"Deep in the fog, the sight of blowing trees,the feeling of the cold breeze, the bright moon which is rather out of sight, houses on a file like watermelons, darkn..."
"Um, don't you think watermelons are a bit too.."
"Ally!" I exclaim as I walk away from the room in hope of a time Ally would get smart.... or at least a bit. Alice is my sis-like friend but just that I'm a bit smarter.
Mom was in the kitchen..she looked rather pitiful being a single mum with no one to look up to.
Mum and Dad were just fine.. seriously just fine.
Even though I don't know the details I've at least got brains.
From what I know, they were great but one thing is there is a difference between being curious but normal and being so curious and.. maybe abnormal.
I tried all i could to at least get to Dad but Mom just doesn't want me to. She doesn't go out with friends, see or call people.
Sometimes I'm seriously very worried that one day I suddenly saw something waving at me, not sure what it was but....
"Amara !"
"Um... Mom"
"I've been calling for the last five minutes!" she exclaimed.
With a little shrug i ask "Anything I can help with?"
"Might as well use a hand" she grins.
"I could start with the plates". I say looking at her slightly, I give a soft smile.
At 1pm mum asks if we would like to go to a fun place, we started from going to Carrie's Pastry for some donut and tea.
I loved the Pastry so much, then we went to the rollercoaster where Alice actually went on too many rounds and ended up vommiting, we had to buy water and take her into one of the shop to cool down, I was really glad watching mom happy and finally glad that she didn't have Stage 5 Introvert disease, After a while we went back home because Alice kept feeling the urge to vomit.
We get back to the round table for dinner with Alice, She came for a one night sleepover, well we love it, except... it just seems a bit off.
"How are you getting on with your poem?"Mom finally breaks the silence.
I answer lightly "Pretty well, I suppose".
I wasn't really into the dinner as I would've left if not for mum but now I get up saying to her I needed to complete my assignment.
She nods in reply as I pull Ally who is gulping her food like a pig by the dress and we go up to the stairs and disappear into the darkness.
I've been trying to find more information about Dad.
(He could tell me something).
Mom always told me he was a bad person and so on.
But I decided never to believe her words about Dad. I've been searching for two years straight, like seriously, do they think this is a joke.
The huge clue I have now is that his name is Martin.
(Once, she was angry with me and then said it). Mistakenly
I pulled Ally angrily, Well technically, for some time, I've been unnecessarily angry without a reason. Or maybe there's actually one.
Mum yelled behind "Be Careful". But I just wanted to talk.
I got in and took a deep breath and another out.
"What's wrong !, why did you pull me like that". Alice couldn't stop yelling and i just had to tell her I wasn't feeling too well.
Of course, what else could I say?
"How about.... we call it a day". I say slowly as I get on the bed, I pull the blanket over my head.
I turn off the lights as I hear a sound from downstairs then Mom shouts.
"I'm alright"
I give a sigh then start thinking how great it would be if we were a whole family.
Mom wouldn't need to go through the stress.
We would go out more.
We wouldn't be a family of sadist.
And... I wouldn't need to investigate.
I support mum but sometimes I feel that her
decision wasn't the best after all.
Before I noticed, i already dozed off.
Years ago, Mom faced some financial problems and she just didnt want to call anyone.
There are sometimes when I seriously think I'm so stupid, investigating things when I'm the actual problem.
Maybe if I was never here...
All this wouldn't have happened afterall.
Ally is quite someone I can confide in, I really want to become a poet when i grow up.
Well, according to what mum told me about Dad, he was a Poet.
I guess that's where I got my poem writing skills but..... , Maybe watermelons are a bad idea afterall.
I just don't know what to think.
But I know it's all going to be fine.
At least one day.
The next day is Sunday and afterwards Monday. I've got so many thoughts, I really wish I didn't have to go to school, I really wish to stay at home with mom.
New students are supposed to be arriving and truth be told, it was hard, having new students all around and no faces you're familiar with.
Who did I know actually?. Alice, she had her way with people, she could befriend an enemy easily and every one knew her.
Well, she also dated some guys back then but for now she says she doesn't want to love again after her last boyfriend collected money from her for his sick mom and family. She stupidly gave him.
"I'd get on the good side of his family" she had said. After a while, he stopped coming to school, people said he had a new girlfriend and they didn't see her either. Alice went to the address she was given, it was a building site.
Would he have said he mistakenly gave her the wrong address if she had gone to his house before the incident?
She found out he had an uncle who said his dad was actually in Mexico and he had returned there.
Alice almost never came out and always cried. I learnt enough lesson from Alice's story and well... mum's story.
Just focus on education, being with mom and well, finding dad.
And no one should come in the way. No one.
I smile thinking about how good the future would be, and I would cry, yes but for joy or mistakes of life