Chapter 72.
The supermarket was bustling and noisy, and the music playing was very lyrical, sung by a woman with a very good voice.
But Shen Zhaozhao couldn't be distracted from paying attention to these daily chores at this moment. She sat quietly on the chair, with Mi Le next to her, and Shen Zhaozhao was silent.
Mi Le looked at her sideways and asked with concern: "Are you okay?"
Shen Zhaozhao tugged at the corners of her lips in frustration, shook her head to her friend Mi Le, and said, "I'm fine, I'm just a little tired."
Mi Le hasn't noticed anything wrong with Shen Zhaozhao yet. Her attitude remains unchanged as usual.
Shen Zhaozhao shrank her shoulders unnaturally, trying to avoid Mi Le's embrace. Shen Zhaozhao said awkwardly: "Mi Le, can you sit back a little bit? You are too close to me. I am not used to it."
Mi Le was a little angry, and the smile on her face was a little less enthusiastic. She hadn't seen Shen Zhaozhao for several months. Shen Zhaozhao didn't reply to her WeChat messages, and her phone number was still empty. This was obvious blocking her, but Mi Le also felt that Shen Zhaozhao was meek and cowardly. Others could do things to block her, but Shen Zhaozhao couldn't. Besides, the relationship between the two of them was really good, so Mi Le was very worried about Shen Zhaozhao. Zhaozhao, who wanted to contact her parents, had trouble again because Mi Le didn't have their contact information at all.
If she hadn't come to the supermarket for shopping today, Mi Le would probably still be worried about Shen Zhaozhao.
Mi Le was overjoyed to see her friend again after many days. She could finally breathe a sigh of relief. Fortunately, Shen Zhaozhao was fine.
But Shen Zhaozhao acted extremely strange and distant, as if she didn't know her. Mi Le didn't think much about it at first, thinking that it was normal for the shy Shen Zhaozhao to behave like this. After all, they hadn't seen each other for a long time.
After Mi Le heard Shen Zhaozhao's words, she seemed to know Shen Zhaozhao again.
Shen Zhaozhao, who never knew how to refuse people, boldly put forward her own ideas today.
Mi Le was angry, but also felt that Shen Zhaozhao had changed a lot.
When Mi Le saw her pushing her away, the atmosphere between the two suddenly turned cold.
Shen Zhaozhao saw Mi Le's gloomy eyes, and she quickly explained: "Mi Le, I had a car accident before and lost part of my memory. When I first met you, I couldn't recognize you or remember your name, I'm sorry, I forgot about you."
She managed to raise her spirits and smiled. The sour emotions rushed over her face, making her at a loss. Because of Mi Le's appearance, Shen Zhaozhao had to face this reality.
It's not that she lost part of her memory, there should be something wrong with all of her memories.
She remembered that her parents had passed away many years ago, but the reality was that her parents were still alive. Shen Zhaozhao thought of the farce that happened in the hospital. Those two people were not liars, but her parents.
So... what about Tangli?
Is the Tangli in my memory exactly the same as the reality?
Shen Zhaozhao was eager to get an answer from Mi Le, with tears in her eyes. She didn't give Mi Le time to react. After telling her about her amnesia, she asked her another question, saying: "Mi Le, I think we have a good relationship. My friend, then you will know that I am going on a blind date, and you will also know other things about me. Then do you know a woman named Tangli? She is my girlfriend."
Mi Le said "Ah" in confusion, touched Shen Zhaozhao's forehead with her hand, and said anxiously: "Zhaozhao, don't scare me, why didn't you notify me when you had a car accident? This made me so miserable, I've been worried about you for more than two months. It's okay if you forget me. Anyway, we can continue to be friends in the future. But I really don't know the Tangli you are talking about. You and I were high school classmates, even if we passed the exam differently Our friendship didn't end even though we were in college. I've never heard of it that you once had a girlfriend named Tangli."
Mi Le was bombarded by Shen Zhaozhao's questions one after another. She was confused. She seemed to understand, but she didn't seem to understand anything. Anyway, she was not very calm now. She felt that she had missed a lot of things in the world.
She was still thinking about who Tangli was, and when Shen Zhaozhao liked women and fell in love.
But when he saw Shen Zhaozhao's eyes moist, Mi Le seemed to be infected by her pain, and couldn't help but feel a sore nose.
Mi Le blinked wildly, trying to suppress her tears and said, "Zhao Zhao, you made me cry."
Shen Zhaozhao covered her face with her hands, her back trembling. She choked and said, "It's wrong... everything is wrong."
It's all fake, these are all fake!
She is not Tang Li's girlfriend at all, and Tang Li has nothing to do with her. That's why Tangli's friends don't know her, so they need to introduce themselves to get to know each other.
No wonder Zhang Pingfan asked her why she didn't answer the phone on the blind date. At that time, she thought he was lying and wanted to sow discord, but now that she thought about it, everything he said was true.
On the day of my blind date with him, I got into a car accident.
Shen Zhaozhao bit her lips tightly, and the tears falling on her palms were like a heavy hammer, making Shen Zhaozhao wake up to feel the grief.
"Zhao Zhao?"
Tangli had already finished paying the bill, and the soft smile on her lips disappeared when she saw Shen Zhaozhao's strange behavior. She half-squatted, voiced soft, put her hands on Shen Zhaozhao's knees, and asked worriedly.
Shen Zhaozhao slowly raised her head, her eyes dim with tears. Now she really wanted to squeeze out a smile and tell Tang Li that she was safe and sound, but Shen Zhaozhao couldn't calm down and she was about to collapse.
Why is it fake?
Why memory always deceives her.
Shen Zhaozhao rushed towards Tangli. The scene of the beauty crying caused the eyes of others to linger. Tangli put her arms around her waist and said, "Why is Zhaozhao crying?"
Shen Zhaozhao's eyelashes were tired because they were covered with crystal tears. She avoided the important and chose the easy and did not choose to confess everything to Tangli at this moment.
She had a sad look on her face. Knowing that Tang Li couldn't see her, she tried hard to keep her voice from making mistakes and said, "Oh, it's okay. I just saw a very touching story while scrolling through the video, and I couldn't help but cry."
Tangli's face finally relaxed, and her anxious eyes became gentle and caring. She teased, "So that's it, you almost scared me."
Shen Zhaozhao left Tangli's arms, wiped her tears with her hands, and said coquettishly: "Tangli, I want to eat candied haws. I think they are sold there. Go and buy one for me."
Tang Li straightened up, rubbed Shen Zhaozhao's hair, warned her, and said, "Okay, watch the shopping cart, don't cry."
Shen Zhaozhao glared at her energetically and said reproachfully: "Tangli, if you call me a crybaby again, I'll get angry!"
Tangli smiled, bent down and hugged her again, then went to buy the snacks Shen Zhaozhao wanted to eat.
With the sweet and sour candied haws, it should be possible to distract the crybaby Shen Zhaozhao, so as not to make her eyes red from crying and make herself feel sorry for her.
The actions of the two of them made Mi Le stunned.
Since Tang Li came to see Shen Zhaozhao, Mi Le had no chance to speak. In fact, she couldn't get along with them at all.
Now Mi Le finally had a chance to speak, pointing at Tang Li's back, and said in shock: "That person is the Tang Li you mentioned?"
Shen Zhaozhao nodded and said at the same time: "Are there any photos in my previous WeChat Moments?"
Mi Le took out her mobile phone to find Shen Zhaozhao's account number and asked her to take a look at it.
Shen Zhaozhao's circle of friends is extremely clean, and she rarely posts anything.
Mi Le explained: "You told me before that your life is dull and boring, and there is nothing worthy of posting on Moments. But you can look at the pictures in the chat history between the two of us. I have not deleted them. Maybe you can think of something."
Mi Le is still in a state of shock. Her friend Shen Zhaozhao disappeared for a period of time not because she married into a wealthy family and disowned her as a friend, but because she lost her memory in a car accident. During the period of amnesia, she also had a strange love affair.
She is in love with a woman. It seems that the relationship between the two of them is still very good now.
Shen Zhaozhao looked at the pictures one after another, and her temples began to swell and hurt, as if something was about to break through the ground and sprout. Shen Zhaozhao subconsciously wanted to stop its growth, because her subconscious was telling Shen Zhaozhao that the memories of that period is anything but perfect and happy.
She returned the phone to Mi Le and did not continue watching.
Her face was as white as paper, without any color, except for her bright red lips.
Mi Le murmured unconsciously: "Why do I think you are more beautiful than before? It's like you have got rid of the heavy burden on your shoulders, your whole person is much brighter, Zhaozhao, you know, I was really shocked when you refused to approach me. I used to always tell you to say no to your parents and not to obey them in everything. It is because of your parents that you have a submissive character. I've known you for so many years, and I've never seen you act coquettishly towards anyone. The way you got along with that woman named Tangli just now, I couldn't believe it was you."
She shouldn't have said these words when Shen Zhaozhao was in despair, but Mi Le was really too surprised and unbelievable. So much so that Mi Le expressed these emotions at an inappropriate time.
Shen Zhaozhao couldn't help but smile bitterly and said: "I suddenly feel that amnesia is a good thing."
Mi Le looked at her wordlessly, patted Shen Zhaozhao's hand reassuringly, and said after a while: "Zhaozhao, everything will be fine. It's like I never thought I would meet you today. It's the surprise of life. It's something we can't find. Maybe God thinks you're too tired, so he makes you forget the past."
"I'll add your current WeChat account. If you have anything to say or anything, you can tell me." Mi Le saw that Shen Zhaozhao had deliberately pushed away Tangli. She didn't know what Shen Zhaozhao's next plans would be, so she could only leave first. Don't disturb her and Tangli's life.
Shen Zhaozhao bent her eyes and said, "Thank you."
Mi Le put away the phone and stood up, smiled helplessly and said: "Thank you for nothing, we are friends. I'll leave first. If you have anything, be sure to contact me. Don't be alone. Friends are friends. I'm here to help you share your worries."
Shen Zhaozhao felt warm in her heart and smiled with tears.
After Mi Le left, Shen Zhaozhao had been in a daze.
She was holding glasses in her hand and frowning, as if she had an inextricable sadness.
After more than ten minutes passed, Tangli finally came back.
Tang Li not only bought candied haws, but also freshly fried chestnuts. She sat down next to Shen Zhaozhao, held her right hand, and said, "Just wait."
Shen Zhaozhao's fingers gradually closed together, and finally they clenched tightly with hers.
She listened to Tangli's words and tilted her head to rest on her shoulder.
Shen Zhaozhao was worried, and the endless crowd in front of her made her feel more melancholy and lost. She said: "Xiao Li."
"Um?"
Shen Zhaozhao suddenly smiled, kissed Tang Li on the cheek, and soon left. Her eyes were bright, like the brightest stars in the sky. She smiled with crescent moon eyes and said, "I like you the most."
Tang Li raised the corners of her lips slightly and hugged her with her arm, making Shen Zhaozhao more comfortable leaning on her shoulder.
When Shen Zhaozhao saw her smile, a piece of her heart was inexplicably missing.
She knew that all of this was forced upon her.
Although she has no memory of the past, she roughly understand the truth from Mi Le's words.
She and Tangli were just strangers before the car accident.
That's all.
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Tangli held the shopping bag, opened the door and put her things down, then turned around to pick up the shopping bag from Shen Zhaozhao's hand. The rain outside was getting heavier and heavier, and Tangli's body was covered with some raindrops.
Shen Zhaozhao organized the things she bought and went back to her room to change into comfortable home clothes.
She picked up the apron and put it around her body to cook.
But Shen Zhaozhao, whose heart had never been quiet, was less skillful in cooking than usual, so her hand was cut open with a kitchen knife. This was something that did not surprise Shen Zhaozhao.
She opened the drawer to find a band-aid. Tangli, who was about to come over to help, saw Shen Zhaozhao's hand. Tangli took over from Shen Zhaozhao and helped her get a band-aid. She said distressedly: "Don't do it today, order takeout."
The woman's fragrance and her loving eyes moved Shen Zhaozhao's heart.
The pain on her fingertips could not attract Shen Zhaozhao's attention, because her whole body and mind were focused on the woman in front of her.
Tang Li bandaged her wound carefully, and then she put her hands through Shen Zhaozhao's waist, preparing to untie the knot on her apron.
The sound of her sudden breathing made Shen Zhaozhao have the illusion that she was holding her.
The two looked at each other, their feelings spreading quietly.
Tang Li pursed her lips, but this action was a fuse, igniting the uneasiness and fear in Shen Zhaozhao's heart.
Shen Zhaozhao leaned forward and kissed Tang Li. The two of them slowly closed their eyes, trying to block all signals from the outside world. They didn't want anyone to disturb this moment of intimacy, so they were immersed in this entanglement of lips.
Tonight's pork ribs soup was cooking on the fire. The hot atmosphere almost made Tangli lose all her sense. It wasn't until her lower back hit the edge of the cupboard that she suddenly woke up from her confusion.
"Zhao Zhao..."
Shen Zhaozhao's face was flushed, and her lips were shiny. She responded to Tangli sweetly. There was confusion in her eyes, as if she didn't understand why Tangli chose to stop.
"The pork ribs soup is still simmering."
Shen Zhaozhao's eyes widened, "Oh! My pork rib soup!"
She was worried that the pork rib soup would overflow, so she quickly turned to pay attention to the casserole on the fire.
Tang Li chuckled, smelling the aroma of delicious food, and said, "Zhaozhao's cooking skills are getting better and better."
Shen Zhaozhao felt that her heartbeat had not stopped today. It was racing up and down, which was more exciting than riding a roller coaster.
She muttered: "Let's just drink pork rib soup today and nothing else."
"Okay, I have no objection."
Suddenly, Shen Zhaozhao called Tangli's name. Tangli tilted her head and asked, "What's wrong?"
Shen Zhaozhao quickly lowered her eyes and said nonchalantly: "It's okay, wash your hands and start eating."
Tangli stared at her closely and asked tentatively: "Zhaozhao, are you worried?"
Shen Zhaozhao was a little moved by Tang Li's keenness and ability to detect her own abnormalities. But she didn't want to tell Tang Li what happened today, because she was afraid that the dream she had woven would come to an end if she said anything.
What's more important is that she can't figure out Tangli's thoughts.
If she likes her, why doesn't she agree to get back together with her?
But if she hates her, why does she care about her in every possible way?
What is she worried about? Is it related to amnesia, so she hesitates?
Then if she regains her memory, will Tangli truly accept her?
Shen Zhaozhao was caught in a dilemma. While she didn't want to break her dream, she also wanted to get rid of Tangli's hesitation that was related to her memory.
"Zhaozhao, wash your hands, what are you doing?"
"Go and wash now."
Shen Zhaozhao ran her fingertips through the cold water, trying to grab it but couldn't.
In the past, I didn't think about when I would regain my memory.
But if I can be with Tangli after recovering my memory, I hope I can remember the past soon.
A ray of light flashed across her eyes, and it disappeared fleetingly. At this moment, Shen Zhaozhao seemed to see the scene of the water slowing down, but it soon returned to normal. Shen Zhaozhao was stunned for a moment, feeling that it seemed a bit strange, and when she looked at it again, she found nothing changed.
"Did I just have an illusion?"
Shen Zhaozhao rubbed her eyes without thinking much, wiped her hands and took a seat.
Although it was not lively just the two of them, this feeling was what they wanted most.
Warm and happy, it is the taste of home.
The night was deep, and the sound of rain brought peace of mind. Shen Zhaozhao buried herself in the pillow and fell into a deep sleep.
She seldom dreams, but this night she had a dream that made her exhausted.
The dream was strange and bizarre, as if a ray of light shone into the fragments of her dream, refracting many silhouettes, causing them to condense together and quietly line up to enter Shen Zhaozhao's mind.
This dream would not cause her much pain, but it would be enough to make her weak.
When the alarm clock rang the next day, Shen Zhaozhao yawned and turned off the alarm reminder on her phone.
She touched the mobile phone. This unfamiliar yet familiar mobile phone made Shen Zhaozhao's mind go blank. After Shen Zhaozhao sorted out all her thoughts, she just wanted to stab herself.
I should kill myself.
Shen Zhaozhao curled up on the bed holding a pillow, rolling back and forth in a state of collapse.
A kind of confusing embarrassment made Shen Zhaozhao wish she could turn into a wisp of smoke and disappear in this world.
"Oh my God, I have lost my memory, but I have not lost my mind. Why can I do such a thing!"
Shen Zhaozhao imitated the tone of scolding Tang Li that day and said: "You scumbag!" As soon as she finished speaking, Shen Zhaozhao couldn't help but slapped her forehead and complained: "I'm such an idiot!"
Fortunately, I have recovered my memory today. When I heard Mi Le speak yesterday, I was only sad and felt that I was about to lose Tangli. But what about now? I can dig out a villa by myself!
If only I knew I could be so embarrassed after recovering my memory.
It's okay if this broken memory is not restored!
Shen Zhaozhao's long hair was messed up. She was lying on the bed and beating the quilt with her hands and legs. She groaned and crawled from the head of the bed to the end of the bed, and then rolled from the end of the bed to the head of the bed. In short, she wanted to escape from earth.
Suddenly, there was a knock on the door.
Shen Zhaozhao said subconsciously: "Come in."
The next second, Shen Zhaozhao covered her mouth in confusion and shook her head crazily.
Don't come in!
Unaware of her entanglement, Tangli opened the door directly and said, "Get up and have breakfast. I just went downstairs to buy it."
Shen Zhaozhao had a dumb look on her face, and her long, silky hair was lost in appearance. She was covering her mouth and staring at Tangli unblinkingly.
Tangli burst into laughter and leaned against the door frame. She teased, "Why do you feel so stupid today?"
Shen Zhaozhao lowered her head, wanting to cry but not having any tears. What to do, what to do, her heartbeat was so fast!
"Zhaozhao?" She ignored Tangli, which made Tangli feel left out.
Shen Zhaozhao immediately responded: "I'm here!"
Wow, her voice is nice too.
Tangli smiled and repeated, "It's time to eat."
"Okay..Okay."
The door was closed by her, and Tangli finally disappeared from Shen Zhaozhao's eyes.
Shen Zhaozhao knelt on the bed and stared at the ceiling aimlessly.
Everything in the past reappeared in Shen Zhaozhao's mind like a revolving lantern.
After getting along with each other these days, Shen Zhaozhao couldn't let go of Tangli at all. Yesterday, she thought that the recovery of her memory would allow Tangli to let go of her guard and be with her, but now she felt a little panic again. What if Tangli didn't want to?
Shen Zhaozhao let out a long sigh, walked out of the room with heavy steps, washed up and appeared at the dining table.
There are clouds outside the window. It can be seen that today is a bad weather.
"I have a day off today."
Shen Zhaozhao took a bite of the egg and didn't dare to raise her eyes to answer her.
Tang Li looked at her suspiciously, put down her chopsticks, and said in a deep voice: "Shen Zhaozhao, something hasn't been right with you since yesterday. What are you thinking about?"
Shen Zhaozhao blinked her eyes and said innocently: "I didn't think about anything, I just wasn't in a good mood."
"Is it?"
"Uh-huh!"
The way she nodded was cute and sweet, but Tangli always felt that she had missed something important.
"Let's sleep together tonight."
"What did you say?"
This time, Shen Zhaozhao did not give in. She raised her chin and said, "Objection is invalid."
We are all adults, I don't believe you can bear it.
It is impossible to escape. If you like someone, you must capture her from all aspects.
Tang Li was restless after breakfast. After finishing breakfast, she looked at the door many times, trying to find an excuse to leave.
But Shen Zhaozhao persisted today, holding her arm and humming softly: "We were in love before, why are you so afraid of sleeping together."
Anyway, Tang Li didn't expose it, so she would continue to act stupid.
Tang Li said sternly: "We are in a very simple relationship, without any desires."
"That's okay, you can have it starting from tonight."
Tangli pondered for a long time, glanced sideways at Shen Zhaozhao, and said, "Don't you regret it?"
Shen Zhaozhao smiled softly and relied on Tangli, "No."
She asked again, "You won't regret it if you regain your memory?"
"That past memory is not of much use to me." Shen Zhaozhao explained subconsciously, causing Tangli to look at her warily. Tangli asked, "What did you just say?"
Shen Zhaozhao pretended to be confused and said something else, "I say cherishing the people in front of you is more suitable for you and me than remembering the past."
Those past have brought layers of shackles to me. Losing them will only make me relaxed and happy. If I still maintain the same personality as before when I met Tangli, I am afraid I will not even dare to ask her name.
Why can't I ask?
Because I was timid at that time, it was difficult for me to say "no" loudly under the long-term pressure from my family.
When I lose my memory, it's like the sky is getting warmer, without the dark clouds covering me, the rainy days will disappear, and my original self will be ushered in.
There is nothing wrong with amnesia, it is like finding yourself.
Shen Zhaozhao knew what she wanted. The helpless but gentle woman next to her was her current pursuit. She would not be cowardly anymore, otherwise this amnesia would become meaningless.
She didn't tell Tang Li the truth for the time being because it was her bad taste. From what Tang Li said just now, Shen Zhaozhao understood that she was sticking to a belief, that is, she would not do anything to her who had lost her memory. In this case, let herself do it.
Another reason for not telling her the truth is because Shen Zhaozhao didn't dare to mention it or even think about it, for fear that she would be embarrassed and had nowhere to escape.
In this matter, as long as she escapes quickly enough, embarrassment will never catch up with her!
No matter what, we have to take down Tangli first, and then talk about these toes touching the ground.
Shen Zhaozhao couldn't help but shudder and forced herself not to think about it.
Tang Li has always had nothing to do with Shen Zhaozhao. In the final analysis, she just can't bear to reject her.
Tangli sighed and said helplessly: "Let's just agree to sleep."
Shen Zhaozhao smiled sweetly and said obediently: "Yeah! Okay."
We'll talk about it then.
The day soon came to night. Tangli went to take a bath first. When she returned to the room, she saw Shen Zhaozhao sitting on the bed playing with her mobile phone.
Shen Zhaozhao was very busy because she logged in to her old account and saw a lot of messages, most of which were from Mi Le.
She suddenly frowned, as if she had encountered something difficult.
Tangli sat over and asked, "What did you see again?"
Shen Zhaozhao was not used to lying, so she lowered her head as she explained and put the screen of her cell phone on the bedside table.
Tangli originally wanted to chat with her for a few words, but Shen Zhaozhao hugged her and kissed Tangli on the cheek. Tangli suddenly lay down on the bed, and Shen Zhaozhao also lay down.
Shen Zhaozhao pecked her lips gently and asked with hot eyes: "What to do?"
"...Ancestor, do you know what you are talking about?" Tangli covered her forehead with the back of her hand and looked back at Shen Zhaozhao with deep eyes.
"Of course I know."
Tang Li turned over and left her. She picked up the quilt and rolled up Shen Zhaozhao. She quickly turned off the light and said calmly: "Sleep."
Shen Zhaozhao looked at the dark room, gritted her teeth and said, "Tangli, you can't do this!"
Tang Li smiled and said, "The method of provoking generals is useless, Zhao Zhao."
Shen Zhaozhao was looking forward to the coming of night, but Tangli refused to eat. Shen Zhaozhao blew the hair scattered on her face and sneered: "Tangli, you forced me to do this."
If I had known she was so stubborn, I might as well have told her the truth directly.
But she is so enthusiastic, and she is as stable as a mountain. Could it be that she has no attraction for her at all?
Okay, this trick doesn't work, let's try another one.
"Be good, good night."
This night was quieter than Tangli expected, and having more people around didn't affect Tangli at all.
So when Tangli got up, she found that her side was empty.
She called several times, but got no response from Shen Zhaozhao.
She stood up and found the sticky note stuck to the bedside. Tangli frowned and tore it off.
[Tangli, I'm leaving. Thank you for taking care of me during this period. I have figured it out. I shouldn't pester you. I should break it off completely after we break up, so I won't come back again. ]
Tangli crumpled the post-it notes into a ball, her face gloomy.
Shen Zhaozhao, it seems that I am still too gentle.