Song Recommendation: Without Me by HalseyLink: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/685rIFuG9cOohBky8bXrbO?si=99e3fa4594df44cbTW: Beware of wrong grammar and errors.Until now, we are still concerned about the happening, and here I am sitting at the chair, Bryle is asleep but he is still handsome, it's nice when you look at the one who will be your Jowa/ Girlfriend forever chariz, but maybe he will have a Girlfriend soon and for sure it's not me.Like I didn't notice I was smiling, "Stop staring at me, Lexiana," Bryle said while his eyes were still close"What? Hey, I'm not staring at you, don't accuse me," I nervously said"Are you sure, Ms. Lexiana?" He looks at me with a tense lookI look away , Ghad Bryle, make this easy, your eyes. Shit. I hate this. Why do I start this.Nah, it's my fault, damn it.My mind creates some teasing appearance, but I think this would lead to regret"Yes, I'm sure Mr. Bryle" I teasly look at him"Is anything matter, Lexiana?" He asked"None.""Then alright, nothing to worry about," He saidLike, what am I going to worry about? Huh? This boy is giving me a temper, like what in the world he did that just to acclaim. I just want to leave here right now cause he is most scarier than expected.Bye, bye.I went out, and kuya was attentive that time and gave me a sign if I wanted to go home, and I just nodded. A long ride happens, and here am I asleep like I was tired.Achilles POVMy little sister fell asleep on the car so I let her put in her room to rest well, I know her, she was tired like this, my sister deserve a rest so after I put her in her room I immediately proceed through the kitchen to cook some pasta, I know after a long nap, Lexiana will wake up and ask for food.My sister deserves all the truth, but now I won't tell her, she needs time to recover, I know she won't be able to act once she knows everything. I felt bad at her mostly, especially for both of them. I'll just wait for Lexiana to find out everythingAnd stay away for it, I know my sister will handle everything softly, but I know she needs me in her downs, so I'll be staying at her side no matter what happened.The next dayLexiana POVI woke up so energetic today and here I am making coffee, I also open my curtains for the balcony and I see this would be the perfect view for a morning, I used to do this often when I was busy so it's just now again."Me time" is what really makes my day, which is my habit.Precedingly, I also take out my laptop, it seems nice to work here, I still have a diary here on my laptop, all the events are detailed here, sometimes I associate it with the notion app or online scrapbook like it is amidst on the past.After doing some things beyond, I decided to go to the hospital to see Bryle. It's okay. I'll just take it to my brother.When we arrived at the hospital, I immediately went to his room, I was about to open the door when I heard some noises, it was a girl voice coming from the room, I open the door and there I see themLooking them so happy makes me sad, halfway happy, halfway sad, before they see me I decide to run away, like why? Why did he let this happen?Like we're both okay, then what now?Is it right to force love even if you're hurt already?Are they together already? Am I too late?Why is it easy to change everything? Like why its too fast?I can't help but question everything. I felt I was dumb at always. I didn't mind if ever I stand or not. Why am I feeling this? Do I deserve this?Is this the right time to stay away?September 21? Wow, what in the world! (Exclaimed in so much, I wonder if I can still manage in the futureIs he doing me as fame?Shit, I'm enough of thisI ran away without closing the door, I was hurt, I'll just leave behind.I think everything leads to happen, but why? I thought it's already enough. Is this love? Am I hard to love? This is me, like, are they want me to love them just for fame?Should I stop letting him at my life?I was about to leave, but someone grabbed my hand, I looked who it was And That was BryleI immediately removed his hands through me"Go back, I don't want to see you." "Lexiana, you are wrong.""Wrong?! The fuck Bryle, I'm freaking stupid to know you, I wish I never met you, previously we were okay but now I'm going to see you hanging out with others how about now? I'm the one who got trampled by pride?! Fuck you Bryle! and please don't ever come near me again!"I aggressively remove my hand to him and go to my brother's car, first I let us get away a little while I just cried out of frustrationHow could this happen? I thought it was okay? I just thought so"Kuya can I transfer school?" I ask"Why?""I'm tired, I'm sick of it""I think mom and dad wouldn't allow that, based mom and dad wants you to stay there not until you graduate grade 12"I just look at the buildings we headed by, why the world is so unfair, do i need to shout my stupid feelings against it, like how far are long am I like this?I wish this could pass, I want peace.After he proclaimed that he won't hurt me again like fuck! This is so unintentional, can I just be gone? My parents are also on his side, like how about me?After this, I will not entertain anymore. Fuck this life.When we got home, I saw him (Bryle again)Like I just walk awayHe keeps calling my name but I slam my own door just to shut him upI didn't hesitate to go out, I was tired and I didn't have the strength to face a cheating person, nor am I like that"Princess, you open the door" Kuya saidI got up and opened the door"Here is your dinner, some time has passed and mom ordered me to give this to you so you eat now""Can you come inside brother, I have something to tell" I saidHe sat down on my bed area and I am sitting on my chair"I felt lost kuya, like because of him I was hurt, I saw him with a girl, they are both sweet, laughing, like I feel they are in a relationship now, the one I can't accept is the way why he didn't told me about that girl, am I just hang up here? I can't realize he will provoke me like this Kuya""Lexiana I know you've hurt, but you know what better focus on academics right now, this might get trouble once everything would lead to fail, I know better on you, you began to know everything that will give you peace of mind, just let it move right now, and go with the flow.""Okay kuya, thanks for being there" I smiled bitterly "Always be, now eat and lets go for night driving in the city""Now?" "Later after you finished eating. I'll just wait you downstairs""Thank you kuya!" I eat and after that I freshen up before I go down, I wear something that I'm comfortable and yes what I'm wearing is a bit stylish nowIt's good that there is no one here in the house, I think mom and dad went to a business trip again so they weren't there, I was about to step out when I heard his voice"Leaving alone?" Bryle tries to stop me but I aggressively remove my hand on him Damn this man, can he just don't mind me? It irritates me"Go away with your girl not me"I am not a puppet. I am a woman who can feel the pain. Enduring this happening is like hell. I wish I couldn't meet you soon enough. We left home, peace is clearly needed, I'm not sure if I'm suit here, I just want rest for everything. No regrets at any doing so I better leave all from the dust. Kuya is so fast, he stop at my fav spot, Makati City."Why here kuya?" I ask my Kuya and just follow him"Look!" He points what he describes and yes I notice the lights on the buildingsIt was Rockwell, MakatiI got tear eye"Thank you" I hug my brother as I burst out with tears"If you don't like buildings maybe sea coast will lead you to happiness""Should I hide?""Lexiana, that isn't part of it, one time you'll learn in your own feet, I must say you grown up but it isn't enough that you are always getting out of your toes. Stand through it Lexiana, I know you are strong enough to prove, please don't be fragile this time""Okay kuya" I smile a bit and he just hug me"Let yourself heal in different ways, for sure it will never fail you"I just simply noddedThis is when I realized that this is what he meant, I thought what I was doing was right but it turned out to be wrong, I started to get up again, even though he was there nagging me, I didn't take care of him because I knew the hardship in the past.After 2 months I began to change my own perception, I did all the things I can did especially now I'm here achieving more without hesitating me for everything what I've done. I didn't pay attention that must and just stop looking for any guys out here.I began to see my interest on academic privileges like what I've seen in the society of schools, Academy Day, Feast Day, Intramurals, Christmas party, Promenade, and many more, here we are soon enough we are heading to Christmas, but planning is usual doings especially on Grade 9 or should I say 3rd year high school."Lexi!" Celestina approach me"Oh hi,""Here is the sketch book, it's your turn to read now" she said"Mind if I borrow it?" Kaioux said"Nah, I'm the first one who notice her not you!" I said"No, me is the first" he said"Nah, stop pulling it" I said"No, I'm not gonna stop if you will give it to me" he said"Enough of you guys, just give it to Lexiana, Kaioux, maybe later on you can borrow it" Celestina said"See? I win" I muttered"Fine. Whatever" he rolled his eyes and yes definitely I'm here reading of what's Celestina's writing, she is obviously a writer since we are grade 7 but now she insisted growing her status on media in Wattpad and other links of it, gotta be so proud at my friend"Since we are heading to Christmas, your Sem-break will be on October 29- November 5, we extend it for your long vacation as we go on with the next event here in our school which is Christmas party, other may play instruments like guitar and Drum and Lyre, fir the DLC's I want you to perform also our dance which is folk dance, with your partners together with the other section will be formed of, now form a line so that we are going to arrange you each by each, understand?""Yes sir" we saidWe form a line, other line for girls and boys, by height will be the exact of it."Sir, we kindly also excuse our majorette and other members of DLC for the practice" Kuya said"Sure," He stood up and announce "DLC members kindly proceed through your practice, I'll let you practice soon enough" Our adviser saidI left them and here we are again a new songs will be released and busy than expected will be happenWhen I go down like I notice him but I don't think much of it, I was standing right in the middle together with the co-DLC members and we are there to start, all suddenly of my classmates are there but I don't care, this isn't my first time performing at all risk.Within the signage that they give me we proceed with number 1 which is the song "Shalala"As we perform with the steps and me as their leader I wanted to be perfect but just on the right way, as contented with the dance instructor many of the students are just looking and here am I it's like nothing that happens.Not until the song Sway- Michael bublè played, played by the lyrist will be automatically in the moment that we are dead's, we are having swaying hips left to right and with twirl, like this song is we hate the most of all.Preparation will be hectic as planned but we are willing to do.Then the songs continue to rise not until it was finished alreadyShalala- Sway-Dance again- Alma Mater hymn- LambadaAfter that me and Mia just sit in the chairs so that we have rest for the another practice, it was quite feels heavy but they change everything right on time that from folk dances to Korean theme like are they sure about this??But sure things off, we can do it. Even I knew everything about Kpop it doesn't change the fact that it leads to modernity. Our school depends on the theme of every Academy day so I simply follow what is taken from the rules given for.We have also pageants but I just let wondering myself by being okay in my situation then I'm definitely done.Approximately, we've been done by 1/2 of our steps and ready to endure all the steps taken for the kpop dance, more of the classes are starting to merge and as one performer they actually plan this to take chance for the student away first at the academical era."Are you ready for your part?" Our adviser ask us "Yes sir!" We saidHe immediately positioned us to our designated places as given with the empty area, others may not obtain and can follow all but all we need to do is to follow them.There is also contest for the basketball, badminton, swimming and other sports.Literally of my time was moving through everyday practicesAfter a week, our practices meant to last finally, struggles and time consuming may our hard work paid off. Tomorrow will be the event day The next dayI was really tired but I manage to get ready, Kuya will drive me going to school and yes, I was wearing my Drum and Lyre suit, having this day is really tight but ready for everything, most of them are ready to start the parade and we just have our own positioned and we are ready to go.Our Teachers command me to do my task and I raised my baton together with my co-majorettesWe whistle and the drum and Lyre start with the song Lambada, we march and specifically they arrange their line with the checking lead which is my Co- Majorettes, once it was cleared I raised for the number 1 music which is the shalala, the song is great as well also we are heading the town and turning back for the performances taken. After 5 music stated, I might clearly see that it was good in repeating. After 1 hour of parade, we all take rest and eat first. Our teachers gave us food to eat so we are no worries through the time.When we are finished eating performance is continued, we begin with the 2nd performer, and yet we will give our best to perform.The time we are performing many people who are watching over us, more students appeal with our music based on Blackpink, BTS, and many more. This is a great moment to us. We exhibit a large range of energy in every song taken through the process.After minutes of performing, finally, we are done for it. It wasn't a waste of time. Actually, we enjoy it. I wonder how time is being impossible going through.After the performance, we just simply watch those lower grades who are performing, though.After several performances were taken, our administrator took a speech"I may address this to our fellow students, thank you for performing your best as you practice a lot, and to those who win this time gets into the hands, I may thank the Drum and Lyre Corps for giving their best through the all and to all your performances I won't even neglect because you did it well, we are once for all to get this chance given through us, this school year for you is a gratitude towards everything, as with the lights lift, accordingly your vacation will be starting tomorrow until November 5, enjoy your long vacation and the fireworks may entertain you for your hardships and at the moment let's enjoy! Thank you!" Our administrator saidFinally, we are done on everything.I notice someone who is looking me from afar, I thought I was daydreaming, but no, it's not. It was Kuya Xaviun who was approaching me with a bouquet of flowersLike I didn't expect everything, like really?I'm shocked, totally?