James's POV
Aimee's face keeps haunting my head.
Damn it.
I never thought she was my mate, I mean.. I knew she was my mate since last year when she turned 18, but.. Ah, this is hard to talk about.
"Keep complaining while you just asked him to marry you, what do you want James? You should just follow my words to reject him, why do you keep your mate? Aimee is a lousy girl."
"I just need Aimee to piss Emilia off, Diz. I'm sure Emilia will be back. If I reject Aimee, The Moon Goddess will give me a new mate, I don't want any other woman apart from Emilia in my life. I just prevent my heart from falling in love with another woman, Aimee is a person who will never be able to make me turn away from Emilia. After all, Aimee's face was encouraging enough to make Emilia angry, she wouldn't have expected me to be so reckless as to marry that weak woman."
"Ah, I'm sick of your love affair."
Well, I don't blame my wolf who is tired of asking me to move on from Emilia. But, it is a difficult thing and will never happen.
I really love Emilia, for me she is the woman who conquered me and made me stop playing with girls, she taught me the meaning of love. The way and affection she give to me can't be replaced by any woman.
Being an Alpha who is respected by many packs and maintaining the good name of the family in order to continue to be in a position above the werewolf clan made me very frustrated with my fated mate.
I know, The Moon Goddess is definitely not careless in giving me a mate. But… She is Aimee, the weakest person who doesn't even deserve to be my friend. She is way below me or other werewolves. I don't want to tarnish my bloodline with a weak woman who can never even transform into a wolf.
If people think Aimee's life is sad, they should see me too. I'm much more pathetic than that weak girl. I've waited until I was twenty years old about my mate, my heart breaks when I see Aimee is my mate.
I remember her crying on her eighteenth birthday, her face flooded with tears from not being able to get her wolf. She and the other omegas sat in the backyard of the mansion. I can still feel the anger rising up inside of me at that moment.
Just imagine, I've been in a relationship with Emilia since I was seventeen years old. I've been wishing my mate was her. But, The Moon Goddess even tested my patience by giving Aimee.
Fortunately, Aimee didn't have any reaction, which I feel like she doesn't know about her mate. There shouldn't be any problems, I already planned to reject her when I was 23 years old or when I would take Emilia as my luna. Emilia didn't mind that either, but what I got now was actually the opposite.
I don't know what was on Emilia's mind when she chose to leave me and go with another Alpha from the west. Five months have passed, but I still can't get my broken heart back. My head is constantly haunted by her shadow, how she melts my hard and cold heart, she is so perfect.
"The Alpha chosen by Emilia is definitely more talented than you. He won't be stupid and get caught up in love affairs just because of parting with a woman who isn't even his mate!"
"You never understood about love, Diz. Stop meddling in my business. If you say that, maybe Emilia will also leave him. Emilia never told me about her mate, she always said that she had rejected her mate. Obviously, the Alpha he chose now was definitely not her mate. There is also a possibility that he will fall like me."
"You wish! what if Emilia lies and it turns out he is her mate?"
"Diz, I want to kill you."
That's impossible, Emilia once told me that she could never accept the fated mate given by The Moon Goddess. She wants to find a man who fits her criteria herself, even if she has to end up without a mate and is considered to be challenging fate, she doesn't care.
Ah, I really miss her.
"Alpha James, can I talk to you for a second?"
"Look at this girl, she is very beautiful. Jessica is much better suited for you than Emilia!"
"Shut up, Diz. I've slept with Jessica before and she's nothing special."
"What?"
Jessica looked blushed. This girl with long red hair is one of the many women I slept with before meet Emilia. She's wild, for some reason she's standing in front of me now. We never communicated anything after that night. As I recall, she is also Beta Legolan's mate.
"You know, Legolan is away... I don't know why, since a few days ago I keep seeing you gloomy. Maybe, we need to have some fun like we used to? Breaking up is something you don't need to think about for a long time." Jessica narrowed her eyes at me, she was too confident to tease me.
"You'd better save your offer for another man or for Legolan. Don't repeat this cheap attitude, you don't need to remember the past stories that happened. We're young and wild, the complacency is over. Leave before I kick you out of this pack."
Jessica left while holding back in embarrassment, I could see her hands were clenching. She must be pissed off. I hate it when they think of me like shit, damn it. She and other women who might want to approach me should have realized, they were nothing, they were just my experiment to vent my burning lust.
"You really are crazy, even though Jessica is one of your members who is so beautiful. She's not just any clan kid, you should be able to think about that further."
"I don't need all that Diz, if I really want it, I can just come to her room tonight and she will be willing to take off her clothes. I purposely asked all members to practice in this lake so I can enjoy the calm atmosphere while watching them as my members. I don't need to be teased, all I need is Emilia."
Diz didn't respond to my words anymore. Looks like my wolf has really had enough. What else can we do? I was indeed mad by Emilia.