"Why do you despise me?"
I ask and he looks at me like I just said something that doesn't make sense, because it's the most obvious thing ever.
"Hm. I don't like people like you. You are so-"
He looks at me again. It feels like he is judging me with his gaze.
"I am what?"
I ask because he didn't finish his sentence.
"It feels like you don't know yourself. Or what you want. You look like you act that you don't care about anything. You just feel... Fake?"
I am surprised to hear that, to be honest. No one ever said I am "fake". I think he is mistaking things, because I clearly know what I want.
And that's definitely not to be here right now.
"What if I tell you that you're wrong? I'm not fake."
I say offended.
"You're annoying. Can you go now? I don't want you to visit me everyday. Can't someone else come? How about a pretty girl?"
I look at him confused. Why would he want a girl to come? Oh wait does he mean he wants to meet a girl to get in a relationship? I don't think I got it.
"I am the only one that can bring you food. I already told you that. They are scared of you."
He sighs in disappointment.
"Am I going to be stuck with you all my life then? That's no fun at all."
I sigh now as well. He is the one who is annoying, not me.
"You are literally chained in a lab and you say it could be fun with a girl? I think in every way it would be no fun at all."
"Don't you have a girlfriend? You must know how fun it is to love someone, or to be loved."
He says. Why is he asking that now? Having a relationship with me could never work out for a girl. I don't think that there is really someone who could love me. Love is also possible between friends, or family. Romantic love is always a desire for the other person. I've never been in love, but that's what the old lady from next door told me, when she said she loves her husband.
"I don't need something like a girlfriend. I've never been in love and I will never be. Also, a girlfriend would just get in the way of my work."
He looks at me in a- I can't really tell what he is thinking, but he looks either surprised or shocked. Probably both.
"That explains a lot."
He says.
"Excuse me?"
"Oh nothing-"
He says and stands up again. It irritates me that he always switches from standing, to walking through the room, to sitting again.
"You are weird."
I say. I am not lying, he really is weird.
I really just want to go, but I feel like there is information missing. Maybe I'll just ask a casual question like:
"Is your hair natural white?"
I ask.
He looks at me while walking through the room. It is a bit intimidating to see his dark grey eyes staring at me from the dark, while he walks through the room.
"It is actually."
He plucks his hair a bit.
"I don't like it. Back then when we didn't know that I am a 0, people used to laugh at me for my white hair. You must know, that every other person in my village had black hair. You would have looked great in there."
"People laughed at you for your hair color?"
People used to make fun of me as well, but not for the color of my hair. Maybe it was because my daily routine was going to the laboratory. I'm glad that no one knows what I had to go through. Tomorrow is the first lab day after the deal.
"When I tried to dye it it would never work. Maybe my hair is too thin for dye or something."
"Why are you still here when you can travel through time?"
I ask all of a sudden. That sure surprised him, because now he stops walking.
He doesn't answer for a few minutes, but then he sits down again and talks.
"Why would I tell you? Maybe I have my reasons. Or maybe there are special conditions."
He says.
"Will you tell me if I answer a question from you?"
He looks up at me.
"What do you like?"
I was a little surprised by this question, because it's not easy to answer. What do I like? I do know a Lot of things that I dislike, but things I like?
"I like being here. The time I am here in this cell- I mean in your room, is the time where I don't have to worry about all the things outside. Like the experiments, or the professor. I still dislike you, but being here is better than being outside. I also like coffee. I am not tired if I drink it and it tastes decent."
He looks at me surprised. What does he want now? I really do like coffee.
"Experiments?"
Thats the only thing he says? I just said that I like coffee. I really had to think about that for a while. Probably one of the very few things I really like.
"Yea the experiments? The torture? The cutting in the skin? Don't they do that to you?"
Now he looks almost shocked.
"No? Is that normal? Is everyone a victim to that?"
As I nod he walks to me and grabs my shoulders to shake me.
"Then what are you still doing here? Go and run away, Jinsei! Are you seriously letting yourself go through this shit? Can't you just say no? You are immortal! You-"
As I brush his hands off my shoulders he stops talking.
"You don't understand that, Shin. It's not as easy as you think. If I suffer a bit on a few days in a week, the others won't. I am here, so that the professor has me as his little experiment and that he will let the others in peace. I can bear the pain. I am immortal, right? I won't die, but they could."
I say and look at him.
"I see... That's it, ritght? I thought you don't care about anything, but in reality you do, right? You care about them. You care about the coras."
He says while stepping back.
"You are worse than I imagined."
I shake my head to deny what he said.
"I don't care about them. I just don't want them to suffer for me. That's a difference."
"It's not."
He response.
"There is no difference."
He says. His hair covers his eyes. I can't see what he makes for an expression, but he sounds mad.
Why would he be mad? He doesn't have to care about it.
"Why do you act like you are mad at me? You're the one who has the strongest abilities of all and still doesn't run away."
I say while trying to see his expression.
"I hope you will suffer for an eternity, Jinsei."