With doubts in my heart, I went back to my condo and took a shower.
I was staring at the mark of his kiss on my neck in the mirror while my body was soaked with water.
Is Cy playing with me?
He's not into girl, I also know that a famous ex-boyfriend of his chasing him from Ezekiel's story to me.
Before he passed out, he mouthed the words "Don't leave" to me almost ten times.
But I need to leave. Tomorrow is my mother's death anniversary and I should go back to Rizal to visit her grave.
I feel like I'm being choked by what I see.
The three marks on my neck are reddish and can be seen easily and I can still feel the pain on my lower lip the moment when he bit it.
Fuck! I know I'm not a virgin because he also got my virginity when we were drunk but it doesn't mean he can just use me over and over again whenever he wants!
But did he really like to use me?
He's a gay, I know gays don't want women to have sex with!
I've taken more than five pills to prevent me from getting pregnant from one night's mistake between the two of us, but until now I'm still not comfortable.
I feel like I need to get more contraceptive pills for my menstruation to come.
It should be my first day of menstruation but it didn't come today.
I looked at my body from the big mirror in my bathroom.
My booby and waist are still in shape even though Cy has touched me once.
I still can't believe that he will be my first.
Now, I don't want to get married anymore because the only gift I can give to my future husband was taken by a mistake, wrong, sinful one night.
I'm so ashamed.
I always look at my body. Doubting that its shape might change after Cy touched me.
But apart from my period being delayed, nothing strange happened to my body.
My breast are still healthy and were just like before. My flower isn't hurting too. Shouldn't it be painful for a woman to walk after losing her virginity?
Or maybe...
"Damn! Scarlett, what the hell are you thinking?!" I shouted and scolded myself.
--
I immediately wore my t-shirt and pajamas as I wear my red stilleto.
It was now 12:30 in the afternoon and I just had a text received from my phone saying,
[Miss Agnelli, Mr. Clifford Cox were looking for you. Come immediately at the hospital.]
At exactly at 7 am. An unknown number.
Although hesitating, I immediately took a shower and found comfortable clothes and went to the parking lot.
--
"Miss Agnelli, the patient from VIP room was looking for you. He has been waiting for you for a while."
The nurse greeted me when she saw me approaching the front desk.
I replied with a smile and signed the log book and followed her to the VIP room.
"Ma'am, if possible, please help me get Mr. Cox to take the medicine. He doesn't want to take the medicine when I'm the one delivering it." She politely said.
Stupidly, I just looked at the nurse and nodded without saying a word.
I was about to enter the room when I felt the nurse poked me again.
"Miss, it looks like your boyfriend has plans to only follow you. He also doesn't want us to touch him. And... maybe I'm having too many requests now but..."
the nurse stopped speaking for a moment and swallowed
"Could you also help us also to have some blood from Mr. Cox? He didn't want to listen to us when talking about blood sample the previous day too."
Boyfriend? Who said that he was my boyfriend?
"Blood samples? Does he always say no?" I asked the nurse who immediately answered with a nod.
"Yes ma'am. He said he doesn't want it. We need his blood for testing, to know more about his condition. But we can't do that if he always says he doesn't want to."
What the hell...
"I'll talk to him." I answered and entered the room.
I saw his closed eyes and peaceful face while sleeping on a clean bed.
His hand was still swollen and his face was pale.
There's a part of me that I don't want to see him anymore.
I'd like to run away.
Or to vanish completely again. To run away and head to somewhere where I can't see him again and to live my life in an unknown places.
I didn't realize that I'm still here, sitting on the same side of his bed just like two days ago.
I can't believe about everything that happens to us. We're here again, I'm here again.
I turned to the door when I heard a Chinese word from outside it.
Although I'm half Chinese, I can barely understand the person's saying, but I'm sure it's a man's voice.
I waited for a while while sitting.
I was nervous when I saw the doorknob move and a tall man appeared there,
Along with the nurse I was talking to earlier who also spoke immediately.
"Miss Agnelli, he's Mr. Sylvan, Mr. Sylvan, she's Mr. Cox's girlfriend." The nurse said.
I immediately stood up from my seat and walked towards the 5'9 man.
He is white and has narrow eyes. The body he has is fit. He looks gorgeous with his brown eyes and a curly hair.
I immediately extended my hand to him but he just stared at it.
Maybe he was surprised to see me here so I smiled at him again.
"Mr... Slyvan, I'm Scarlett Athena—"
"Cox's girlfriend? are you kidding me?" he asked harshly.
He looked at me from head to toe and immediately laughed sarcastically.
That's when I realized that the nurse I was talking to earlier had left.
"As far as I know, Cox is not used to choose a cheap relationship partner. It looks like he just picked you up somewhere." He said.
Looking at me from head to toe as he crossed his arm in front of his chest.
I couldn't speak immediately.
I just looked at him as he walked closer to the sleeping guy and planted a kiss on his lips.
"See girl? Do you get what I mean?" the man asked me again with a straight look.
"I..."
"I don't believe you are my boyfriend's girlfriend because he chooses you by heart. I'm sure Cy just feels sorry for you 'cause you're poor that's why he's in a relationship with you." He said.
"To help you." He added.
I was just like a fool looking at the man while he belittled me.
I don't know what I ate causing for me to lost the will to defend myself from what Sylvan was saying.
I only gave him a look that made him laugh.
And I really hope I don't go to this hospital again and continue to apply abroad.
"Girlfriend huh? what a joke? stupid. I don't want to waste my time at the most garbage reason but I just want to ask you Miss... ugh! whatever your name is! it's still useless!" he gasped.
He stood up straight and looked at me menacingly.
"Did you have sex with him? Because I don't think Cox wanted it. Maybe he were forced or maybe you used drugs on him so you made him to sleep with you?"
Sylvan said, followed with his eyes rolled.
"So that he can make you pregnant and that you could have him entirely? Damn you woman. I knew it very well. Homeless girls like you can hold to a sharp knife just to live."
"It's not like that Mr. Sylvan."
Finally, I gained my words!
I took a deep breath and met his mocking gaze again.
"Ah so did you use him in other ways? I'll just remind you Miss. Cox and I had sex more than you can count and you know what? he enjoys every single minute of it with me in his bed. Do you think can you do that with him?"
I was stunned by what I heard.
I never wanted to have sex with Cy. I just made a mistake because I was drunk.
"Leave Cox, he doesn't need you here and find other man to dig gold with. Leave and don't make yourself seen by Cox anymore."
He said before he took out a small notebook and ballpoint pen.
He immediately wrote something on it and unfastened the paper and threw it in front of me.
The wind immediately lifted the thin paper and landed at my feet.
"Fifty million, make yourself disappear and don't show up to him again. Leave. leave us be."
I couldn't move.
I was like a statue in front of him and what he said was like I was crushed by more than the fifty million he offered me.
I'll admit that the price he threw at me was high, but that wasn't enoughfor him to make fun of me.
I worked for almost two years as a best selling real estate agent in a famous company while living alone.
I live alone since I was a second year high school student when my mother passed away and I couldn't have the chance to know my father.
I live my life as hellish as I thought it could be.
I stopped attending school two years after my mother passed away and worked as a tutor and a fast food chain crew all day.
While others are living their best life, teenage life with their parents whom I think Sylvan had experienced, I am living my life in survival mode.
Where some days I could have rice and vegetables to eat and most of the days, I sleep hungry and restless.
The occasion and birthdays remained usual days to work, while my mother's birthday and death anniversary were the days were I can cry out all my fears in life.
Only then did I feel all the pain again when I looked at him again while he was sleeping.
It was not in my mind and expectations that I would see him again after a long long years after I finally earned six digits.
I never asked the lord to see him again.
I never asked the stars for our paths to cross again.
But the fate is really playing jokes in me that everything I didn't expect to happen, happened.
With a plus one!
Only then did I realize again.
The reason why I tried to get rid of my feelings on the young Clifford Cox was because I felt that he can only caused me pain.
Not happiness, not even a single of thrill.
But a hundred percent of disappointment, belittlement and downgrade.
Now I realize, again.
I smiled at Sylvan and shook my head. Holding my pink Gucci purse, I spoke.
"I don't need your money. I have more than that on my account. And yeah, Cox is yours. All yours. I'm not even fighting for him. Do you think I do? If only I'm shitting then I will. But I'm not." I replied,
Raising my brows to Sylvan as if he was just a joke to me.
"Oh God, you think I'm your opponent with that trash? I'm not gonna pick up someone's shit, you do?" I added.
"Damn Mr. Sylvan, you said it yourself that he's happy with you every damn minute having sex with you. Then why you sounded so desperate to have him back? If he's happy with you, you don't have to beg for him to come back, aren't you?"
"Damn you woman!!"
I heard his scream.
I immediately laughed to the reason he couldn't slap me anymore because a nurse came to wean him.
I looked at him again and walked towards the door.
While the male nurse restrained Sylvan's movement, I once again looked at Cy who was still sleeping.
If only I had known Cycy that this would happen, I wouldn't have returned my feelings for you that I buried a long time ago.