***Navi's current point if view in *Dream land..
The rage coming from Ikita is explosive yet his face remains utterly calm almost as if he has lost the ability to display any forms of emotions on his face at that moment.
The kneeling man at the corner of the room trembles even more for some reason as he feels a fiery aura from the masked man that somehow brings out even more cold sweat from his pores with tears of fear spilling from his eyes but he keeps silent as his body did nothing but tremble.
All of a sudden, Ikita turns around as if to exit but the his earpiece turns on with a new message from Ikita's obvious least favourite person in the galaxy.
"..Do.. your.. job. We don't want her to miss another dose of lifesaver do we,.. your last mistake almost cost her life do you think she can afford to see you make another one", A mature, calm yet awfully disgusting voice compels Ikita whose fingers trembles with more rage building up in his chest.
"You didn't say the target is a child..", Ikita says calmly but Navi could feel the piercing rage in every word.
Navi finally gets a bit of the gist of why Ikita reacted so badly. Navi has never tried to be the guy to uphold moral principles especially considering his world but even he thinks that with children,.. you're crossing a line.(He has literally forgotten that he's twelve).
"Your job isn't to murder her,.. your Job is to extract the serum from her else the girl back home would not well,.. get hers.", The woman's voice says calmly as she has clearly lost a beating heart in her body in exchange for being practical.
Ikita stops everything for a while as he stands in silence. Navi can clearly feel the clash of different emotions in Ikita with someone he holds dear on the receiving end of not completing the mission.
"Will it kill her?..", Ikita asks calmly but this time he gets no more response from the other side.
Navi watches all of this in silence as Ikita Shi remains rooted in the same position for a full one minute while hating himself more and more with every second more that he doesn't find the courage to go out of the room.
His expression behind the mask remains calm and cold and then he somehow manages to push down all the heavy and suffocating emotions no matter how wrong or right to the bottom of his already filled up stomach as he pulls out a small injection like machine.
Calmly, he puts it on the child's chest with something in him breaking into pieces as three small needles goes into the child's heart while a massive stake goes in his own.
The process took only one minute with the machines in the room showing a very low pulse at the end of it all.
Not brave enough to face what he had just done, Ikita gives himself the benefit of doubt as he hurriedly walks out of the hole he burnt in the door with his fingers trembling.
'She might make it..', He repeats calmly in his head over and over again as he walks away with the very sour benefits of doubt in his mind as the pulse remains beeping.
Navi watches all of this as his inexistent fingers clenches up while his point-of-view sees the straight back of his alternate self in calm retreat after he calmly makes a decision he never hopes to make.
A decision that broke him to fix someone else..
Navi couldn't even fully accept the emotions running through Ikita Shi's mind right now and cannot even begin to try to understand how he's keeping it all together despite emotions this intense running loose in his head.
The scene slowly begins to become blurry until it fades as the overlapping voices becomes even wilder and louder. Navi finds himself back in the waters with the pains assaulting his mind once more but he didn't feel much of it this time.
It still hurts like crazy but he is just too exhausted to feel too much of it and then, the powerful voice returns all of a sudden with a renewed vengeance..
"SUFFERINGS IS ONLY A MEANS TO SALVATION,.. #$*YJI IS &/£* ##**
"WHAT TRULY IS BALANCE?!!!!!!!!!..".
With a big gasp, Navi returns back to reality with the sun up and his entire body covered in cold sweat.
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Unlike last time, there's no blood over his eyes and Navi isn't even bothered to check as he focuses on controlling his breathing.
*Breathe In*....*Breath Out*...
Every breath stung, his heart and lungs were numb and painful and his muscles were completely sore. For the first minute, the room lies in a utter blur and the pain of pushing himself up from his sleep so quickly settles down into his mind as he gives a pained groan.
After adjusting his pillow then slowly adjusting himself Navi now has his back against the wall as he thinks about his dreams.
The first clear dream scene showed a ten years old Ikita Shi in what he assumed to be forced training as he effortlessly slaughtered his way through dozens of men. In this scene, he has been introduced to that cold woman who proves to be as villain in this story as well as the hatred and a little care which disgusted him that Ikita Shi holds for her.
In tonight's scene, the emotions that the nineteen years old Ikita Shi holds for her is different. There is no hatred, no anger, no care just calm with a cold spark of disgust.
Even when she had threatened him to do the unthinkable he only felt rage and not hate towards her, the hate was all directed to himself for making the choice and being the monster.
Navi is able to get a lot of information from tonight's dream as he now knows that there is someone, a 'she' to be specific that Ikita Shi wanted to protect.
Whoever she is needs a serum to keep living and that cold evil woman is the only source of her lifesaver thus keeping Ikita in an iron firm hold.
The last thing Navi has learnt from this dream is from that powerful voice,.. he has finally heard a part of the riddle before the question 'What truly is balance?' and it says..
'Suffering is only a means to salvation..'
The full riddle seems to contain over a dozen lines but Navi is satisfied that he had atleast gotten a line out of the pains his body is currently feeling.
Navi soon goes to pull out a book and quill as he records every single information about his dreams.
Meanwhile..
***In Consort Tamara's Palace within the Imperial Dynasty, In a Cultivation chamber.