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Chapter 50 - I miss you.

I miss you...

Every time you turn to leave, my heart sinks.

My mind becomes a mess.

I'm lost in an internal fog...

I see you in everything beautiful in the world.

I met you on the corner of Grey Street, at the edge of oblivion. 

The South side of Milwaukee.

You looked at me with that look you gave.

The same one that melts my defenses til this very day.

I tried to keep walking, but I had to go back.

From that moment my life would never be the same.

I was 16 and you were 19 and I told you I was 18 because I couldn't let you slip away. 

Now I am 24 and you are 27

And by my 26th year, we will be married if we keep to the promise we made.

I miss you...

I met you while I was growing up.

My mind was far from where it now is.

And your heart is full of beautiful darkness.

Like it is now.

Like it always will be.

But the pain that you now know, was never there

Or did not show.

And oh...

How I wished I could make you glow

In your own eyes

Like you did and like you do in mine.

I remember all the nights

On the corner of Grey Street

Out by the cemetery

Outside of Walgreens

Walking around this town

Of ours.

In snow.

 Or sun.

 Or night.

When we knew no wrong

And all of the wrongs that we may have done 

Always felt so right.

I miss you...

And for a while, you moved away...

Those nights were long and silent

But this Knight was strong.

Stronger still am I now,

For you've returned.

That place down South was good for you 

Because we both know that in your heart, Milwaukee is not your home.

I miss you...

Our first kiss.

Oh, that night...I didn't sleep.

You came by so calmly

And just before you went to leave

I remembered that you had forgotten something

Then It happened.

My lips could never taste love the same after sampling from the sweetest cup.

That point in time is when I knew beyond reason that I'd marry you one day.

And that your mark on my soul would never go away.

Mayhap this feeling is more akin to soul mates.

Not just to be with

Or mate

Or date

Or procreate

But to make an honest woman out of you and the happiest man out of me.

I miss you...

Every time it rains

I can smell your scent 

On the droplets

because the clouds themselves are in your favor. 

And if you are down, the sun refuses to shine if only to accommodate your heart. 

All of this is in my world and mine alone

But I wouldn't share it anyway.

I couldn't.

Until I can show it to you personally.

And so I say I miss you and you wonder why because you have yet to leave but...

I know it will happen.

Not forever but for long enough for my heart to wish you hadn't

And my mind to write you a book's worth of works along the lines of this one.

I miss you...

Just don't forget about me.

Because I could never forget how beautiful the world is.

Or could be.