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Chapter 19 - 18. Alcoholic

 

A swirl of golden liquid

A bedazzling odor

The wrong kind of enchantment

Tiny bubbles to trigger

The taste buds--

A bittersweet sensation.

 

But am I…?

 

One more; and another

Another and another

How am I to say

'No, thank you'?

It's so damn invidious--

So how am I to say,

No, thanks?

If it became--

The boss of me!

It's a part of me!!

INDEFINITELY!!!

 

So am I…?

 

A constant celebration

Awaits me

One to many

The wall becomes my feet

A feeling so immune

Swaying on the clouds

Wonderful,

But completely and utterly

Unaware_

 

Yet the question 

Still remains;

Am I…?

 

A feeling of disgust rise within

A stranger in my mirror

Shame wash over me

What have I become?

Throwing everything away

For what?

To drown my sorrows

To proof a point

What's my reason?

Am I giving up!?

 

So am I…?

 

Laying on my bathroom floor

Feeling like I might die

Fear and shame arose

Life's falling apart,

Destroyed;

As I reach the bottom

Of the fifth bottle

Glass splinters embedded

My heart

Bloody hands

A feeling of death.

 

Am I to late

To acknowledge the truth

Of what I am--

What had become of me?

 

Am I an alcoholic…?