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[Yoon Siyeon POV]
After dropping my boyfriend off near his house and returning to my room, I quickly took off my bag and clothes and went to the bathroom.
Then, I sat naked on the toilet and carefully rubbed my moistened pussy with my thin fingers.
Aahhhhh… Squeak…
"Haa… ♡ I got horny in the taxi."
As many people told me I was innocent, I felt ashamed, and my face heated up.
I massage my breasts with my free hand, and I pinch my nipples with my thumb and index finger.
Squeak… Squeak… Aahhh!!
As my pussy started to get wet with love juice, I rubbed the area surrounding my clitoris to get it even more excited.
"Hmm… I like this… ♡"
'How did I end up masturbating alone like this?'
The day I started dating Jihoon, I was hoping that I would finally be able to have some sexy skinship with him. I was excited to have sex.
It was four years of unrequited love.
I knew deep down that it was a two-way love, but for four years I couldn't bring myself to say it out loud because I was afraid of what might happen.
And my boyfriend, Jihoon Kim, confessed to me that he felt the same way.
When I was a freshman in high school, we first played and hung out together.
From then on, Kim Jihoon was a boy that caught my eye and my heart. He studied well, had a pretty face, and had a bright and fun personality.
Whenever I saw him pretending not to care and taking care of the kids around him, I couldn't help but smile happily.
However, at that time, I liked hanging out with my friends the most, so even though I was always looking at Jihoon Kim, I didn't even think about dating him.
A year has passed since we were just friends, then two years, then three years.
Is it because I didn't make a proper decision in first grade? I missed the timing. In the end, we were just close friends until we graduated from high school.
Rather, the kids around me said, 'Aren't you guys dating?' A friend asks, but every time she asks, she just waves her hand and says, 'We're best friends~'.
In the end, Kim Jihoon and I ended up going to different universities, and I was worried that if this continued, we would end up meeting and dating someone else.
But.
Entering university, experiencing various things, and meeting people. I once again thought that Jihoon Kim was a much better guy than any other guy.
There was no one who matched his personality as much as he was an outcast, no one who was secretly devoted to self-management, and no one who was as considerate as he was.
And just like me, even though Kim Jihoon was a man worthy of having a girlfriend, there was no news of this kind.
Even after we entered college, we kept in touch often and met to eat and drink. We were still spending a lot of time together, as if we were in high school.
But our time as friends only became longer. Since we were so close, it was even more difficult to say something like that.
Another year passed, and I was already in my second year of college.
"There is a guy among my classmates who is crazy about volunteer work. Should I talk to him? You said you wanted to do volunteer work properly."
"Is he really crazy about volunteer work?"
"I heard he's been doing volunteer work with his mom since he was really young, so he's probably done thousands of hours just thinking about the time he has now."
"Really? How did he do so much? It's amazing~"
"Thousands of hours may be a little odd, but it's definitely more than a thousand hours. Anyway, should I ask him if there's any good volunteer work?"
"Thank you for doing so. Thank you~ Jihoon Kim!"
One day. Jihoon remembered that I wanted to do volunteer work someday and gave me a suggestion first by telling me about his friend.
Of course, I accepted it eagerly. It was true that I wanted to say it, and I was very happy that Jihoon remembered what I said in passing.
'Ah~ Jihoon Kim. You're using that as an excuse to try to go on a date with me.'
With my heart full of excitement, as if I were about to fly, I met Jihoon on Friday night under the pretext of discussing what time we would meet on Sunday and go.
But that day, something felt different from usual.
Unlike me, who is a strong drinker, Jihoon, who enjoys drinking but is a little weak when it comes to alcohol itself, asked me seriously with a slightly intoxicated look.
"Hey, but why don't you have a boyfriend?"
The moment I heard those words, I thought that if I missed this opportunity, I would only live as friends with this person for the rest of my life.
I was a little offended that he had foolishly asked a question rather than a confession, but I was still grateful that he had at least opened the door.
Because I wasn't that passive and boring woman who just waited.
"Then what about you? You're already 21 years old, and you haven't even had a girlfriend. What are you doing? Are you waiting to date me?"
"Oh, what are you talking about?"
"That's right. Kim Jihoon, you tell me right now. Do you like me or not?"
"…"
"It's your last chance. Speak properly and clearly."
"… I like you. Hey, let's go out with me."
"Why did it take you four years to say that, you idiot?"
A bit unexpectedly, unexpectedly. But deep down, we were always ready.
That's how we started dating.
Although we had been friends for too long, we hesitated and barely held hands before going home.
When I returned home that day, I masturbated like this.
I think back to Kim Jihoon, who was taller and more manly than when he was in high school.
Imagine our first experience in the future.
Aahhhhh… ! Aahhhhh… !
"Huh… ♡ I love my pussy~."
I was masturbating while imagining a hot night with my boyfriend.
But..
One day, something changed.
The day I first met Jihoon's college classmate.
He was a really nice guy and a friend that Jihoon praised, saying he was a good kid.
Ever since I saw Seonha Lee.
***
"It's kind of awkward, right?"
"How long will we be like friends? Let's get used to it."
"Right?"
I overcame the awkwardness, held hands with Jihoon, and stopped by the daycare center.
After being guided by a staff member to a playroom where young children were gathered, we held our breath and looked at a man playing with a child.
"Hey! You have to stick a straw in it!"
"Are you drinking from it?"
"Yes! Plug it here!"
"Minwoo, give it a try. Then your Oppa will follow suit."
"You have to plug it in here!"
"Hyung, can you plug it in?"
"Here!"
"Your Oppa is also good at plugging in. Check it out."
A child who doesn't listen properly to the point where it's frustrating, and a man who doesn't show any signs of annoyance to such a child and has a thoughtful conversation with patience.
As the two of us looked at him blankly, the employee next to us added an explanation.
"You said you were Seonha's friends, right? Please stay well in the future. There really is no one as kind and good as Seonha. I can't help but feel so much help every time he comes."
I heard that the child, who suffers from an intellectual disability, is being cared for from the moment he arrives. I was amazed inside.
I've heard a lot of people say that Jihoon is a kind and good boy, but since they were his friends, I thought they may have exaggerated it a bit. Rather, there was a sense of inadequacy.
Jihoon next to me had his mouth wide open, as if he didn't know it was going to be this bad.
After a while, the moment I met Lee Seon-ha for the first time.
"Hello! Are you Seonha Lee? I've heard a lot about you."
"Hello. I only heard you were a friend, but I didn't know you were his girlfriend."
A greeting with a gentle smile on a face with eyes that are so kind that it makes you feel good just by looking at them.
I really liked it. Thank you again to Jihoon. I feel like my boyfriend has connected me with a good relationship.
And that day.
I was able to feel the reward of volunteering for the first time in my life by playing with and supporting young children with all my might.
"Next time, let's have a meal together. I wish we had more time today. Goodbye, Seonha!"
After receiving my number from my boyfriend's friend, Sunha, who gave me a good opportunity, I parted ways with a promise for the next time.
I was full of determination.
I was planning to have our first kiss and first sex experience today, something I had secretly been thinking about since I left home.
Although we had only been dating for a short time, we were already 21 years old. There is no reason or need to delay further. I no longer wanted to masturbate alone at home.
So, I went home after dinner with my heart pounding.
The moment when my boyfriend, who had seen me off nearby, tried to kiss me romantically under the light of a streetlamp.
Tap! Stop!
I blocked it without even realizing it. Suddenly, it occurred to me that it was not now.
Jihoon was definitely the one who got me excited until yesterday and until this morning, but for some reason, I didn't feel that way.
"Is it too early? Do you hate it?"
"Oh, no… That's not it."
To my boyfriend, who seemed hurt by that, I was so embarrassed that I somehow managed to say something.
"That… I was always looking forward to it. But I felt like I wanted to save something. Ah… ! What am I saying?"
I still liked Kim Jihoon, but my feelings changed only about skinship.
"It's not because you hate me, is it?"
"No! I love you! Okay, I love you. I know it's a stupid story in today's world, but... It's already too late. I want to save it until a more important day."
"That's it. I thought you suddenly started to look ugly. I was so surprised."
"Ahhh! I said no!"
"I understand. But is this okay?"
Me, who is confused and unable to speak properly, me who speaks gibberish and spews out absurd sounds.
Jihoon smiled and hugged me. At the same time, she felt extremely relaxed and reassured.
In response, I hugged the waist of my boyfriend, who had been my friend for a long time, and apologized once again.
"Sorry… It took us so long, and I was saying something weird."
"It's okay. If you feel that way, I can wait too. Do you think I haven't dated another woman for 4 years for no reason?"
"Giggle, me too. I didn't date another guy for no reason... Yeah. Wait, Jihoon Kim!"
"Look at how proud you are when you refuse to kiss your boyfriend."
"I'm sorry~"
I was so thankful. My love for him grew even more. I really liked my boyfriend, who tried to understand me even though I couldn't understand it myself.
And when I parted ways with Jihoon and returned home,.
"Haa… "
Aahhh!!! ♡
Somehow, only then did my body start to heat up.
When I was with my boyfriend, I was waiting for that kind of time more than anything else, but I still had an overwhelming sexual desire.
The moment he was gone, I was horny again.