi, Zeus," I forced, "How did you know where I lived?"
"Dimitri told me when he came home today that you both parted ways," he commented while welcoming himself into my home.
"Um," I cleared my throat, "Yes we did."
He nodded. The delightful confirmation on his face was behexing, "You have a beautiful home."
"Thank you," I lied, "What are you doing here Zeus?"
He turned back at me, his eyes burning with such intensity I had to turn away. I was blunt, but I'm in the middle of something important!
"I want you," he confessed.
I ran my fingers through my hair. Seriously? I can't deal with this shit right now.
"Look-"
"You'll be well compensated. Go to all of my lavish parties. Be my prize," he interrupted.
Prize? Is he a dumbass?
"I'm not a trophy wife of any kind," I shook my head while walking back to the restroom.
His massive hand seized my thin wrist in mid-stride, "I never said you were."
I tried walking away, but his grasp remained firm on me.
"Look!" I huffed, "I really have to pee!"
His eyes widened with a smile as he released me, "Apologies, I didn't realize."
I turned back and closed the bathroom door, locking it behind me. My heart was pounding so hard within my chest that I felt like it would break free at any moment. I slowly walked to the sink, my heartbeat playing tunes with each pulse. My shaky hand grasped the pregnancy test and turned it over. A tear trickled down my cheek.
Blank.