She was alone at night hugging her pillow and forcing herself to sleep , but the crashing thunder and lightning kept her awake , reminding her of her hurtful memories. She wished her mom to hug her and put her to sleep but her mom is not with her anymore . Not even her dad. This was the first time she cried after 19 whole years! She quickly wiped her tears and went to her study and then took her journal and started writing:
Dear diary,
I could not put myself to sleep. I never cried after my parents left, but now I want them to hug me to sleep . I don't want to be alone. I want someone to reassure me that everything is alright. I want a person whom I could share my thoughts and my happiness with , rather than you. I spent my 24 years of my life in scientific research and medical research. But no one talks with me sweetly , asking me how I was , Or about my health . No one cared about me rather than myself. I want to be loved... I want to be cared by someone... I want the sweet smell of home... I want someone to make me a homemade meal. I want to be happy...
From
Zeta Aquarii