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Chapter 3 - 3. introduction to herself...

Exiting the room she entered in her room, crushing her head in pillow sobbing, her voice came hitched because of her swollen throat..."w-why?...

Meanwhile ; Cristine stood dumbfounded in living room, her anger reaching its very edge..."you saw that, how ignorant she has become"...- tapping her one feet eagerly, she gazed at her husband.

"Darling...You don't have to be this harsh on her, after all she is just a little girl"."perhaps considering her past we should perceive future delicately, even though you're apoplectic behaviour towards her doesn't behoove you dear"...- mr.adam replied.

"Mom I'm done with all this nuiscence". "I don't wanna ruin my day because of that ignorant girl"...- fah commented while leaving out from front door...

'Nodding towards fah'... Cristine moved back further inside to the kitchen saying : " hnn...then advice her to wrap up all the appointed work at once"!..."if not she will see the worst face of mine"!...

" And mom?...you have worst face than this?... -Thayem shockingly murmured silently.

"Son.. you said anything ?..."

" N-no mom...(holding her hands)...I thought I am 'the favourite one' here but looks like now it's heavily weighted towards sis! (Seating on kitchen counter top)..." " Every second day she is allowed to go on a date"...- Thayem complained while clinging on his mother annoyingly.

"Aww...baby you're so naive...(caressing his head)

"all you need to know is that when your sister will marry a rich man not only her but also our life will be changed acutely..."

"And you my son...you should also make an attempt to favour one of rich female in your school...(smiling widely)... don't you think so?.." - Cristine said teasingly.

"Rich girls are wicked, counterfeit and insensitive... I don't know how many layers of makeup they would have put on their faces..."eww...- overly disgusted Thayem replied.

"Ohh...(smiling)...that.. you'll understand when you'll get older.."

"and you (gazing at her husband) educate iris some way of etiquette...- while saying Cristine left.

"But I will be 18 in few months..." - Thayem murmured to himself. "Anyway, dad... I should talk to fennec..."

"It's better if she takes her time. It's very hard to adopt oneself in a very different surrounding all at once..." - mr.adam said patiently resting on a couch. " And you idiot don't call her fennec!..she is your sister..."

Sudden change of mr.adam's expression caught Thayem off guard.

"Ahh...You s-scared me daad..."

Meanwhile:

Iris is sitting on knees holding a pillow, her thought irresistibly flickering...still distilling surge of events, she is unable to get hold of it.

Compelling herself to dive back into ocean of memories remembering what led her to fall into this unrevealed occurance.

At this point, her memories got stuck on serious consequences of her life, where she finds herself standing on a bridge staring right through the water body regretting every decision that she made in her life.

Wanted to see herself in top she abandoned everything even her own family, her family, (chuckling) she never cared about them when they were infront of her eyes untill they got lost in that mortal world. At the end she let down herself with her own hands. She wanted to make them proud, but leaving them behind, abandoning them, neglecting her responsibility, it was her worst decision that made her face this inevitable situation where there is only one choice left. But still there is ray of hope in her eyes " It's not me, I'm not this cruel!.." she don't wants to accept this only choice left, jumping from the bridge feeling calmness in stagnant water falling into deep she thought of only one chance to change her fate, just one chance.

Clenching pillow more tightly to her heart "am I dead?..." - she cried out.

"No it can't be true!...I can see live people roaming around me..." " Or maybe I lost my memory..." "Ahaa...what am I thinking!..."

Rubbing her temple she decided to divert her thoughts from this situation thinking that she unluckily got involved in some unknown people's matter that she even don't recognise.(sarcastically chuckling)...it happens every day while I'm dreaming. "It's just I'm getting illusional, or while overthinking I broke my nerve and leaving a dream..."

She laughed and let out a sigh, walking towards a study table shifting her weight on a chair, she throughghly collected and walked through the bills which were scattered on the table. Analysing and calculating the contents finally writing sum...

Sudden realisation, ceasing her doing "what am I doing??..." - she exclaimed loud. 'click in her head!'

"Whose permission is I'm waiting for?" "I can ran away...and noone will know..."

Grabbing her hair she groaned in internal pain "ahaa...how the hell is this happening... even if i got unconcious after drowning then I must be in hospital in States...what the hell I'm doing here...."

"Ahaa... God!..."

Iris just realised that since morning she is listening them and following their every instructions like a good domecile puppy who belongs here. Everything was on track untill this morning, " did I really hit my head?..."

At this point, her energy is drained completely out of exhaustion. Nor she has courage to yell at people asking them who the hell is she, where she came from, question to her existence.

Feeling dizzy...she set on the edge of her bed "iris what's going on?..." - she asked herself.

"Are you okay?..." - quavering yet comforting voice.

Sitting right beside her Thayem worriedly asked- "are you alright Vixen?..."

"I'm not!... Thayem... I'm not doing good with my memories!...- she replied.

Staring right into his eyes " I don't even know who you are?...these people...I don't know any of them"

"Y-you... don't remember?...(face sadened)...- Thayem replied.

Holding her little hands Thayem said confidentially - " Vixen...yk you can share everything if you want..."

His comfort gave her a hope...a hope to find in what intricate situation she got herself entangled.

"I'm all ears"- Thayem said appreceating her to continue.

" Ahmm...where to start?...- she thought to herself.

"Do I live here?...or who found me and when did I came here, why I'm here and firstly what place is it?...and...

Iris is questioning him In one breath like he is the culprit..

"Did you fell this morning?"...- he spoke stopping her.

"N-no...!...." - she replied.

While chuckling..." I know Vixen you're not very fond of mom and sis but still you don't have to joke that you forget them?..."

It is the point when iris burst into tears... "I'm not joking!...I really don't remember!...I need help!..." - Winning she cried out loudly.

"O-ohh... I'm sorry...I didn't mean...- he stuttered while panicking.

"Fine...you are iris violet who lives with my family and me at Southport Rivvia...and you are smart cause you will be joining the best University next week and you're cute like Vixen and I ...(realising what he is about to say...he stuttered)...ahmm...i-i mean...

"What?...did you said?..." - she shouted while cleanching his hands tightly.

"N-no no...y-you heard wrong I just l-like you as my sister..." - he stuttered again, struggling pulling his hands.

But iris cleanched his hands more tightly pulling him more closer...

"Not that...you said you live in?...

"S-southport... we live in Rivvia...

With those words coming out of his mouth he fell stumbling himself on the floor with sudden slip off her hands.

"W-whaat?... I'm in Rivvia?..." - she said while frowning.

"I told you you to not take stress anymore, you already fell unconcious one time after your entrance exam because of over exhaustion. I-i don't wanna see you in that situation again Vixen..." - he uttered almost shouting.

" Oh lord what is happening?...when in the hell I traveled another country?...- iris cried throwing herself on the bed.

Slightly tapping her head he said with worried expression- "Vixen I guess you have damaged your nerves while overreading...I think you need a doctor you really damaged your head!..."

"D-daad...iris needs help!..." - Thayem sprint out of the door while shouting.

Dumbfounded iris shrinked herself, pushing her head into pillow almost attening lack of air to breathe. Hitched voice can be heard, she is crying.

What she wanted was a chance...a chance where she don't blame her fate...she never wanted to die alone...she wanted to say goodbye to this world while surrounded by her loved ones.

"Looks like this situation is getting out of hand..."

She set straight on the bed. Her tears has dried.

With deep breath she closed her eyes 'memorizing the happening'...

"How come I'm here...after moving to states 10 years ago there is not a chance I have travelled back here to the same old place from where I always wanted to ran forever!..."

"Iris you absolutely didn't travelled any other country in few months...so it's clear these people are playing with me...about that bridge incident I think they are trying to mischievously hiding something from me...but...(focusing)....they don't look like one...they behave like they know me from years....so what is it?...that I'm missing..."

"It's like I time travelled somewhere in other body and now am unable to coup up with things..." - iris uttered blabbering to herself.

Shockingly she widened her eyes..."is that I travelled through the time!..."

"N-no...nooo...it can't be possible... time travel is fictional...- iris tried to shrug off her insensible thoughts.

But still her thoughts are unstoppable... making unimaginable scenarios....she gazed around her room and rushed to small mirror hanging from the wall... looking inside the mirror at her reflection. Her face beautifully covered in frackle and a pretty alluring black mole under her left lower jaw spoting no difference from herself.

Staring more closely " hnn... there is no difference between what I was yesterday and what I'm now... except I'm looking at my reflection who is in her adolescence..."

Gasping she closed her mouth with her hands realising what she just said...

"It's that I'm just seeing myself in my 18...."

Stumbling back she somehow managed to balance herself...

Finding herself in her younger body she stands there dumbfounded, she is back in Rivvia her childhood in front of her eyes... reviewing every little detail..."since morning everything was unusual to me...and it strarted from the bridge,, I should be in coffin no-one mourning for me..."

But now she finds herself stuck in an inevitable situation from where it's impossible to escape...

" At the end I wanted a chance to live..." - she cried in haze.

To face enormous mountain of thoughts is not as serene as it looks... Almost losing her concious, breathing heavily...she asks herself..."is this what you always wanted?..."