Ian
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Jack was still on the floor as Jerome pulled me off him.
My patience had run out and I couldn't stand it anymore.
I just wanted to bury his face in the wall for talking to Sabrina like that.
I managed to control myself during their argument but when his dirty fingers touched hers, I literally saw red and I was looking for blood.
I looked to the chair where I put Sabrina but she wasn't there.
"Sabrina?"
I called out examining the area we were in but she wasn't there.
She was wandering about at a party at night?
Fuck no!
I left Jack and Jerome and went out the door to see Sabrina with some dude.
They were holding pot and it seemed like he was teaching her how to use it.
She was giggling like a fucking baby and then I realized how drunk she was.
I walked over to them and threw the thing in her hand away, stepping on it as I pulled her into my arms.
"Ian?" She coughed before smiling as I carried her in bridal style towards the car.
"Where are you taking me? Don't touch me!" She whined and I put her down when we were close to the car.
"Calm down, it's me, Ian. I'm taking you home"
"Home? I do not wanna go home. I want to make pot with my friend Moses" she slurred.
"Make pot?"
"Yes, he said he wants to teach me how to make pot"
Oh shit!
What the fuck was she saying?
"No, not today darling"
Darling? Am I drunk too?
"Where's Skye? I asked and almost physically hit myself as she giggled.
What was wrong with me? Why was I asking her things?
She was practically a child at that moment.
"Never mind" I mumbled calling her but her phone was switched off.
"She can take care of herself" I said to myself before putting Sabrina in the backseat and driving to her house.
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"Baby shark do do do do do, baby shark do...."
"Shut up Rina!" I groaned burying my hands in my hair. She has been singing that dumb song since we entered the car and I was so tired of it.
"Come on, let's get down. I'm sure your Nana must be worried" I sighed helping her down.
She wrapped her legs round my waist and her arms around my neck like a little kid.
"Nana is asleep. She doesn't really do much" she said quietly and I nodded as we opened the door.
I took her to her room and threw her on the bed sighing loudly.
One would think that she didn't have weight, but she fucking did.
"Come on Rina, let's get you into bed" I said and she giggled running round the room.
"I really can't do this" I muttered, sitting on the bed and resting on the pillow.
To say I was tired was an understatement.
After a while, I didn't hear Sabrina's footsteps, so I opened my eyes only to see her staring at me.
I was surprised.
Was that how she felt when I did that too?
"You're so pretty" she smiled touching my cheek and I backed away slightly.
"This is the second time you're calling me pretty tonight Rina" I smirked and she giggled.
She leaned closer to me.
"Don't go Ian. Don't leave me" she sighed and I nodded holding her waist.
"I won't leave"
"Good" she smiled taking off her shoes and I got of the bed ,quietly observing her.
Her hair looked so soft and beautiful, she was so damn beautiful tonight. So fucking hot.
The way her outfit hugged her body almost drove me mad.
Why would someone with those looks, compare herself with a fucking nerd?
She was so different and in a way naive.
There was literally nothing she did that didn't amuse me.
I clutched a small teddy resting on one of her pillows and smiled.
This must've been the teddy bear Skye was talking about
"What's his name?"
"Ian" she giggled and all I did was stare at her, my orbs widened slightly.
Normally, I would be scared that a girl I've known for just three weeks named the teddy she sleeps with after me, but everything this girl did made me feel abnormal.
I found myself doing things and saying things I normally wouldn't when she was around.
I even told her Charles law when we first met...
Ugh!
That was so fucking dumb but she didn't even mind.
"That's a nice name" I smirked.
"It's pretty" she smiled resting on the bed.
"Are you going to finally sleep now?" I yawned and she shook her head 'No'.
"You're too fucking much. Where's your Nana?" I asked turning to her as her smiled faltered a bit.
"She's... she's in her room. She's paralyzed" she explained.
My face remained neutral.
Why the fuck was there a paralyzed Nana in her house?
Wasn't she supposed to be taking care of Rina? How could she do that when she's fucking paralyzed?
"Oh" I managed to get out and she shrugged.
"She's the only family I have, except Ryan of course. When my parents passed in an accident, she's literally been the only parental figure In my life. She isn't even related to us by blood but she is family. She gained custody of my brother and I and started working to take care of us. But then she turned old and then one day she just stopped moving" she explained.
I remained quiet, listening to her intently and observing her body language.
This subject must've been touchy.
Why was she sharing it with me?
A fucking three week old friend!
Well, I did tell her about Kaela a few days after we met.
"So since then, I kind of just pretend that she can move and that she does stuff around the house. How psychotic is that?" She giggled and I smiled.
She had no idea how I could relate to that.
"I wouldn't call it psychotic, just trying to manage the pain" I said resting my head on her pillow and preparing myself for the unthinkable.
"When Kaela died, my life turned upside down. Nothing made sense and nothing still makes sense. She wasn't just my annoying, bitchy, big sister, she was also my friend. I loved her. We both had interests in reading novels and poetry and I could sit for hours listening to her read" I smiled remembering my dead sister.
Sabrina stared at me with bright eyes
"She was truly special and there isn't a day I don't miss her. But I'm a fucked up monster because I also hate her" I admitted for the first time and Sabrina kept staring.
'It's fine, she ain't remembering shit in the morning'
I tried to pat myself on the back.
"I hate her because after her death, nothing remained the same. Everything and everyone changed. My fucking father became a workaholic and my bitch of a mother left us. My dad couldn't deal with the pain of our previous house, the memories it held. The framed pictures of her on the walls. The sound of her giggling from her room as she hid under the bed while playing hide and seek with me. He wanted to forget and so did I. I loved her to my core and I'll never stop until I finally meet her wherever she is" I sighed.
Her eyes still rested on me for a few seconds before she looked elsewhere.
I could only imagine the senseless thoughts running through her mind.
"Okay, enough of the sappy shit, let's get you into bed" I said clapping my hands together and standing up.
She looked so uncomfortable just sitting on the bed with tight clothes on. Sabrina nodded before standing up and crashing into the wooden floor.
It took all the willpower I had not to laugh out loud but then, she beat me to it.
Laughing her lungs out and allowing her pearly whites to come into the dim lights.
She was fucking gorgeous.
How did I not notice the tiny dimple on the right side of her cheek?
Her smile was really a sight to behold and it baffled me how rarely she even laughed.
I held my hand out to her, pulling her off the floor.
"Sabrina, it's almost 2am, you really need to get to bed" I said and she giggled again.
Oh my fuck....
"These clothes are too tight" she pouted.
"Thought so" I shrugged sitting her on the bed and going to get some bed clothes from her drawer.
I was shocked when I saw some guy's top in her drawers. Does she have a boyfriend?
The thought stirred something inside of me that I didn't like at all.
"Here, wear these" I handed her the top and some shorts and she smiled.
It was a very brief smile though, cause in a matter of seconds, a frown enveloped her face.
"What?" I asked
"I can't... I can't remove..."she slurred before giggling and my cheeks warmed up.
There was no way I was going to undress her.
No fucking way, because I knew it wasn't humanely possible for me not to want to fuck her there and then.
"You want me to change you?" I asked, my voice a little cracked because of the intensity of the situation.
Sabrina's cheeks were red as she covered her face.
"No.. yes... but... yes... no"
"Which is it?" I rolled my eyes smirking
"Can... can you do it with your eyes closed?" She asked and I stared at her like she had an extra breast.
Okay, weird thought...
"What?"
"I ... I don't want you to see... I'm not comfortable with... With my body" she shrugged and my eyes darkened.
How could she not be?
I had been aching to find out what was beneath those clothes all night. I wanted to measure every inch of her body with my tongue and map out her-
Focus Brown.
Focus!
I sighed
"Okay"
Sabrina stood in front of me and then closed my eyelids with her hands.
She turned around and I held her body, trailing my fingers around her back till I could find the ropes and then untied them.
I felt her tense in front of me but I didn't mind.
Just one peak.
I kept hearing, but then If I did, I knew I would want more than just stare. The top fell to the ground and I held her waist closer to my hips.
A muffled noise escaped her lips and I almost cussed her out.
How the fuck did she want me to do this innocently, when she kept doing shit like that?
It took extreme effort from me not to just grab her and throw her on the bed, making her make more of those sounds but this time a name would be coming out of those full, plump pink juicy-
Stop Ian.
You've changed.
You're not that guy that sleeps around anymore.
You're good now, you're a Jesus baby...
Sure.
I moved my fingers around her waist and tugged on her zipper pulling it down.
Due to the tightness of the skirt, I had to pull it down from her.
I pulled the leather skirt from her hips slowly, my hands grazing the hems of her underwear.
The skirt finally reached the floor and Sabrina lifted her feet from them.
I held on to her waist, still with my eyes closed.
She rested her head on my shoulder, letting that beautiful long, gold brown hair, nuzzle my jaw and pressing her naked back on my hard chest.
I just needed one reason.
One good reason why I shouldn't have fucked her.
And I got it...
She wasn't like the rest.
She wasn't some hoe or random bitch.
She was special and I didn't even know why.
She was fucking perfect.
So beautiful and pure.
Her eyes held all the innocence of the world.
I had only just known her for three weeks but the bond we shared, the closeness or relationship we shared was extraordinary.
Everyday, I found myself being pulled towards her like she was a magnet and I was her metal.
That was the only thing that stopped me from bending her over bathroom sink and just burying myself inside her.
That was the only thing that stopped me from taking her there and then, because she was special and I fucking cared-
Shit! I'm whipped.
"Ian" I heard her whisper but I still closed my eyes, scared to open them and turn to salt.
"Sabrina"
"The...the top?" She asked and I shrugged running my fingers through my hair and pushing her gently away from my front.
In my head she sounded like
'Ian, take me from the top'
Was I fucking serious?
Ugh!
I hated it so damn much.
She was so close, yet so far away
Sabrina got dressed and then appeared in front of me. "Open your eyes" she whispered in front of me.
She smelt like whiskey and I didn't even care. I just needed to taste her lips and feel her against me.
I opened my eyes and she smiled.
"Ready for bed?" I asked and she nodded moving to her bed and grabbing a novel.
"Hey! I said to bed, not read" I said getting on the bed with her and taking the book.
"I can't sleep without reading" she frowned and I sighed
"I'll read to you"
She beamed resting under the blankets and waiting for me with wide, eager, golden eyes.
"'I could easily forgive his pride, if he had not mortified mine. We all know him to be a proud unpleasant sort of man; but this would be nothing if you really like him. Till this moment, I never knew myself. My good opinion...'"
I read quietly and softly just Kaela used to read to me.
In a matter of seconds, Sabrina had fallen asleep and I stroked her hair softly, still reading the book in my grasp to myself while running through what happened that day.
The day could be best described with one word - CRAZY!
That was why I hated parties and shit.
I almost kissed Sabrina!
And I kissed Skye.
I almost murdered Jack and then I undressed Sabrina...
All that in one night?
Yeah, parties are the best... Not.
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