I was still standing in the same spot that I had been standing for more then fifteen minutes now, the same spot that I've been standing since I walked Into the house and the same spot I've been standing since Lycan and his mother proceeded into walking further into the living room.
I was hearing shouts, not so high, just small yells and then it would be quiet before one of them decides to raise their voice again and shout their opinion, what exactly about me were they discussing about, I didn't really need to guess, I think I already knew, the fact that I was a whore...
I felt it in my chest, the feeling of pain and something more silent and deep than hurt, I felt it crawl up and down my spine before disappearing through my toes.
What did I always do in times like this .. run, I always ran. I turned around and for the first time in about twenty minutes I shifted from that spot and I moved slowly towards the door... If I left now, all the pain would subside and I would have to think of a place to crash before I gather myself together, but there was a possibility that Lycan would find me, there was a possibility that just like this morning he would trace me and find me and I didn't know how he would do it but he had done it before, maybe I was just giving myself an excuse to stay, somehow I felt that I was connected to him.
I couldn't leave, I looked at the door, I was only a few feets away and I didn't find the strength to just move my feet and run for the door.
"Mum..." I heard and I turned around to see Lycan's mum walking towards my direction with a very cold look on her face, it scared me so much that I almost lost my legs.
The way she scanned me, the way her eyes weighed me.
"If you know what's best for my son, then leave him." She said but she wasn't demanding it or asking in an angry manner, she was pleading.
And she was waiting for an answer from me.
I shook my head knowing that I was promising her but wondering how strong the promise would be, I felt connected to her son, yes I had a one night stand with him even when I didn't know his name, but I feel it was fate's cold hand that was tugging at me yesterday evening, telling me that I had no other choice that to have sex with that hot stranger than turned out to be one of the wealthiest men in the States.... I realized that I had been staring at Lycan's mother but I had been lost in thought so I wasn't seeing her there and she was waiting patiently for me, I started to ask myself why until I realized and I remembered that she had asked me a question and I needed to answer it.
"Okay ma'am, I'll leave your son." I said followed by a nod just to show how much I meant it even though I didn't really want it, this was a mother and her son and she loved her son, who am I, Kaya the whore that had no place to call a home.
"Kaya, tell me why you just promised my mum that you would leave me." Lycan asked me.
Lycan was standing behind His mother and me and I didn't know it, I had placed all My attention on his mother so I wouldn't fall back to thoughts again and have her think that I was a daft girl, I turned to look at him, he was standing not too far away from us, just about twenty steps away.
I didn't know he was listening.
I didn't know why I felt that what we have is important, I barely even kmew him, I only read about him on gossip magazines... Most sought after bachelor... The only thing he tells me about is mate mate mate, and I don't even understand what he means by mate.
We were nothing.
"I'll take your word for it, you had already promised me Kaya, you can't take it back. " His mother said with a more colder tone and now I felt that I had been played by her Into promising to leave her Son and now there was no way to take it back.
I turned back to look at Lycan. There was disappointed in his eyes and the way he looked at me, I could tell that there was no way he was happy about me meeting his mother today, so I began to question why I was here in the first place, here with them, between a mother and a child.
"I'll leave Lycan, sorry for whatever I cost you Mrs Rollins. " I said and I started to walk towards the door and as soon as my hand felt the door knob, I felt Lycan drag me away from the door and pressed me onto himself.
Some seconds ago he was twenty steps away, how come he reached me in two steps, did he walk in light speed or did I walk in slow motion.
From this close range that we were, I could see the green of his eyes, they were like plants in my mother's garden back at my old house.
I couldn't help but smile and then he smiled too, maybe I didn't have to say an apology to him again, that simple act had spoken for the both of us.
We both turned around when we heard the slam of the door, his mother had left.
"Why does she hate me so much?." I asked Lycan stepping away from him.
"Trust me, it's not about you..." He said and instantly I knew that he wouldn't tell me the truth.
There was a private and guarded air around him, I could feel it.
"Come on, you can trust me." I said to him and he moved away from me as if I was a bitter pill.