🔵: Bodhi 🟣: Periwinkle 🔴:Holden 🟢: Jake 🟡: Ashley(The day after.) 🕛🔵Periwinkle, I am so unbelievably sorry. You were right. I was drunk, and I was upset that you didn't come out to be with me. I was an idiot. I was stupid. But I didn't make a sober mistake. You were wrong about that. I care about you so much. If I could take it back, I would. I never meant to hurt you.🟣I told you don't call me Periwinkle. My best friend Bodhizafa called me that. My best friend Bodhizafa would never have done something to hurt me as badly as you did. You say you never meant to hurt me, but you never meant to get caught! 🔵Come on. It's still me. I was your best friend? 🟣Of course you were... were my best friend. I have never felt closer to anyone than I have to you. I wouldn't have talked about The Three Musketeers with just anyone. I wished there were five so I could have been part of your group.🔵You will always be my Constance Bonacieux. 🟣Are you trying to make me cry more than I already have? 🔵All I have ever wanted was to be your D'Artagnan. 🟣Then why did you do it?🔵I told you I had too much to drink. I was selfish. I was an idiot! I was only thinking of me. I don't even have feelings for her. 🟣Not that. The dance in my room. I looked into your eyes, and I thought I saw something. I thought there was some emotional connection. You held me. I never felt so special.🔵There was. There is. I do have feelings for you. I have for a long time. You are special. I would give anything to hold you in my arms again. 🟣You almost kissed me! At least, that's what I thought you were going to do. Was I misreading things? Did you want to kiss me? Is that what you were going to say? Can I kiss you? WHY DIDN'T YOU KISS ME? You want to be my D'Artagnan, so why didn't you take me in your arms and kiss me?🔵Would you have wanted me to?🟣It really doesn't matter now.🔵What does that mean?🟣It means that if you were going to kiss me, that makes what you did with Katie even worse. You say you had these feelings for me, and you've had them for a long time. Well, you sure moved on for someone who had these feelings for a long time. You're begging me to come outside to be with you, and two hours later, you're getting sucked off! You know I feel sorry for Katie. You used her. I'm sure you hurt her too. What kind of person are you? I don't want to be with whoever you were last night.(Three dots dancing.....stop...... radio silence)🟣 What no weak explanation? Excuses don't explain, and explanations don't excuse. Do you know why I was in the basement in the first place? Do you know why I didn't come out right away?🔵No. I don't. I never thought about it.🟣I fell asleep listening to that stupid song on repeat. I listened to the words. I put them into perspective from a loving perspective. It was beautiful to think that love might exist in the world. I fell asleep thinking about your hand on my cheek. I fell asleep thinking of your eyes looking through me straight to my soul. I fell asleep believing that kind of love may find me someday.🔵It does. It will. Give me a chance to show you. Let me look into your eyes again. I love your eyes, Periwinkle. I always have.🟣It's just a crush. We both had an adolescent crush. A crush is defined as a brief but intense infatuation for someone, especially for someone unattainable or inappropriate. That is a pretty good way to describe what was happening between us. 🔵What I feel for you is anything but a brief feeling. Intense? Yes. But not brief. 🔵Why did you come down to the basement? 🟣I wanted my favorite sweatshirt because I was going to go outside and sit with you by the fire. I would have been out sooner, but like I said, I fell asleep. 🔵Really? You were? Your favorite?🟣Yes. I wanted to talk to you about what had happened. 🔵I wanted to talk to you too. And I left the sweatshirt there. I couldn't take it with me. It's yours. It was a gift. I can tell you where it is. I don't want you to burn it or cut it up.🟣Then I wouldn't tell me where it is. If I stumble across it, then I stumble across it. 🔵You didn't do anything with the necklace, did you? 🟣I put it away. I don't want to look at it. I should have given you that back, too.🔵I'm sorry. All I can say is I'm sorry. I will do anything to make it up to you. Just tell me what I need to do. (Three dots danced for a while. Then they stopped....... Radio silence.)(One day after.) 📆🔴 Dude, what happened to you the other night? Why did you up and disappear? Are you coming to get your truck?🔵Sorry, man. I wasn't feeling really good. I had to bail.🔴You didn't have to take an Uber. I would have taken you home. Or I am sure Perri would have given you a ride.🔵Have you talked to Perri?🔴No. I haven't seen her. I think her new textbook came yesterday or something because she hasn't left her room.🔵Is she okay?🔴I guess. Like I said, I haven't seen her. So, what about your truck?🔵Kevin is picking me up to play ball with the community center kids. I'll have him drop me by your place and pick it up later today. Just make sure I can get out of the drive.🔴Alright. Do you want to meet up for a beer on Friday? 🔵 I'll let you know. I may have shit to do.🔴Don't call Katie shit. She's a good girl. L.O.L.🔵You're so hilarious, Holden. Where can I buy tickets to your next show?🔴Fuck you, Dude. You know I'm the funniest of all of us.🔵You're definitely not the best-looking.(Four days later.)📆🔴Never heard from you. Are you coming out with us tonight? 🔵Sorry. I have had a lot on my mind. Who is us?🔴The Four Musketeers, Rose, Tiff and Katie.🔵Sorry. It's going to have to be The Three Musketeers, man. I have extra conditioning tonight.🔴Is it because Katie and Tiff are coming? I can tell Rose that we want a guy's night.🔵No, that's okay. Let Jake and Lewis know it's open season on Katie and Tiff. I am not interested in either of them. Have at it.🔴Be straight with me, man; what is going on? Are you okay?🔵Yeah. I'm fine. 🔴I don't believe you, but I guess I'll take your word. I'll catch you later.🔵Hey, how is Periwinkle?🔴I guess she's okay. She's either in her room studying or running. I don't know what has gotten into her. She started using the gym in the basement. It sounds like she is on the treadmill all day and night. She swims in the evening after everyone is gone. It's like she's training for a marathon. 🔵That's not a bad thing. Exercise is good. Releasing all those feel-good endorphins.🔴Yeah. I don't want her to hurt herself. 🔵Tell her I said Hi.🔴You could text her and tell her yourself. L.O.L.(One week later.) 📆🎼🔵Music Speaks When Words Fail: What Hurts the Most- Rascal Flatts🟣Yeah, I know the song.🔵That's how I feel right now. I'm so sorry. I need you to forgive me.🎼🟣Music Speaks When Words Fail: Crush- Jennifer Paige🔵Really? You know you could have said something, too.🟣Yeah, because we both know how good I am at putting myself out there. 🔵But it was me. You know you could always talk to me.🟣Not about that; I couldn't. Do you think I could have just come out and said, Hey, Bodhizafa, I want you to know that ever since the day I met you, I get butterflies in my tummy, and I think about you when I'm in the shower?🔵You think about me when you're in the shower? That made me smile.🟣I didn't mean to write that. Just forget I said anything.🔵There is no way in hell I am forgetting you said that.🟣I have to go. Good night, Bodhi.🔵No, we aren't done yet.(Three days later.) d to know how you are doing. I hope everything is going okay. I really would like to finish our conversation. We can't just drop this Perri. So, text me back if you want. Okay.(Four days later.) 📆🔵Hey. It's me again. I really wish you would text me back. Holden won't talk to me about you. I guess he's a little pissed at me. I want to fix this. Please let me try. 🎼🔵Music Speaks When Words Fail: You Are So Beautiful- Joe Cocker(Two days later.) 📆🔴Hey. What happened between you and Perri?🔵What?🔴Don't play dumb, Bodhi. Something happened between the two of you.🔵Where is this coming from? Nothing happened between us. 🔴That's bullshit. What happened? Something must have happened. I was having a conversation with Mom and Dad about the summer, and the night of the bonfire came up. She burst into tears and left the room. I tried to talk to her, and she refused. Now she's locked in her room. 🔵Maybe you should talk to her. 🔴Why won't you tell me? What happened? You and her didn't fuck, did you?🔵OH GOD NO! I didn't touch her. We had a small argument, that's all. I wouldn't fuck her, either. I respect her more than that. 🔴I don't know what you fought about, but I can tell she's distraught. 🔵I never meant for shit to go down like it did, bro.🔴You fucked with her heart, bro, NOT COOL.🔵I'm sorry, Holden.🔴You're nothing but a fuck boy. Jake would have been a better person to trust.🔵 O.M.G.! You know that's not true!🔴Well, Jake hasn't done anything to make herself lock herself away! YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE. YOU NEVER DESERVED PERSEPHONE, AND TO THINK I WAS STUPID ENOUGH TO THINK YOU WERE!🔵Let me explain. I never wanted her to think she wasn't my life's most special person.🔴MAYBE YOU SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT THAT BEFORE YOU LIKE KATIE GIVE YOU A FUCKING BLOWJOB IN MY FUCKING BASEMENT! 🔵JESUS CHRIST HOLDEN LET ME EXPLAIN!🔴I DON'T WANT TO HEAR WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY. MY SISTER HAS MADE HERSELF FUCKING SICK OVER YOU. FUCK OFF FROM ME AND MY FAMILY! YOU ARE A FUCKING COCKSUCKER.....OH WAIT THAT'S KATIE AND TIFF'S TITLE. LEAVE HER ALONE UNLESS YOU WANT ME TO TEAR YOUR BALLS OFF AND FEED THEM TO YOU. HAVE YOU EVER SEEN THE FIRST SEASON OF REACHER!!!!!🔵 Dude, come on. I already feel horrible about the situation!🔴Good. You can't possibly be suffering worse than her. She's an eighteen-year-old girl. They are the most vulnerable people on the planet. 🔵Let me come over and talk this out with you.🔴You are banned from my house. Get drunk and have fun. Get your dick sucked by every fucking chick on God's burnt earth. But don't do it here. FUCK YOU BOHDI! 🔵HOLDEN, CAN I PLEASE EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENED?🔴NO, BUT YOU CAN FUCK OFF. YOU ARE JUST AS BAD AS YOUR CHEATING SLUT OF A MOTHER. YOU ARE DEAD TO ME. R.I.P. BODHI!(Five days later.) 📆🔵Okay, I have given you space and time. PLEASE 🙏 answer me. I need to know that you are okay. You're all I think about. I know that Holden fucking hates me. I don't care if he hates me. All I need is to know that you are okay and don't hate me.🟣I'm fine. I'm still deciding if I hate you.🔵I'm sorry. I can't even begin to tell you how much I regret everything. I regret being with Katie that night. I regret not kissing you that day. Fuck I regret not kissing you the day I gave you the necklace.🎼🟣Music Speaks When Words Fail: Womanizer- Britney Spears🔵COME ON! THAT'S NOT FAIR! You are different. I would never use you or hurt you.🟣👆Read that last sentence again.🔵You're right. That was a stupid thing to say. I never meant to hurt you. I never thought you'd find out. 🟣Oh. So, you're upset that you got caught? If I didn't catch you and met you outside then what? We go on a little stroll and talk about our feelings for each other. You kiss me under the moonlight. All the while, Katie's lipstick is all over your dick? Nice Bodhi. Real nice. I'm done with this conversation. Sorry, not sorry I caught you.🔵Don't twist my words around. You can be so frustrating sometimes, Perri.🎼🟣Music Speaks When Words Fail: Unholy- Sam Smith, Kim Petras🎼🔵Musics Speaks When Words Fail: She Hates Me: Puddle of Mud?🟣You finally figured it out.(Two days later.) 📆🎼🔵Music Speaks When Words Fail: I'll Be There For You- Bon Jovi🎼🟣Music Speaks When Words Fail: Poison- Alice Cooper🔵Is that really how you feel about me? 🔵Perri🔵Perri, please answer me.(Three days later.) 📆🔴YOU ARE A FUCKING PRICK! I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT YOU DID TO MY SISTER!🔵I guess you finally talked to Perri?🔴YOU THINK!🔵Holden, look, I am sorry. I have tried to talk to her and tell her I'm sorry, but she won't answer me half the time I text her, and she F.U.s my calls. 🔴You were the only friend I trusted. How could you have been such a fucktard! You have been after her for years, and the day you make some headway with her, you get head from Katie! And you let her catch you! God, you are such a piece of shit, Bodhi!🔵I'm sorry. I know you trusted me.🔴Trusted is a good word. Cause I don't trust you anymore. Jake asked me if he could ask her out, and I said yes. So, you need to stop texting her and fuck all the way off. Oh, and I am sorry for what I said about your mother. (Perri told me to apologize.)(Nine days later.) 📆🟢Hey Jackass! Look, I don't know what's going on between you and Holden, but I know you guys aren't talking, so if ANYONE asks, you didn't hear this from me, but I know how much you care for Perri. She hasn't been feeling very well. Holden won't tell me all the specifics, but he has mentioned some stuff to me and Lewis. I just thought you should know. And whatever the fuck happened between you two, you need to fix it.🔵It's not as easy as shaking hands, apologizing, and going out for a beer, Jake. Trust me, if I could have made shit straight, I would have done it already. 🟢Don't stop trying. Lewis and I miss our friend. We don't get approached by any super hot girls when you're not with us. We need the chick magnet. (Ten days later.) 📆🔵Hi. I heard it through the grapevine that you haven't been feeling very well. It hurts me to hear that. If you need anything or if there is anything I can do, all you have to do is ask. I know your brother left a couple of weeks ago for that summer coaching job. I hope you're better soon.🟣Thanks, but I'm okay. Just going through some stuff. Yeah, Holden left, and my parents haven't been around much. TTYL.🎼🔵Music Speaks When Words Fail: Right Here Waiting- Richard Marx🟣It's going to be a long wait. Pack a lunch.🔵I'd wait as long as I have to.(2 weeks later.) 📆🔵I really wish you would text me. I'm beginning to feel like a creep. I wanted to know what's going on and how your summer is going. Have you gone anywhere? Are you having the annual summer vacation, or are you? Hope to hear from you.(3 days later.)📆🔵Periwinkle, you need to answer me. I called you six times. I heard you collapsed on your run. I heard this is not the first time that it has happened.🟣I'm fine. Thanks for your concern. I was just a little dehydrated. No big deal. You're not a creep. I need some time. Don't worry. I've just been pushing myself. I got some fluids, and they released me, and I am as good as new.🔵What about every other time? 🟣Like I said, I got some fluids, and they released me, and I am as good as new. What's done is done. Don't worry about me. It's all good.🎼🔵Music Speaks When Words Fail: I Won't Let Go- Rascal Flatts🟣That song is beautiful. I'll have to add it to my playlist. Take care, Bodhi.(One month left of summer break.) 📆🔴Hey. I think you should come over. Jake and Lewis won't get off my back about you. So, why don't you come by later so we can have a discussion? Man to man. Big brother to dickhead who hurt his sister.🔵Should I wear a cup? 🔴You are such an asshat. Bring a six-pack of Platnums. 🔵I'll bring a twelve if it means you won't rip my balls off.🔴I might still rip them off, but I won't make you eat them.🔵A twenty-four pack it is.(Two days later.) 📆🔵It had taken every ounce of strength I have not to text you these past few weeks. I don't know if Holden told you, but I came over the other day. You weren't home. I hope you got the flowers. I know how much you love Stargazer Lillies. I hope they made you smile.🎼🔵Music Speaks When Words Fail: When I See You Smile- Bad English🟣I know you were. Holden warned me that you were coming by. That's why I wasn't there. Bodhi, you have to stop texting me. I'm trying my best to get over all of this. As soon as I think I'm good, I get a text. I would say to move on. It's over, but we never had anything to move on from. I do miss your friendship. I do miss seeing your face. I miss your smile and how you could make me laugh without even trying. The flowers were gorgeous. I kept them alive as long as I could, but nothing lasts forever. Bodhi, I'm asking you to please stop contacting me, okay? I'm not going to block your number. Please don't make me regret that. 🎼🟣Music Speaks When Words Fail: Must Have Been Love- Roxette🔵I miss you too. 🥺 You have no idea how much I miss my friend. I'm coming to Holden's end-of-summer cookout. I hope you can at least say hello, and maybe I can get a hug. 🤞 Or even better, a slow dance. I'll leave you alone. Till we meet again.(Eight days later.) 📆🔴Hey, Man. Look, don't flip your shit, but I just wanted you to know that Persephone is in the hospital. She specifically told me not to let you find out, but yet here I am. She doesn't want anyone visiting. Ashley is staying with her around the clock, so don't worry about her being alone. She should be out in time for the cookout. TTYL. (Two days later.) 📆🔵Periwinkle. I heard you are in the hospital. Please, please, please text me. I am worried about you. Can I come see you, please? Your brother said you don't want visitors, but please make an exception. I don't know what's wrong, but I am scared.🔵Perri?🔵Perri, please answer me.(One day later.) 📆🔵Perri, I need to know you're okay. I've tried Holden, and he's dodging my calls. Did you get the flowers? I hope you did. Please text me back. 🎼🟣Music Speaks When Words Fail: I Fell Bad- Rascal Flatts🔵🥺Really? You don't feel anything at all anymore?🟣I'm beginning to wonder if I even felt anything in the first place.🔵Wow, why don't you throw a dagger in my heart? It would hurt a lot less.🟣Bodhi! Think seriously. I don't remember you catching feelings for me. It was because my brother encouraged you and ALL of his friends to be nice to me; he felt terrible that I never had any friends besides my Ash. JUST STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CARED! You like (obviously) girls like Kaite and Tiff. I heard your conversations that day. How you didn't actually fuck Tiff, but she sucked your dick. Maybe if I had given it up that day (or any other day) in my room, you would have, but let's face the cold, hard truth: you never had true feelings. Maybe you wanted my V-card. Maybe you felt I need a pity fuck. Maybe you just wanted to be a bad boy, but STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CARED! 🔵Oh my fucking God. How can you even think that? I'm so sorry about Katie. I am so sorry you knew about Tiff. You don't know how much I liked you, Periwinkle. I have since the day you gave me the book. I can't take back what has happened. Dear God, please tell me what I need to do to make you believe me! 🟣Leave me be. 🔵Periwinkle. You're breaking my heart.🟣Then I guess we are even. Goodbye, Bodhizafa. (The next day.) 📆🔵Please tell your sister to let me visit her. I need to see her, Holden.🔴Look, Bodhi, I know you are concerned about her, but you need to understand that she is in a fragile place right now and needs her space.🔵Why won't anyone tell me the truth about what is going on? I care about her, you know that.🔴Christ, Bodhi, please don't put me in this position. She has asked me not to talk to you, and I must respect her wishes. I know you are my best friend, but she is my sister.🔵Alright, I get it, but please let me know if there is anything I can do for her.🔴 Dude, she doesn't even want to hear your name right now. I really don't think she wants to do anything for her.🔵I get that, but she trusts you, and I know that if you talked to her, then I might have a better chance at getting through to her.🔴Look, I don't mean to sound like a dick, but she trusted you too. And I don't know if either of us can trust you anymore. We sat on the deck of that ship, and I told you that I trusted you with my little sister's heart. I hate to break this to you, but you are not the first person to ask me for permission to be with one of my sisters. I know they are two stunning girls, but I trusted no one but you, and you went and broke not only her heart, you broke her as a person, Bodhi. 🔵All right. I get it. I want you to know that I respected you for giving me the go-ahead with her, and I am so sorry that I was such an ass. I love her, Holden. I know you may find that hard to believe, but I do.🔴If you loved her, then you would have never hurt her like you did. (3 days later.) 📆🟡Hey Bodhi, this is Ashley. She's okay. She's getting out tomorrow. I want you to know that she's not mad at you anymore. She was just really hurt. She has had a crush on you since you guys were little. She would talk about you all the time. She said that day was the best and worst day of her life. She lights up when she talks about the dance you had together. She can finally talk about the day and not cry. My grandma says when you can tell your story and not cry, then you are healed. She's finally healed Bodhi. Please don't start anything again. She's fragile. I am going to delete this as soon as I send it, and if you tell her I said anything, I will deny it.🔵Thanks Ash. Can I ask what happened? Did she collapse again? She's been in there for a week. Was it really that serious?🟡It's a complicated situation and not my place to explain. I will say that, yes, she did collapse again; it was serious, and she was having some severe tachycardia. That's all I can say. She told me you will be at the cookout this weekend. I look forward to seeing you. She is, too, but she'll never admit or show it. She got the flowers but couldn't have them in the I.C.U. But she did have a huge smile when I showed her a picture of them. You know how much she loves Lillies. See you at the cookout. Take care.🔵Wait. What do you mean by severe tachycardia? What do you mean by the I.C.U.? Ashley, what are you keeping from me?🟡I told you I can't talk about it. Maybe ask Holden.🔵Holden is still mildly pissed at me. I can't really blame him. I'm surprised that I am still invited to the cookout. Please give me something.🟡Again, you didn't hear it from me, but she had a mild cardio infarction.🔵A heart attack? She had a fucking heart attack! What hospital is she at? I need to see her. 🟡Bodhi, I beg of you, stay away. You'll see her this weekend.🔵Can you play her a song for me? Maybe just put it on for no apparent reason.🟡Depends. What song?🔵The Next Time I Fall In Love by Amy Grant and Peter Cetera.🟡That's a heavy song. How am I supposed to play that nonchalantly? She will probably tell me to turn it off.🔵Please. Please try. 🟡I'll see what I can do. See you Saturday. 📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱📱🎧THE NEXT TIME I FALL IN LOVE: AMY GRAND & PETER CETERA🎧