Aaarrgh~
Screaming so loud for no reason
Me lord, me lord.
Augh, me head.
Looking around, this is the little space in the cave that I call mine room, and for the first time I see other people beside Aslan.
What happened back then?
I asked while sitting on mine own cape
But "back then"?
What am I talking about..??
Please take it easy on yourself me lord.
So the worried Aslan said
Easy what? Am not doing hard labour of sort!
Like for real, something is off
Now I think about it...
Where's the rest of the people?
Am asking about!!
Hmmn?
Not even sure what am asking about, but why do I think there's some people who must be presented here?
Leave us alone.
Aslan order these people to go away, why?
How do me lord feels now?
He asks after everybody left
So it's a private conversation!
Aside from the shallow headache, I think am perfectly fine.
Called it shallow, because it's similar to the pain when I oversleep sometimes, so I assume it will go away soon in itself.
Wait!? Were I asleep for days or something??
Just realized these possiblities.
Please no need to worry me lord, there's no physical damage for me lord to sleep for long.
There's a mental damage of sort?
From what?
Talking about me physically and deny it, I asked about the opposite possible conclusion, and more importantly, from what?
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Do me lord not remember?
Why would I ask if I can?
Ah! Sorry...
Why so round about the subject that I don't even know what it is?
And??
Me deepest apology, but if me lord can't remember, then so be it.
Why don't you tell me and end this sarcasm?
I burst in anger
Speak, now, everything, explain!!
Out of patience am ordering him to spill the beans, said it with key words like a bot!
What the heck did I say?
Anyway here am waiting him to explain despite mine serious demands just moments ago...
He's still looking down
Why is it this difficult to say??
I ask quietly after long silence
Has me lord made up his mind?
This question out of no where? What had I missed? Why can't remember?
.
Why so vague? Can't you say it straight??
After what happened to me lord, me came to a realization, so me thought, what would happen to us if me lord died??
This is...? What are you on about?? And I still can't remember what happened to me, why don't you start with that? Huh!?
The talk were quiet before I rised mine voice just now, how strange! and suspicious too!!
Now I think about it again, is it a mental shock?? Is this what happened to me?
This is the only possiblity I could think of, though it doesn't help much in this conversation, even though it explain why he's trying so hard to not say it straight.
Why would it matter if I dye??
This question is the main reason why Adam decided to set out of this isolated place.
Back to topic.
Huh? Were I thinking loudly?
No that's not it...
Had Adam told you something I don't know?
Adam didn't tell me everything in his mind, rather than convincing me to get mine blessings before he and Taboo set out, all he said were no more than hints, hints that I didn't think deeply about and missed the point, which is why am asking Aslan if he know or realized something important.
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"it's like the difference between virtual and real world, when me lord comes to this realization, what would he do?" is what Adam said at the end.
So as I thought, they actually met before Adam decided to leave.
And what do you think?
It's funny that mine first clone is acting like the know it all wiseman.
In virtual world, wouldn't mind throwing me life to save someone I love, no.. It's still the same case even if I don't know the person, after all it's a mere game and losing life means nothing with the respawning function..
It's not funny coming out of a clone that usually won't respawn in games
On the other hand, let's say in the real word that me lord want to rescue his beloved, would me lord risk his own life to do so??
Such a tough question
Can't answer it no matter how hard I think
I mean... is there such a person in me life?
It's been proven scientifically that "love blocks the feelings of fear"..
Of course I know this info, after all he got the same knowledge of mine, but...
You know too that I never experienced love
But me lord, love is not all about romance, what about mother, the person who have been taking care of me lord!!
Mum Huh!??
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Speaking of mother, do I love her??
Of course am not denying anything she did to me, in fact I apreciate it, she faced lots of hardships and struggles after mine father been murdered in prison
I was a kid back then, naive and ignorant, yet I can recall the scenarios of the past and realized everything while growing up
Am so gratefull to mother...
Is that so?
Hmnn?
He heard mine thoughts?
Uh, what's with this unpleasant remark?!!
Ahem! Not trying to scold me lord, but it's the truth that not returning the favor is a type of ingratitude, especially when talking about parents.
Am.. I.. What?
I snap at him, yet I lost mine words
Speechless because I can't prove the opposite, what he said was the bitter truth
What have I done to return the favor?
Talking about mine mother, I were rethinking about mine feelings towards her, even this is an ingratitude in itself..
Perhaps me lord needs time to rethink about his personal feelings, but now there's an urgent matter at hand to determine without any delay.
I agree with this, we drifted from the main subject, what was it??
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Back to topic..!!
If I were to be real in the past world, I would cower in fear, or even run away
That's!! That.. Is?
He answered the last question in mine stead
His answer holds strong empact on me
Because it represent mine honest answer that I'm avoiding, he's mine clone after all, holding the same memorise of mine from the moment he's born
Was it this difficult to admit mine shortcomings?
Yes me lord, that's why courage is needed.
Sigh~
After mine sigh, I take breaths deeply, in and out to clear mine mind
You're not saying this to mock me, and..?
Indeed me lord, now back again to Adam's critical point, are we to treat this world like the real one? Or are we to treat it like a game and just play around??
Hmnn, now I get it...
So he mentioned that example about protecting the beloved ones to explain why I must choose now
You know why I can't decide yet, this world oppose the very basics of mine principles and faith you know!
It does, surely.., but must decide soon me lord, these weeks are the turning point for the lands, especially with the resoluted Sven house that decided to settle her, how can we manage them when we don't even know how to treat them??
He has a good point here
If this world is real, then they're real people and we must treat them as such
But If this world is not real, we can treat them however we want, as we treat non-player characters like in games
"This is not real" this was and still mine first doubts in the moment I came to this unknown fantasy world
But it looks very realistic, feels and smells as such, how can I deny that?
Yet on the other hand, there's magic you know, there's mine copies too and this is why am back to square one
How can I confirm?
Is there any way to confirm which is which?