' Jackie. I know what I'm doing and I believe this is the best decision for me. we can work this out.' I said as I hugged her. The truth is that even though I was acting all confident, I wasn't sure about any of this. I was afraid not just for myself but for my future. I felt so selfish for doing this but I had no other choice. I had signed the contract and I needed Jackson.
' Are you ready?' Jackson asked, his voice out loud from the other room.
' Well I'm still going to miss you. come on. I'm only going to be in the city but I'm going to be visiting you every weekend.'
' You promise?' she asked and I shook my head yes. she kissed the top of my head one last thing before pulling me into a warm embrace. I knew she was nervous about this. we both were. everything had moved so quickly and we barely had enough time to process it. Finally we open the bathroom door before stepping out.
' I already took your luggage to the car. anything else you need we can buy tomorrow. Jackson said as he stood in the middle of the room his hands slid into his pockets.
' I'm going to miss you so much Hannah.'
' Come on, I don't have all day for this. well all night.' He joked but he wasn't laughing. He was rude and he was arrogant. even when he didn't need to be. The reality remained that I still hated Jackson Miller. with every fiber of my being. but I still wanted to make this right for my baby.
' Have we agreed?' I asked as I said to him. deposed for a moment pretending he was thinking about it.
' Well yeah. 100,000 isn't a lot of money for me. you can give it back to my father when he and you meet again. I needed Jackson's father to know that I did not agree with what he had done. and that I wasn't here for the money. if I give him back the money he gave to my parents then perhaps he wouldn't come after them. He will have no reason to. I followed Jackson behind as we exited the motel room. Jackie, who had never been emotional a day in her life, actually cried while she walked me out. We walked down the little stairs and then towards his car that was packed right outside. I hope you're not waiting for me to open the door for you. He laughed slightly but I couldn't find a joke in it.
' I'm not crippled, I can open my own doors.' I answered and to which he seemed slightly offended. Once settled into the car he finally drove us out. I felt like i was leaving a part of myself behind.
' Tomorrow everything begins. He said dripping the steering wheel. I was silent. allowing myself to take in everything that was happening.' We are going to go shopping. I'm going to get you looking a little less like that.' He waved his fingers pointing them towards me while his leap twitched in disgust. 'I need to get you looking more fitting. more like an elegant person and not a garbage collector.'
' Hey! I got a good deal for this dress.' I grunted, hating his demeaning words.
' When I buy clothes I don't look at the price.' He answered by shutting me up immediately. I hated how he could easily win an argument. I hated everything about him. Yet I was carrying his child.
' Who would have known?' he smiled slightly. ' Who would have guessed that a mistake one day would ram us into this predicament.' he laughed and I looked at him.
' Who would have thought that my first time would leave me pregnant.' I spoke slowly and the wheels of the car screeched against the tarmac road as he almost made us get hit.
' You were a virgin?' His tone is filled with shock and surprise. something I didn't expect especially on this matter.
' You didn't know?' I questioned and to which he shook his head. Well for a man who prides himself in his bedroom skills, I'm a little disappointed.' His face flashed with anger as his fingers tightened around the steering wheel.
' Well you couldn't stop shaking and the grip your p**** had on my cock that night was exhilarating. Do you remember that night? when you…'
' We don't need to talk about that. I interrupted him as I stared right ahead. I heard him laugh slightly, as if mocking me.
' Fuck! I got a virgin pregnant.' he said but this time it wasn't a joke. and he wasn't laughing.
The rest of the ride was silent. When he pulled into his villa, the guards at the gate opened immediately. We wasted no time in getting out of the car. I was exhausted. I had been crying for almost an hour after that encounter with my parents. All I wanted to do was sleep.
I could tell he was also distracted with something. He was no longer making those rude remarks at me or pestering me. We got into his house and I could clearly remember where his bedroom was. I did not need him to usher me around. I walked into his room. I took off my shoes and placed my phone on the nightstand before burying myself into his sheets.
Nothing was said between us.
I noticed the lights go out before the weight of the mattress shifted when he got on the bed. I wanted to panic but I just felt so tired. He moved closer to me and his arm wrapped around my waist before pulling me back against him. I felt safe in his arms and I felt him relax against me. I could argue with him about this later. I could act like I didn't like it tomorrow. But right now, I felt like I was safe. I was home.
I fell asleep in his arms. We both did.