"Oh my… Why didn't I instantly kill that boy when he entered the castle…? What has gotten into me?" I even gave him my precious necklace so I can know his position at every moment of his life… and even know what he's feeling…
My… my… I don't know what to think.
That was the first time I showed kindness to a human in 2000 years after Mark died. What happened to me…? What is this strange warmth in… in my cold heart…?
He even gave me a hug...
He touched my skin...
He sat down close to me...
I allowed him to...
I felt... strange.
I didn't kill him... I didn't try to suck his blood...
I was... gentle, human.
I dropped a tear from my eyes without even noticing.
"W-what is this…? T-Tears? Oh… Right… I even forgot how to cry… I faked my tears so many times that I forgot what it feels like to cry…" I said to myself while looking down with a sad smile.
Impossible.
"That Alex… he was… so delicious… but… a strange force from deep down in my heart stopped me from hurting him… I told him almost all of my story… I can't… I can't… humans are prey… humans are-"
My voice got interrupted by a strange flashback.
I saw Mark.
I saw him smiling at me while saying "I'm back".
I felt shivers down my spine. Mark… Mark… Mark… I… I'm so sorry…
I remember seeing him dying in front of me, his blood running out of his body, his flesh burning in the most horrible fire…
I saw his lifeless body falling to the floor.
I saw his broken body lying on the ground.
I saw his eyes… they were empty, there was no light in them.
"I couldn't help you… I'm so sorry… Mark…"
I then started desperately crying uncontrollably.
All my feelings towards Mark returned like a boomerang after 2000 years.
I then remembered Alex's face.
"Mark… Are you really back for me…? Please… tell me yes…"I said, sobbing and falling to the floor on my knees.
I then got up and went upstairs, where all of Mark's paintings and memories were stored.
I promised myself not to look in that room anymore… but for some strange reason, I felt like I had to go.
I still have all the gifts he gave me… he was so special…
I walked trough the corridors and i finally entered the "forbidden" room.
Everything was still perfectly ordered just like 2000 years ago.
All of Mark's paintings were still on the walls. A lot of portraits of me in various styles…
Everything felt so… sad and nostalgic.
He wasn't here.
I looked around the room searching for him with tears in my eyes.
I still had Mark 's clothes and scarfs.
He… probably knew he would've died.
I was too foolish.
I should have made him a vampire when I had the chance.
We could have ruled over the world and… stayed together forever…
I should have done it before he died.
If only I could have known that he would've died…
I should have told him how much I loved him…
I should have told him how happy he made me…
Why did I wait until it was too late?
It's so funny to hear… I am immortal but he was not.
I always thought "I can protect him whenever he needs" Hah!
I was so stupid…
I cried for days, weeks, months, and years.
I felt like my heart was going to explode every single day.
I was so lonely…
I was so depressed…
I was so sad…
That's why I threw away my humanity.
Immortality and vampiric powers don't give you the value of the time you spend with someone.
Deep down… I also know that Mark would have tried to make me human again instead of becoming a vampire just like me…
"I… am even allowed to love someone…?" I asked myself, while laying down on the cold floor.
That night, I slept on the ground, covering myself with Mark's scarfs.
I didn't care about anything.
I cried until the dawn came.
I felt like a little piece of humanity returned to me.
"Hah… Mark… Alex…" I said while trying to close my eyes.
I couldn't help but cry, alone. I wish that he could have given me a hug…
I needed warmth.
But… his warm… I wished that Mark would have been here.
I wished that I could hold him tight and never let him go.
I wished that he would have kissed me.
I wished that he would have said those sweet words.
Wishes… wishes… nothing more than wishes…
My tears managed to stop, and I closed my eyes. The first peaceful sleep in 2000 years. "Alex… I'll see you again… soon…" I whispered.