Mixed feelings

Brenda was in the ward with the nurse receiving her treatment. She remained quiet staring at the wall, making no movement even as she was given her shots .

With concern for her, the nurse asked "Are you ok ma'am ?"

But Brenda didn't seem to hear her as she was lost deep in thought.

"Ma'am," the nurse tried to get her attention as she waved in front her face," making Brenda hop back into reality .

"Yes yes," Brenda replied.

"Are you okay ma'am? You seemed to have been lost in thought there."

"Oh I'm sorry about that I wa-"

"Oh no you don't have to be I totally understand." The nurse said with so much understanding and care laced in her voice.

"So do you wanna talk about it?" the nurse asked Brenda trying to break the awkward silence .

"About what?" Brenda asked in a calm voice as she looked up to her.

"Forgive me ma'am. I'm sorry I overstepped. I would take my leave now"

The nurse frantically bowed her head in apology immediately.

"No no dear you don't have to be sorry.

Are you done with injections?"

"Yes it was the last one I just gave you

You now have three shots tommorow and you can be discharge to go home "

"That's good news. Anyway, I would love to share my thoughts with you and perhaps ask for advice if you dont mind," Brenda told the nurse.

The nurse replied with a warm smile on her face as she sat next to Brenda on the bed and held her hands, "I'm all ears ma'am."

You can tell me anything.

Brenda smiled back at her and began.

"It's about my fiancee, we aren't even married yet and he is hiding things from me and I don't like it at all. It's not like anyone would, I mean, even he wouldnt like it if I hid things from him .

. And the most infuriating part is when I ask him , and he gives me the 'oh don't worry' nonsense. Like the hell I don't need the whole 'oh don't worry' sermon I've heard it enough in this lifetime." Brenda said everything a breath.

"It bothers me a lot you know," Brenda said to the nurse.

" Oh yeah I understand. I can totally relate. Men can be secretive at times and it's really annoying and they just don't get it. My boyfriend does it a lot or should I say used to until I dealt with the situation ."

"How did you deal with it if i may ask ?"

Brenda asked the nurse.

"Oh that? It's easy. I just found his weak point and i always wait for the right time to take advantage of him and make him tell me what I want; well, in most cases what I need to know " she shrugged.

"Really?" Brenda asked

"Yeah" the nurse replied with a proud smile on her face revealing her cute dimples.

"So what's this weakness of his that made it easy for you to make him reveal to you ?" Brenda asked with curiosity.

"Ma'am, the weakness of every man that truly loves you ,is you. The nurse said looking into her eyes .All you have to do is know the right mood, time, place and situation to act."

"Really ?" Brenda asked with interest.

"Yes mam"

"Please call me Brenda, I'm more comfortable with that; besides you can call us friends."

"Ok mam- sorry Brenda. You can trust my words. Usually when I want to get something from my man and he refuses ,I honestly don't need to do much. I either snob his texts and calls; give him the silent treatment - trust me they hate the sillent treatment - or just show lack of interest. especially when he wants to be around you.

And Since he loves me, pacifying me is the top of his priority at that point. I'm happy I have some one like him in my life, someone who worries when I'm worried and is restless till he sees me smile again.

Yh I feel guilty when I have to use such method to get him to talk but these guys always leave no choice."

"He's probably the one I am going to get married to. I mean he is financially strong, cute, sexy, hot, calm and everything I ever wished. Looking at him alone gets me all gittering." Brenda rambled with really bright smile plastered all over her face. She was definitely in wonder land.

"Ok ok," Brenda laughed seeing the nurse in dreamland. "But wow you're damn lucky," Brenda said in awe, "I mean take a look at me I got pregnant for a guy I'm not totally sure I love

. I know it's crazy but I always imagined getting married to him and im not sure if I love him yet. I know I have feelings well I guess everyone knows" she said with a small laugh.

"Trust me everyone doesss....oh my God! Is that what I think it is?" The nurse exclaimed grabbing Brenda's ring finger.

"Ouch! " Brenda exclaimed

"Ohh sorry ,my God are those real diamonds?!?!" The nurse asked as her gaze remained fixed on the ring on Brenda's finger."

"Oh this? Yeah it is. he ju-"

"Oh and it's purple too" The nurse Interrupted Brenda. "I've read and heard that purple are one of the rarest type of diamonds and to top it all...it's really, like really expensive." The nurse said as she tried get a better view if the ring while turning Brenda's hand.

Brenda giggled.

"Can I have a look ? "The nurse asked Brenda.

"Yeah sure," Brenda said taking it off to give the nurse.

She admired it with much amusement twisting and turning it like she wanted to see every detail of it. "So much for someone who you're not sure you love. He definitely loves you."

"Yeah" Brenda replied as she took it away from the nurse's hands noticing she was getting lost in it's beauty.

The nurses quickly got herself and apologized, "I'm sorry, it's just that it's the most beautiful ring I have ever seen."

"Awww thank you," Brenda replied, "I love it too. I was really happy when he proposed he looked me in my eyes and said the most beautiful words I could ever imagine."

"Awwww" the nurse commented, "that's so romantic.

Which brings me back are you sure you don't love him ? Cause I definitely think you do. I mean who wouldn't? "

"I know, no one wouldn't love a guy like him, he's every girl's dream but I'm talking about myself not any other girl. I don't know , i guess I am , ugh he is driving me crazy" Brenda said as the nurse bursts into laughter .

"I know for a fact that you do love him .

Don't let little issues get in the way of your love for him. You're just thinking that way because of the current issues you guys are having."

"Yh I guess so"

"Besides, what's there not to love about him? He's rich, he's -"

"Everything isn't about material things you know? "

"Yeah , yeah I know but if my baby doesn't get me something like this then it's over.

"You don't mean that do you "?

Brenda asked

"Of course not I'm just Joking"

The nurse replied

Ok jokes apart, his wealth is just part of the perks you get but that aside.

Have you seen yourself when you're talking about him? The nurse asks Brenda

You go all blushing and mushy," she smiled.

"A quick question: how would you feel if this whole treatment you get including staying with you at the hospital and looking after you, was given to someone else?"

Brenda grimaced at the thought

"Just like I thought you wouldn't like that obviously, and you've thought about spending your life with him, and having children right?"

Brenda nodded, "bingo! You're definitely in love with him."

"I guess"Brenda points at her ,as they both burst into laughter.

"Don't give it too much thought. It would revealed itself better at some point."

They both let out deep breaths at the same time. "Thank you so much I feel so much better," Brenda appreciated the nurse

"No you don't have to thank me ,you know it's like they say ,a problem shared is a problem half solved now the remaining half depends on you and how you approach this problem of yours ."

"I will give a try to your advice. Thank you once more."

Oh don't mention.

The nurse replied,as they both smile at each other.

:Oh my!" Brenda exclaimed as she looked at the wall clock, "We've been talking for over 40 mins now"

"I have taken a lot of your time don't you have something doing ?"

"Actually I just got my job here so my duties haven't been specified to me yet so, I get free from work when no one remembers me and I still get paid fully so, I'm very cool with it. That is unless that stressful doctor john calls."

"Have you seen miss Jennifer?" A deep voice question someone outside the door in the hallway.

"Oh no speak of the devil," Jennifer groaned, "I have to leave now bye." Jennifer hurriedly said to Brenda as she packed the injections she used on Brenda in the small tray . She hugged Brenda and left before Dr John found her himself.

While Brenda sat alone, as she went into deep thoughts on the conversation she just had.