Sadness?
Isolation?
Neglect?
Many believe they've encountered every possible hardship and negative emotion, convinced that they've experienced the
depths of despair.
Yet, if they were to endure what I have, their fortitude would crumble within a mere second.
My name is Akari Kaen and my life has been nothing but neglect, Isolation, and sadness.
Growing up, I was forgotten by those who should have cared about and loved me. Instead, my parents lost under the charm of my twin sister, neglected me while putting all their dedication and focus into my twin sister.
They bought my sister everything she could ever ask for and wanted. It was safe to say that she was spoiled the moment she was born.
While I, a mere afterthought, a background character in the script of my twin sister's life. I had no friends I was marked as unapproachable by those those around me.
None wanted to be friends with me.
This was not helped by the way how my parents treated me; They often said "Why aren't you as good as your twin", "Why can't you go out and make friends like your twin", "Why are you always inside", and "Why are you not as smart as your sister"...
My Twin sister also took notice of our parents' favoritism and due to this she took pleasure in mocking me a lot throughout the years I've lived with her. I couldn't say anything to my parents because they refused to believe in what I said. I was depressed and saddened by my luck and the unfortunate situation I was in.
I started to hate my parents and my Twin sister for what they'd done to me. but I still wish for the approval of my parents so I can prove to them that I can compare and maybe even surpass my sister.
So, I took it upon myself to improve academically, determined to outshine my twin sister. My motivation wasn't just about proving a point; it was my way of breaking free from the shadows that clung to me.
The more they cast me aside, the more the determination within me burned. Each overlooked moment fueled my motivation and put Everything into my academic pursuits.
But then, one day, everything changed. It was an ordinary morning, the sun casting long shadows across a room...
Entering the room you can see a pair of brown eyes flutter open it was Akari Kaen and she was just waking up.
Akari lazily started to move around in her bed struggling to find the energy to get up and go to school regretting staying up so late last night.
Akari then curiously checked the clock to see the time.
Akari hastily jumped out of bed, all the tiredness leaving her eyes 'Damnit, how could I have overslept today of all days'. Akari thought in a panic.
'I have a major test that I can't afford to be late for today!' Akari Kaen thought as she quickly threw on some clothes and packed all her school supplies into her bag for school.
She then quickly headed downstairs to make breakfast which was avocado toast before rapping it and putting it into her bag.
After a few minutes, she started to head to the front door, checking herself so she didn't forget anything before leaving for school. She then looked at the time once again 'Pew I managed to get ready in 20 minutes' Smuggly thought Akari.
but then Akari also thought regretfully,: 'I didn't even have time to take a shower today. How am I going to make friends while being unclean? Oh well, it can't be helped; I have to make it to school before the test starts.'
Akari quickly glanced at the time one last time: 'Okay good it's 8:40, I still have some time to make it to school before it reaches 9.'
Akari's disheveled form could be seen running outside the house, while not forgetting to lock the door behind her.
She had all right gotten in trouble once before with her parents for forgetting to lock the door when she left the house in a hurry.
In the bustling streets, She darted through the crowded sidewalks, As Akari's mind raced with thoughts of the upcoming test: 'I shouldn't have stayed up all night for some last-minute studying.'
Akari frowns as she thinks: 'Well the test isn't a challenge but it all mostly comes down to memory... Well, there's no point thinking about the now I got to make sure I get to school on time.'
Akari then quickly approaches a busy intersection, not taking note of the blaring horns and the hustle of the city around her. Only focused on reaching school, she stepped off the curb without a second thought.
As she made her way through the crosswalk. Unknown to her a large truck came barreling down the street it seemed to be unable to slow does as all it could do was hounk its loud horn in hopes of not hitting anyone in the way.
HONNNK! Akari's heart pounded, she just noticed the massive truck that was speeding right towards her, she quickly turned her head towards the truck. But it was long too late as she couldn't get out of the way no matter what she tried. She was frozen in fear Time seemed to slow down, and the world around her blurred into a chaotic mess.
BAAANNNGGG!!!
Aloud noise can he heard as the big truck slammbed into throwing Akari a few meters away.
A few moments later, Akari opened her eyes, feeling dazed and confused. 'What's going on? everything's so blurry' Akari thought unable to focus properly due to the ring sound in her ears.
Akari urgently attempted to move her arm to get up, but a chilling realization gripped her: 'I can't move my arms. No, I can't feel the rest of my body either.'
Suddenly the events that happened a few moments ago flashed into her mind.
Akari panicked and quickly thought: 'Am I going to die here, After all I've done to seek the approval of my parents? I've worked my whole life trying to get someone to notice and get the approval from.'
Akari then thought: 'This isn't fair, I worked so hard but all of my hard work has amounted to nothing, why how come the more I try the more things seem to get worse for me...'
In the midst of Akari's contemplations, a profound tiredness enveloped her; it was as though every ounce of energy within her was swiftly draining away.
With a glance, Akari suddenly became aware of the crimson pool of blood surrounding her.
Instead of panicking more, Akari started to feel Acceptance of her grim reality began to settle in, and with a heavy heart, Akari knew that her death was inevitable and there was no changing that.
As her eyelids grew increasingly burdensome, she found solace in a fleeting thought, 'Perhaps in my next life, if such a thing really exists, I will hope to gain better luck...'
And so, in that haunting moment, the flame of Akari Kaen's life flickered out, leaving only echoes of her final musings.