(Levar Point of View)
What? No. She wouldn't lie to me about that. There is no way. Why would that be her job? Why else was she where she was when I got kidnapped? Sure it explains why she didn't really like talking about her career. I didn't think that was what she was lying about. Why wouldn't she tell me? She kept me here. She kidnapped me. I know how messed up it is for me to love her but I don't understand why she lied to me. Wait, yes I do. That's scary to think about. I am dating and have been living with someone who is in the mafia. How could I ignore that fact? She has killed people. I know I have ignored the fact that she kidnapped me but that was because she loves me, right? She doesn't plan on making me join, right? Wait, that also means she had lied about how many people she had killed. She said four but she has probably killed double every day. I don't think I could see her the same. There is no way I can. She has lied to me about this. I can't just accept that. She uses being a police officer as a cover-up and uses it to keep the police off of her might just be worse. Does she not feel bad for any of it? How could she not? I have talked to murderers and robbers when they just can't take it or mafia members that are forced into it but never a boss. The boss always seems heartless. Forcing people to join, killing people, selling people, and drugs as well. And yet I have been living with one. I have been living with one. I don't know if I could look at myself the same. Does this mean that the person I know her as is lying? Have I not seen her true self before?
"Sir, are you okay?" Abaddon's voice cuts off my thoughts.
I look up at Abaddon. How can he not see the problem in this? He did say she is working for her for a while so he must know all sorts of horrible things she has done. "No, I'm not. My girlfriend is in the mafia and to make it worse, she is the boss."
"Did she not tell you?"
"No, she didn't. She failed to mention that and I asked." What made him think that she did tell me?
"Miss Asaka isn't going to be happy…" He pauses as he pulls out his phone. "She is coming home now."
She is? I can ask her. She will tell me why she didn't tell me. "I am waiting outside for her."
"I am coming with you."
I look up at him. "Why?"
"Because I'm not allowed to leave your side." I doubt he will let me argue that. He seems very keen on following orders given to him. I guess then I do have him to back me up and he isn't just walking around in here. I don't know how Lev will feel about that. It will be weird for him to just be watching me but I guess I can't stop that.
I nod my head slightly before I head outside. I feel hurt that she didn't tell me. I know I have been thinking for a little bit now that she has been hiding something from me but I didn't think this was it. How could she have done that? I know I don't know everything that she has done but it still hurts to think about. How am I supposed to move on now that I know this?
When I see Asaka pull up, I look over at her car. I got this. I can tell her how I feel and what I now know.
"Just so you know, she clearly does care about you. She made it quite clear that she would kill me if anything happened to you. She wants you safe and she loves you. She wants you safe and happy." What? What does he mean? I look up at him, confused. "I can tell you don't believe me but if you ask her, she will confirm that she loves you very much. And I'm sure she will tell you what she will do for you. She cares for you a lot, more than anyone else." I guess I am easy to read.
She cares about me more than anything? How could I believe that? I can't trust him. I don't know him. I know he is meant to make sure I am safe so I should trust him and he did tell me something big. Maybe I should talk to her first before I do anything else. I guess she has never hurt me and she has been doing a lot to comfort me. How could he even know this? I know he has worked for her for a while but doesn't know our relationship. I have become more dependent on her because of her keeping me here and I do hate saying that she kidnapped me. It doesn't feel right. This isn't what happens when someone is kidnapped. I can't just ignore this though. I have to talk to her about this.