He stare at her breast then lick them. Xue Qin feel dizzy and don't know what she should do to stop him or continue. Later she feels a light breeze on her private part. He is licking and sucking it. Making it so wet she can't control herself and water starts leaking out. All she can hear is him sucking her water. Her tears falls as she look the dark sky. Suddenly he stop. She look at him silently when he start to pull back up her panties. Later he pull back her dress top. "I don't mean to treat you like a whore." He wipe her tears.
"I never touch a woman but i go crazy when i think of you." He whisper.
"Please go." She whisper as another set of tear fall. Obeying her wish, he pick himself up and walk away. She continue to sit there with her weak legs and her water is still leaking out. She doesn't know what to do. For along time she sit on the ground like a broken doll.
"Xue Qin!" She hear Nan Qin voice in a distance. He is looking for her. She wipe her tears and try to stand up. Nan Qin spot her struggling to get up.
"What is wrong?"
"Nothing."
"You sure? Why are you sitting on the ground? Look your skirt is all wet now."
"No i..."
"Is it time of the month? Should i go to the convince store get some medic..."
"No i am fine. Just weak legs haha"
"Next time if you need help. You got to say. You always keeping quiet at things. That's why i have to watch out for you."
Nan Qin help her up and they slowly walk back up the stairs to her house. She thank Nan Qin and ensure him she is going to bed.
After her shower, she lay on the bed. Holding her teddy bear. She wonder why can't she be like everyone. Have a normal relationship. Get marry. Be a mother. Be a granny. Unconsciously she touch her private parts where he lick. It feels strange and take her breath away. She remember him saying that he did not touch another woman before so how did he know what to do? Is this human instinct?
Month later, there is business meeting with Daniel's company. He comes along with his team of four. Xue Qin is the team meeting with him. She try to sit through the meeting without any personal thought. However he sits there staring at her doesn't help. She feels that she did her best to conduct throughout the business meeting. After two hours the meeting is concluded. Everyone is leaving the room when Daniel ask Xue Qin to stay back. They waited till the door is close. "I am sorry for the last time what I did. Can you forgive me?"
"We should not be talking about these in the office."
"Then why didn't you reply to my text messages."
"I ... "
"I am asking my mother to cancel the engagement. I can't go through that when my heart tells me that you should be the one."
" You can't do that."
"Meet me tonight. Let's have dinner and talk."
"There is nothing to talk about."
"There is plenty." He hold her hands and look in her in the eye "Meet me tonite. I will text you the address.Come." He look at her and tighten his hold on her hands
" Let us meet again." He touch raise his hand and get his fingers into her hair. He kiss her cheeks. At that point she can smell him. Like in a trance she look at him so close. They kiss lightly on the lips.
She meet him at the agreed place. It is a private restaurant. s few tables available for dining. They sit & eat in silence. Daniel keep apologise but She remain Silence. After dinner she thought that Daniel is driving her home instead he drive her to his place. "Let me get off!"
Daniel is not listening he is thinking of getting to a quiet place where he can tell her. Thus he drives to his place. He drag her in the house. "Please try to listen"
"No let me go" She cry. She is afraid of things that will go out of her control. The more she struggle. The closer he gets to her physically. Like magic the smell of his skin, makes her quiet and defenceless. They stand hugging in the dark mansion. For a long time they stand in the same position. She is hearing his breath and his heart beat. It feels so warm and cosy. Finally she is push gently apart from him. In the dark room, she still can see the sparkles in his eyes.
"In this dark room Xue Qin. I can see you only."
He hug her again. Slowly he atart to move as if he is dancing and Xue Qin slowly slowing his rhythm. Without music they dance as if there is music play just for them. He starts to whisper in her ears.
"I want to say to you that I like you a long time ago. Just that we didn't have any chances to speak to each other. The first time I saw you was in the art studio in high school. Your hair is long dark. You were painting in the corner. I join the class but you are not interested to talk to me. When class ends either you still paint or you just disappear. Later I meet you in university. You did not recognise me. I follow you around. You did not have much friends and your cousin is following you around till he graduated. Later I left for overseas study and stay there for along time. When I return I saw you at the restaurant with Nan Qin and a few more times till the engagement. We keep going around in circles with each other. So near yet so far. " He look at her and tuck her little hair back. They continue to move with the music in their heart. Sometimes they kiss, sometime they stop to hug in the dark. Xue Qin is wishing this time will just stop here, once she is back to the mansion, everything move back to reality.