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Chapter 19 - Rain.

I hope it rains...

Because that's the only time when I can cry.

The droplets cover everything

And it's too dark to see my eyes.

Raindrops are my tear's perfect disguise...

That's why I only cry when it rains...

And sometimes I beg for answers

Why!?

If something is wrong

I'd rather lie.

Because I don't want your sympathies

Don't tell me it'll be alright.

I look forward to the gathering clouds

So that I can scream and cry out loud

I could just let it all go.

Let my walls just crumble down...

No one cares about the tears of a clown

As long as he keeps spreading happiness around.

And as I listen and watch those drops

Drip and splatter

I further gather

The notion that my pain just doesn't matter.

So I wait for the storm

Because only it really knows

What's going through my mind

And how all of this shit goes.

And I don't want to think.

I don't want to care.

I don't want to tell you how I feel.

I won't bother share.

I don't want to argue with anyone.

I'm pulling out my hair.

I don't want to cover up these tears.

Fuck it if the people stare.

I just want the rain.

I just want the rain...

Because when I'm feeling like shit

Only the storm consoles me.

I confide in the darkness.

Only the cold can hold me.

I don't care about examples of happiness you can show me

Because at the end of the day only

Me, myself, and I know me...

I just wish it would rain.

Just rain...