What? What did he just say? Escape together? I thought about it. I really did. But I don't think I can ever escape from this place. I would be scared of the professor all my life. To be honest I'm rather shocked to hear those words from a boy like him. I stood up without taking his hand, but directly facing him.
"I can't."
Now he is the one who looks shocked.
"Why not? Because you think you aren't good enough? Because I called you a lab rat? You might be a lab rat, but you could throw that all away. Don't you hate the torture? Don't you live in endless fear? We can make a plan together to-"
"Stop."
I Said and now I stopped looking at him. Maybe I should go now. I gave up on the plan of breaking out years ago. I built up a live. I can't throw that away now.
"I see."
He sounds disappointed. He looked at me with a glare and even though I didn't see his face, I was sure that he was mad right now. He probably already had made up a plan.
"I think I should go now. See you tomorrow, Shin."
I went in direction of the door and as I leave I'm convinced that I heard a silent "Whatever" from Shin. As I closed the door behind me I start to breathe faster. I know I made the right decision, but I still feel kinda bad. I'm not sure if I could look him in the eyes tomorrow, just after I left like this.
I sighed and started to walk in the direction of my home. I was exhausted from the day and I just want to go home to lie down in my bed and sleep. I really need to catch up this sleep from the last week.
***
As I opened the door to my room I sense that something was off. The door wasn't closed like normally, and on the ground of my room were traces of dirt. Someone clearly was in here, but who was it?
Maybe they put a camera in my room, but even if they did, I don't have anything to hide.
I threw myself on my bed and lay down to try closing my eyes.
It didn't work.
Maybe I should stop drinking so much coffee. Especially at evenings.
I don't think that I can sleep tonight. Everything that happened today… It's maybe a bit too much for me.
I closed my eyes once again, but as I realized it wouldn't work I stood up from my bed to go outside of my room, but as I wanted to open the door I see the guard outside, that wakes me up almost every morning.
"Good evening, Cora Jinsei."
He said with a straight face.
"You are coming with me. The lady wants to see you."
The lady is no other women than Doctor Murine or "the lady". She is the one who cared for my wounds when I came back from a session without regression.
I nod and walked along with the guard to the hospital. I don't really want to see her right now, but since I can't sleep anyway I'll just have to play along.
"Do you know what she wants from me?"
I asked, but he didn't reply. It was useless to try talking to a guard anyway. Most of them despise Coras.
As we arrived at the Hospital the guard made a gesture with his hand to tell me to walk in. Guards normally don't go in this hospital, because the lady treats most coras and most people equally. The guards don't like this system. That's why they refuse to have anything to do with her. Too bad for them that she is close to the professor.
I walked inside and looked at all the people with injuries or psychological problems. She is also a mental doctor, but I don't really have to do anything with psychologists. I only need her healing skills. She is the only Cora who has ever made a Doctor title as well.
As she sees me she immediately approaches me and comes over.
"Hey Jinsei long time no see right? Haven't seen you in almost a month now?"
She looks me up and down, as if she judges me.
"You get more handsome every day, am I right little one?"
She laughs and pinches my cheek.
Urgh…
I pull her hand slowly away.
"Why are you calling me at this time?"
Now her facial expression starts to go from silly and funny to rather serious.
"Because I have a patient who called out your name in her sleep. She has been unconscious for the time she has been here in the hospital. It could be that she won't make it, that's why I wanted to at least try to find out what happened to her. Could be that you don't know her. I mean a lot of people know your name, but maybe you could say hello. Maybe she is a fan of yours or something."
I sigh. Another annoying task, but I know I'll do it anyway.
"Where is she?"
She said I should just follow her upstairs and as we entered a room with only one bed inside I couldn't believe what my eyes saw. A person lying there in a bed, completely covered in wounds and everything is covered in blood. But that wasn't the only thing that shocked me. As I saw her face I was even more shocked.
This girl… Is the little girl that came crying to me at night and the same girl that works as a spy for the professor.
It's the little girl named Ria…