Where am I going?
How can I find the strength to break away?
The rain falls outside of this lonely window as I watch silently
The march of a thousand umbrellas.
I watch as the clouds let loose their tears unlike myself.
And all at once, the umbrella's close.
And all at once, a thousand faces are looking back at me.
Back at the love that I used to look to them for.
I cry.
A thousand mouths open.
A thousand single words all fall away into the drain just as the rain once did.
I can't stop...
A thousand seconds pass.
A thousand hands rise.
Twice as many eyes look into my soul.
A soul that only I can truly see.
A heart that beats a thousand beats.
All at once I take a thousand steps,
Seemingly in the wrong direction.
Instantly a thousand mistakes,
No hope for a thousand corrections.
Ans as those eyes look on,
My colors slowly fade to grey.
A thousand fingers point my way...
I die every time I close my eyes,
Therefore I've lived a thousand lives.
More than I could ever ask for.
A thousand more than I could ever share.
Where am I going?
A thousand more steps could only lead me to where I already am...
I wish my heart would let me in.
One step closer.
One less than a thousand.
And all at once a thousand umbrellas open, throwing back the rain
From whence it came.
I cry.
For not even the rain will stay.
Not even the thousand faces that once looked my way...
Just march on.
A thousand steps further that I can no longer take.
A thousand more.
A thousand more.