"Cy."
I almost fell out of bed when I heard the voice I had been waiting to hear.
I immediately sat up on the bed and didn't feel the pain caused by my quick movement using my hand on the bedsheet to sit up.
It's natural for her eyes to be doe eyes and bright.
And yet I can still her eyes stroke with a hint of surprise.
"I... I uh, I just stopped here to dropped some Japanese milk bread and Tteok-bokki. I'll leave after this—"
"Stay."
I said unconsciously, which made her to look at me.
I swallowed. It's up to fate. As long as I can make her stay here, I'll be okay. Whatever the next day will be.
My stomach rumbled and this immediately caused Scarlett to quickly take the food out of the plastic bag and place it next to me.
"Nurses said you didn't eat so I ordered Japanese bread and Ttaek-bokki for you to eat. And also..."
She stopped talking and took something from her bag.
"These are the medicines you should take now."
Did they call her?
I thought Ezekiel was with her now? and that bastard, where is he?
I nodded in response to what she said and looked at her busy opening the food container.
Her long black hair were tied up with a maroon scrunchie.
She was wearing a black t-shirt paired with white trousers. And then when I looked down, I saw her wearing black high-heel.
I didn't say a word. I was waiting for her to speak first but she also seemed to have no intention of speaking.
I immediately grabbed my bedsheets and took a deep breath.
I feel like I'm suddenly weak and my body falls down with too much weight due to hunger.
So I immediately spoke.
"Feed me. I... I can't make my hand move. It hurts."
Her eyes stared at me. It was dark and looked at me gently.
she nodded and approached me causing my heart to beat faster when she sat down the chair next to my bed.
She smells so good.
Carefully, she moved and mixed the food in its sauce.
My Korean blood was happy seeing ttaek-bokki for a long time again.
While she was looking so Chinese in her skin tone and eyes and height. While everything left in her were so Filipina.
Her attitude were so filipina that it makes her different from my perspective.
"I'll pay you once I was discharged here—"
"Just eat."
She immediately cut off what I was going to say when she raised her chopsticks and fed me.
I immediately accepted it, one after another while I feel myself starving for more food.
"I asked the nurse to serve your milk warm again. Don't tell them to leave when they help you." she said.
Is she scolding me? I can see the annoyance in her eyes.
"They annoy me. That's why I'm asking them to leave."
"You don't even asks them to leave. You're shouting at them telling them to leave. There's a big difference between asking and telling, Cox."
Cox?
"But they annoy me. Everything annoys me!"
I tried to say it and immediately she gave me a meaningful look.
"Cox, you're just—" Scarlett's words were cut when her cellphone rang from the bag.
"I'll just answer this." she said and immediately left the room.
Is she leaving? Will I be left alone again?
Heaven granted my wish, but why can't it be extended? at least until I could sleep again.
I silently looked at the open door and swallowed.
From outside, I saw the nurse holding a tray, but she didn't come in and immediately left.
After a while, she came in from outside holding a small tray with only a glass of milk in it.
I looked at her.
She fixed my blanket and started to unwrapped the medicines as I just stare at her.
Is she going to leave? Will I be left alone here? Did Ezekiel called her? Her mom? Telling her to come home now?
Is she... Gonna leave again?
Am I going to be left alone here?
"Take this all, one by one or two. I'll just get your milk—"
"Are you leaving after this?"
My brain was so messed up that I didn't realize I had asked a question.
It's my habit to always cut her off but this time, it's a bit embarrassing for me to say it.
Her gaze was deep and she didn't speak.
Instead of answering me, she immediately took the glass of milk and waited for me.
I guess for me to take the medicine on her hand.
But I didn't move either.
if it's a sin to turn a blind eye even when it's obvious that I'm just acting, I'm a sinner.
I heard her breathing out heavily as she puts the glass of milk back at the bedside table.
I immediately felt nervous when her feet didn't bring her back to my side and instead, she started to pack her things.
"Hey, I thought you were going to give me medicine?" I asked her.
She turned to me and looked at me without emotion.
"I have to go. I have a lot to take care of, Cy. You don't seem to want to follow me either." answered her.
I was immediately slapped by my own pride when her foot came back to stepped at the door's direction.
I almost fell off the bed when I tried to put my foot on the floor.
Then I felt a sudden dizziness that made me stop moving.
Holding my own forehead, I forced myself to speak.
"S-Sca... I said... w-we're not done yet, right?"
Fuck! my head hurts!
"Sca! just wait!" I yelled.
But from my blurred vision, I could see her heels stepping out the door.
"Scarlett! I'll fucking d-drink those! Can't you just wait?!" I said almost losing my voice from shouting.
I nearly lost my balance as I struggled to stand my feet on the cold floor.
My head hurt as I looked at the open door of my room.
Without hesitation, I removed the tube from my hand and immediately headed to the door.
To chase her.
Why the fuck do I need to do this?
"Sca..."
I whispered when I knew to myself that I no longer had the strength to stand up and walk again.
My knees went weak as my head pounded again.
I felt an earthquake around me 'cause of the violent movement of objects in my sight.
Holding the doorknob, my hand slowly slipped from it as my head became completely dizzy.
"Cox! I told you not to stand up or walk anymore! You're so stubborn!"
she catches me? is it my imagination?
did she really catch me?
She caught me from falling, did she? She really did, right?
Immediately her hands tightened on my arm while my hand gathered the little strength left in my body to wrap around her waist.
I hugged her tightly. I buried my face in her shoulder and breathed deeply there.
"Cy... I have to go..."
I heard the girl I hugged whispered.
I didn't speak anymore. Instead, I hugged her tighter and buried my face in her neck.
More deeper than I can.
I don't want you to leave, please don't leave.
I think I have a fever.
I felt so hot and my eyes almost burned.
I closed my eyes and stayed in her arms as I fought my dizziness.
We're not like this I know.
It's still stuck in my mind how I was mean to this girl. But I just can't act like I used to.
And the moment she tightened her grip on my arm, I secretly smiled.
"Cy, You're becoming hot again, go back to bed and rest, please..." she said to me.
If I go back to bed will she leave?
No, I hate it. I don't want it.
"Cy, Cox... Please, don't... Don't make it hard for yourself —"
"If I go back to bed, you'll leave me here, right?"
I looked up at her eyes and saw her worried look.
She didn't answer, instead, she just took a deep breath and she gradually loosen her hold to my arms.
I felt like I was choking when I found out the answer right in her eyes.
I can't even breath, seems like the oxygen runs out of my chest when her eyes can't hide the truth itself.
I pulled her and rested my head on her shoulder as I held her in her waist tighter.
My another hand held her hair as I buried my face on her nape.
I felt her hands held back my arm tighter as her breathings become heavy and hard.
And her nails almost dug into my skin when I touched her neck with my lips.
"C-Cy..." she mouthed.
I can feel the weight of her every breath as I held her in her hair and mark her neck with a playful intimate kiss.
Her breathing was catching, I looked her closely in the eyes.
I looked down at her lips and tightened my grip on her hair causing pain to appear on her face.
Just like how I wanted her to do. Her mouth opened a bit in result of me, holding her hair tigther.
Without hesitation, I pressed her red lips with a hot kiss that filled my thirst.