As opposed to how bored i was yesterday, today was a fun day where I hang out with seb.
Although it all started with a simple picture I sent to him, which made the bastard come this morning.
After what Trixie said I was overthinking a lot.
Freshly fucked my ass.
Even tho I couldn't believe it, yet, I still thought of it and it's possiblity to be a truth, it was maddening.
So I sent him a photo of my self that I took that day in Trix's bathroom_ I keep count of my cries by pictures, don't ask why_ late last night, since I couldn't sleep trying to find whether she was truthful or not. Two minds better than one, right?
Wrong.
Strangely enough. I feel asleep right after, only to wake up to 56 unread text, 24 calls and an angry Seb banging at my door this morning.
" WHO WAS IT?" He screamed at me first thing after I opened the door. I just went back to the bed re-entering my warm blanket as he got in, took my stacks of books off my chair, dragged it and sat on it next to my bed, this was normal routine _ note, return the books to where they belong on my book shelf_ I started yawning as I tried to remember what I did last night, but he's next words explained well the situation to me.
'' who the hell did you have sex with yesterday? Was it forced? Who's the asshole?"
Tbh, my heart warmed a bit because of his worried tone. I thought he'll be more angry if that was the actual case since he always made it to be a big thing.
Is this the same guy who made it clear to the whole school I was off limits?? so I had no guy friends, and since I didn't get along with the most liked girls at school aka Stacy and Stefani, I didn't get any girlfriends. So he's the reason he's my only friend and he knows it .
Don't get me wrong he was mad, like if the supposed guy was here he'll get a black eye or two. But the hair of nervousness in his voice, the darkness behind his eyes featured the anger within, which I'm assuming is rising because off the redness rimming my puffy eyes in the photo.
My bestie worries for me, it's cute.
" Relax. I'm still the virgin you left Friday night here. I had been here all day yesterday. The photo is from Friday morning I was severely crying because of ... A book, but i got weird looks at school before I washed my face so i sent it to you to ask if I looked weird, didn't you read the caption?'' I explained. Ofc I wasn't about to tell my bestie about my most embarrassing moment. He will never let it go for the life of me so yes I lied..
"..... A book?..... I believe it, I know it's not the first time you've cried over a book. Plus now that I think about it who would even dare to do so?'' he returned, his tone now calmer.
'' how rude? Just for that, I'm hooking up with the first, not related to me, single man who calls me.'' I say with sass although only a few people have my number and almost everyone is one of my relatives.
'' you have very high standards for a virgin, but it's ok you can be delulu all you want because I've made it my mission in life to prevent that from happening.''
'' ... Did you forget about our deal? How are you expecting to set me up with someone of your taste to be my bf and not have intercourse with him? Don't you want a date with your little ray anymore?'' I said.
'' ... Ok. But the guy I'm gonna pick for you will be one of those 'wait till marriage' guys, so I'm not really worried.'' he said casually with a little too much confidence like the controlling fuck he is.
'' No no absolutely no, period. You're not my father nor are you my boyfriend or any guy who has the ability to control my actions or my wants, not even my father has a say in my love life? Who do think you are?''
'' I'm a brother, bish. Our mom adopted me when we were 8. A verbal contract is still a contract which holds value in court.''
''... Maybe in some states, not here tho. And my mom was joking. You're still holding onto a childhood promise? Grow up fuck boy, you're an adult now.'' I said faking a britch accent to lighten my insulting tone.
'' grow up? All you think about is how to get a boyfriend lately, not your college applications, assignment or any of your stupid projects like you used to at the beginning of every years, is that all you care about now?'' he said in a high pitched motherly tone with sum weird hand gestures.
'' well, I don't have to worried about that stuff anyway this year, unlike the failing boy in front of me. You sure you don't want to join my tutoring sessions, Kyle is really good.'' saying his name sent a shiver down my spine for no reason.
'' No. I told you a million time, I don't want to.''
He added suddenly so serious, removing the funny accents we do.
I suspected Sebastian didn't like Kyle because of his consistent irrational refusual to be tutored by him. I mostly let it go since I had no reason to back that feeling up.... Well except for the theory that he might know our tutor is Stacy's crush.
Noooo, the guy who only found out about the true meaning behind the intro ' who let the dogs out ' a few weeks ago_ it's about ugly people in the club not dogs_ couldn't have pick that up quickly. Right?
'' want to get ice cream?'' I asked, not anxious about the random change of the subject I made. This was our thing me and Seb we will start on the first page together then find ourselves in the middle of two different books that somehow matched, it was perfect. It's like we share one brain cell, it works out good for us because we understand each other when others don't.
He doesn't want talk about it, it's fine neither did I want to in the first place.
We fit perfectly in each other's comfort zones.
An actual brother, lovable but still an asshole.
'' sure, also don't read books that will make you cry like that, you looked weird.''
'' I figured since you're first assumption about it was ' who fucked this bish up' . Describing it as weird is probably an understatement. I want chocolate ''
'' I'll start the engine, change out of those disgusting PJ, i'll be waiting downstairs.''
'' My morally grey PJ's are beautiful.... Just like you from the inside and the outside.''
I tried not to laugh saying the last bit in a robotics voice.
'' ... Just for that, you're paying for the ice cream.''
'' fine by me if it means I can keep making fun of you for the whole day today''
'' feeling generous today? Sure.''
'' good cause I've meaning to ask, studies shows people with daddies issues are the most likely to seek ai approval/ affection, like in c.ai . Is this the case here?''
'' ...reminde me again why we're friends?''
'' you just love me so much that you can't live without me and me being the selfless angel I am. I took pity on you so I accepted your lowly offer of a friendship at the fragile age of three.''
'' ... Sometimes you sputter stuff like that, and I don't think you get the true meaning of consequences when you open that mouth.''
'' egotistical fuckboy.'' I say as I pull my tongue out to taunt him.
'' short smut reader.'' he says closing the door before I hit him with my flying pillow which ended up on the floor. The ice cream was delicious, mom made lasagna for dinner which was spicy, just the way I like it.
I'll give this week a 7 just because of Kyle's incident.
That was the resume of today, and in hopes the following week gets better.... I'll stop reading smut on public transport.
Actually?no, not really, I can't give that up.
Good night.