(Serena's POV).
It broke my heart to know that Evan and I were finally officially divorced. Yeah, our official divorce was announced by the judge, and of course I became a widow.
I looked at his face for the last time, and then I left the room to get away from this painful place.
I actually wanted to tell him something, which might make him cancel the divorce, but I wasn't sure that I would be able to go through with a marriage where one of them had no feelings. So I chose to back off and not tell him anything.
"Serena," Evan suddenly called out as I was about to leave the courthouse.
I immediately turned around with a feeling so painful that I couldn't explain it. But thank God, I wasn't crying in front of him.
"Thank you for everything. If you don't mind, I'll see you once a week or month," he said.
"I should be the one thanking you, Evan. You've helped me so much and made me who I am today. So, thank you," I said without replying to his part in wanting to see me.
"How about visiting you?"
Damn ... He was so enthusiastic about it. I shook my head and said, "For now, not yet, Evan. I still need some time."
His brow furrowed when he heard my words, and then I realized that what I just said had a meaning that led to my feelings.
"Forget it. I should get going," I said then.
Without preventing me, I actually got into the car and left him still standing there looking at me.
My tears instantly fell as I felt an excruciating pain I'd never felt before. This hurt more than knowing that he had a boyfriend. Because who would want their household to end like this? Of course, it was just Evan.
My chest was tight, and I kept driving without knowing where I was going. Whatever it was, today I should really make myself cry as much as possible because maybe tomorrow I will be a tough and strong woman living my new life without Evan.
At the intersection, I stopped at the red light, and suddenly I saw someone waving at me.
I looked at her; she was Mona.
She was waving at me and was accompanied by Evan. How could he get there quickly? This only made me hurt even more.
I tried not to look at them, but then Evan called out to me and approached my car.
"Can you fully lower the window, Serena?"
"I have no time, Evan," I answered him coldly.
He was stunned by my reaction, but when he stared at me fora few minutes, I obeyed as he asked.
"Let's get coffee," he said with a meaningful look.
I knew that look. The look that wanted me to do the drama. Although we were already divorced, he still wanted me to do my job.
"I can't; I'm sorry. I have something to do," I said in my trembling voice, which sounded weird to his ear because he furrowed his eyebrows.
When the light was green, I drove as fast as I could until I knew that they wouldn't follow me.
When I arrived at the apartment, he provided me with compensation, and my tears were streaming down my cheeks nonstop.
"Ugh," I groaned.
I looked at the ring that I always wore. My wedding ring. I thought from this moment on that I wouldn't take it off because the ring had been touched by him since marriage.
In two hours, my things were packed. I immediately opened the door, but I stopped as I saw him standing in front of my door.
"Why are you here, Evan?" I asked, trying to look like I didn't cry.
"To bring you to dinner. Mona and I are going to the restaurant; would you come?"
"Why do you bother me so much for still acting like everything is nothing, Evan?" I asked this time, showing my frustration.
"Where are you going?" he asked without replying to my question just now.
I looked at my things and swallowed my saliva because I planned to leave this town just for him and start my new life without him.
"I'm ... I was cleaning my things. Besides, it's none of your business anymore," I said to him nervously.
"Really? Why do you look like you're going to go somewhere? And why are you acting like this? I thought you were fine, Serena."
"I don't have time, Evan. Go back to your girlfriend. Let's get out of each other's lives."
"Are you running away from me, Serena?"
I looked into his eyes and sighed. "Yes, I am. I'm no longer your wife; I'm your ex-wife, and you're going to marry her. So, I need to start my new life without you."
"Look, if you try to dodge me because we slept together, I'm really sorry. I'm sorry that I took your virginity. I really didn't know. And I'm really so sorry."
I wanted to cry when he said that. It wasn't okay for me to deal with this, but it wasn't his fault either that we both fell in love.
"Please leave me. I don't want to see you for days."
"Do you regret that? Do you think it's a bad idea that we sleep together?"
I sighed, trying to keep myself calm. "Evan, let's get out of each other's lives, please. This is not going to work. Our marriage has ended. Please."
He kept looking at me, trying to find something, and I tried to look in another way to avoid his eyes.
"Do you love me?" He asked, and my heart jumped because he asked me now, at the wrong time.
"Why are you asking me this now?"
"Because... you look like you do love me and hurt because of it."
I swallowed hard, not knowing how to answer. But maybe... just maybe... If I told him now, I was afraid there would be no other time.
"Yes, I've always loved you. I've been in love with you for a long time, Evan."