I'm in the deepest end,
I'm drowning and can no longer pretend.
God! I know this place,
And I've been here before in the subspace,
Melting into the pain.
You've gotten me out, but I'm back here again.
This time I'm not so sure,
If I have enough strength left to endure,
Until when you'll get here,
'Cause I know too well the voice I hear.
I can hear him calling me,
And I don't think this time I'll go free.
This time he's in control,
I can feel his claws tugging at my soul,
He's too deep in my head.
I think soon I'll be wishing to be dead,
'Cause I can't live this way.
Anything, anything to make it go away!
I think this is my last spin,
I've lost; I'm just an empty shell within.
Dear Lord if you hear this,
If you'll save me no more from this abyss,
If this is how this ends,
Show my soul a little grace when it ascends.
When to so far places,
The four winds shall scatter away this ashes,
Remember this heart,
Remember it has tried, as it did from the start,
To hold on to what was,
Until what was, was nothing more than a curse.