"There's space for one more butt…" Rave states casually, I stare at him quizically, and he motions to the mat he's made from his shirt, -it finally clicks; he's inviting me to sit with him?- I nod and crawl to the shirt-mat, unfortunately, the shirt is small and we are rather close -he's obviously too uncomfortable right?-, I stare at him, waiting for him to tell me to move, but rather, he concentrates on carefully breaking the meat roasting on the firewood, he hands me a piece and begins to eat some himself, I look at him in semi-horror -who would eat beast-meat?-, he's however at first, oblivious of my look, finally he notices my expression "What?" he asks "Is this edible?" I quiz, he shrugs "If you don't want to…then it's fine" his tone is simple, but the pangs of hunger in my stomach don't allow me to be 'reasonable', I bite into the meat and after meditatively chewing, I swallow -it actually doesn't taste so bad- "So…what about you?" he starts suddenly, I turn to him, "What about me?" I ask, he is hesitant to respond "I mean what do you want to achieve?" he musters confidence to ask, I smile "I just want to be powerful and famous" I state matter-of-factly, he nods in interest while saying "You did mention that earlier…" -silence; awkward silence- "But why do you want to destroy the system?" I decisively continue the conversation, he groans in a sort of -frustration?- and says,"My entire family were massacred before my very eyes…by the government…"
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RAVE'S STORY.
MEMOIR ONE.
"Rave!... Rave!" I run towards the direction of the call, -my parent's hut- "Yes papa?", I nervously stand at the door, looking as my father cradles my newborn brother, my mother laying on the bed, still weak from labour smiles at me "Would you like to hold Shidoo a little?" she asks, my eyes widen in estacy, as I shyly step inside, my father regards me curiously -I am afraid he'll say no-, he turns to my mother who nods at him reassuringly "He may be fourteen and sturdy but you need tenderness and not strength to handle a newborn" he says quietly "But…I don't see how you can hurt him" he smiles while saying this and hands me the baby, I am very careful as I lovingly and lightly embrace him -I feel so happy, and so complete-
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I stare at the bloody bodies everywhere, all I can do is cry out, I cry and cry, and cry, I cannot even identify my parents bodies, my village and family have been entirely destroyed -why?- is all I can ask myself -just why?- and more importantly, -why didn't I die with them, why did that mysterious Fenice guy save only me?- I grit my teeth in pain -I WILL DEFINITELY HAVE MY REVENGE…-
END OF MEMOIR.
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I stare at Rave in concern as a single tear drops from his eye, he wipes it quickly and feigns focus on the burning firewood, I don't even know how to comfort him, the story about the massacre of his peaceful, quiet village is heart wrenching, -embracing him would be weird but…I do anyway-