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Following the traumatic incident that occurred in My Past, I have developed a deep-rooted fear and anxiety towards any male individual who comes in close proximity to me. Every time it happens, I can't help but visualize my own brother in that person, which only magnifies my distress and discomfort.
As the daughter of the illustrious Starlight family, I have grown up in an environment where reputation and status are everything. With such power and influence comes the expectation of perfection - any flaw or weakness could be exploited by those who seek to harm the family's name or reputation.
For this reason, I have always felt the weight of responsibility on my shoulders to conceal any vulnerability that could be used against my family. It's not just about protecting myself; it's about safeguarding the reputation and security of the entire family.
I have learned to be vigilant and cautious in all my actions, ensuring that I do not inadvertently expose any weakness that could be used against us. It's a constant battle to maintain the facade of strength and invincibility, but I know that it's necessary if I want to protect my family and their legacy for generations to come.
But After the Incident, I found it challenging to cope with the feelings of fear and vulnerability that consumed me. In an attempt to protect myself, I began to adopt a cold and distant attitude towards those around me, especially towards any male who attempted to get close to me.
I believed that by maintaining a stoic and unapproachable demeanor, I could shield myself from any potential harm or pain that might come my way. However, I now realize that this behavior may have prevented me from forming meaningful connections with others and hindered my ability to heal from the trauma I had experienced.
As a result of my behavior and the concerns my parents had about me, they decided to seek out a potential partner for me. They thought that having a fiancé would help me to become more socially active and engaged.
After much consideration, they chose Riyan to be my fiancé. They had known him for a long time and were aware of his love and affection towards me. They believed that he was the perfect match for me and would take good care of me.
I often found myself lost in thought, pondering over the mysterious and unpredictable nature of Riyan's Love. Despite spending My Childhood with Riyan, I could never fathom why he had developed feelings for me.
As far as I can recall, his affection for me began to surface after his father's sudden demise. Perhaps, he found comfort and solace in my company during those dark and trying times. However, fate had other plans in store for us. Our relationship was cut short by that traumatic incident, Had it not been for that unfortunate turn of events, I might have even considered marrying Riyan.
I couldn't understand what could have possibly attracted him to me. My thoughts were clouded with doubts about whether he had any ulterior motives like Arthur. I stopped calling him My Brother after that incident.
Moreover, I couldn't wrap my head around why the Heir of Descartes Family would even be interested in someone like me. As a result of my confusion, I began to behave coldly and indifferently towards Riyan, more so than any other man or boy. I even went as far as to show disdainful behavior towards him.
Have you ever had someone who just won't leave your side no matter where you go?
Well, that was my experience with Riyan. He was always there, trying to express his love and affection for me in any way he could. It was overwhelming.
Getting tired of Riyan's Continuous Confessions, I told him whatever I could about what kind of man I like and what he should have example one day I told him that I like men with long hair.
After that particular day, he decided to let his hair grow out. As time passed, his hair grew longer and longer, which made his appearance gradually become more feminine. The transformation was noticeable to those around him, who started to comment on how different he looked.
Riyan had been constantly expressing his love for me, despite my repeated rejections. As a result of his persistent advances, our mutual friends began to view him as a "Dog-Licker" - Someone who displays excessive affection and submissiveness towards someone they are romantically interested in. This label caused him to lose some of his Social Status and Respect In public.
It appears that with every passing day, the general perception of him is deteriorating, and his reputation is going from bad to worse. His
Reputation as Dog-Licker became even worse as King Of Dog-Licking.
Have you ever experienced an unexplainable feeling of resentment towards someone? That's exactly what happened to me with Riyan. It's strange because I can't pinpoint the exact reason why I started avoiding him.
However, what I do remember is that my parents always spoke highly of him and urged me to interact with him. The more I was forced to spend time with him, the more I started to notice his simpering and ingratiating behavior. It was as if he was trying too hard to please Me. And as time went on, my dislike for him slowly began to grow.
At the age of fifteen, he underwent a significant transformation in his personality or behavior, leading to noticeable changes in his character or actions.
I began to notice a change in his behavior when he stopped contacting me.After experiencing some unexpected and frustrating behavior from Riyan,
I found myself feeling constantly irritable. One day, in an attempt to alleviate my irritation, I decided to listen to some music. As I was scrolling through my playlist, I stumbled upon a song by Riyan called "Whatever it takes". At first, I didn't have high expectations for the song, but as I listened, I was pleasantly surprised by how good it was.
The lyrics and melody really resonated with me and helped to uplift my mood.I was amazed beyond words at Riyan's singing abilities. It is something that I never could have imagined in my wildest dreams. The way he hits every note with such precision and passion is truly remarkable.
As I began exploring the music of this Riyan, Riyan released Many Songs After "Whatever it takes. As I listened intently to each of his new songs, a sense of curiosity and fascination about his talent began to take hold of me.
The more I listened to his music, the more I fell in love with the unique sound and style he brought to the table. Each new song seemed to reveal a different aspect of his musical genius, and I found myself eagerly anticipating his new releasing Songs.
Gradually and without conscious effort, I found myself letting go of the negative emotions of hatred and dislike that I had been harboring towards him. It was as if my heart had softened towards him, and I no longer felt the need to hold onto those negative feelings.
As I reflect on my experiences and work through my trauma, I am starting to see the potential for healing and growth with Riyan for trauma.
While Now, I am just currently feeling a strong attraction towards him, I am hopeful that with time and effort, I will be able to develop deeper emotional connections and feelings towards him. I recognize that this process may take some time, but I am committed to putting in the work and building a strong foundation for a healthy and fulfilling relationship.
But, My Feelings and Trauma are Keeping Entangled.....
During that particular moment, Riyan made an announcement that he would be taking a break from singing for a while. It is not clear what the reason behind his decision was, but it is safe to assume that he may have needed some personal time to focus on other aspects of his life.
I understood the reason behind it; he was going to attend the prestigious "Reyas" Academy.
I was excited to meet him there at Academy, and I wanted take this opportunity as develop My attraction to him in Love.
( Special Note - What She is Feeling Now is just Strong attraction or Crush, her feelings can only transform in later Chapters )
On the Day of Qualification Test, I arrived at the testing center early in the morning and eagerly searched for him among the crowd, hoping to catch a glimpse of his familiar face. However, despite my efforts, I couldn't seem to locate him anywhere in the vicinity, and eventually had to resign myself to taking the test...
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Reason Why Orginal Riyan loved Fera will be revealed in Arc describing Cris Descartes's Death....
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Next Chapter "17. Ava's Past "...
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