Boss, i can't seem to get a hold of any good managers. The ones in the agency are currently handling multiple artists and actors and can't take in someone new at the moment.
Here is the print out of all the project the agency is handling currently as well as those that they've not considered yet.
I skimmed throught the papers Josh gave to me, but i Just couldn't concentrate fully. What if Tove decides to turn me down, how will i be able to make her stay?
Ian, i thought you weren't coming to the company today? And what is eating you up?
Asked Josh, taking out a bottle of whiskey from the minibar in my office and pouring two glasses. He gave me one and sat down opposite me with the other.
With a clink of our glasses we both downed the drink and he poured another round.
Most people don't know that other than being my PA and right hand man, Josh is also my bestfriend. When it's time to handle any work related business no matter how little he always maintain his professionalism and addresses me as boss. He only calls me by my name after working hours or when we are alone together and he needs to talk to me as a friend.
I wasn't expecting to be here as well but here i am; i said emptying the second glass.
Looking at me strangely he finished his own drink.
If it were to be someone else, i would have guessed girl toubles but with you that is unlikely.
Or is Daphne back?
Stop spewing nonsense; i told him.
Well what do you want me to say. You've been acting out of character all day. You've never been late to work before. And you certainly don't get distracted while in this building yet i could tell you've been absent minded since you walked into this building today.
I was about to tell him to fuck off when my phone rang.
It was an unregistered number, i became hopeful. Gathering my thought i picked up at the second ring.
Ian, tell me what to do, were the words that greeted my ears.
I took in a deep breath.
Good, now i have her within reach.
Wait for me i will come get you later in the day, say six in the evening.
If anything comes up or you have any question don't hesitate to let me know.
Okay and Ian thank you once again.
The pleasure is mine.
And who was that?
Will you stop being nosy already.
Are you telling me or not?
Well that's a new actress, well not new you can call her returning actress.
What on earth are you talking about?
And since when did you start handling actors and actresses personally?
Knowing Josh, he won't let me be until he knows what's going on.
Remember Tove Anderson the young teen sensation that Xavier found some years ago?
Of cause i remember her.
Vee, the one with the beautiful eyes, well beautiful everything.
What about her, wait is she not the one that sort of disappeared? We lost money because of her.
I found her last night on my way home.
What do you mean by you found her?
After i left you at the club yesterday, Sam and i met her at the car park. She literally fainted in front of me.
Why, what happened is she alright?
She is fine but she looks so different from the young girl you remembered, it took me over an hour to figure out who she is.
Is she like associated with the wrong crowd, or maybe hooked on something?
No, no she is fine she is not doing drugs or anything. She just look lost and broken.
So where is she now, and what do you plan to do about her?
Wait hold up, don't tell me she is the one living in the condo and you want her back in the agency.
Is there a problem with that
No not really Ian, but she left us hanging once. How sure are you she won't do it again. Plus i know you might be thinking that with her around Emerald can maybe go back to being at the top, but it has been years and no one has heard anything about her. We currently have new signings and i'm telling you this ones are good.
This girl owes the agency Ian. Besides it won't be easy for her now, things have changed. Things are not like it used to be back then, the industry will eat her alive.
That's why i'm looking for a good manager for her.
I can feel it in my gut that Tove is just that edge we need against DW.
You know i trust your judgement man. I still have my doubt but if you think this is the right call then i'm down with you.
I will be meeting her by six to finalise the details, are you coming?
I would have love to but Alicia called this morning that she will be coming today.
You two still seeing each other?
I can't call it seeing, it's just sex Ian.
You've been having just sex for years now, when do you think you will get over her and be serious with anyone?
When will you stop nagging me about this jeez.
Besides i'm not the only one still hung up on a woman, you are too. Daphne remember.
At least i've tried dating a few times, i'm not having random sex with different women.
Well Alicia is not random anymore.
Yet you two are not seeing each other?
She is a bed friend Ian, we expect nothing from each other. It's just for the pleasure.You my friend need a good fuck. When was the last time you had sex, like real sex?
And what does that have to do with what we are saying?
Well seeing as you are so uptight a good fuck will help loosen you up.
Never mind i will go myself, sometimes you are just so impossible.
After the call with Ian, i became hungry and went to the kitchen to look for something to eat. To my pleasant surprise the place is fully stocked.
I quickly made something light for myself.
I went to the room after eating to nap a little.
Lying on the bed i couldn't help but be lost in thought, not long after i started crying.
If only i have a mother to talk to.
The woman i call mom and who everyone thinks is my mom is not actually my mom. My mom died while giving birth to me and she was not my father's legally married wife.
My dad met her abroad when he went for a research program. They started dating with my mom not knowing that my dad already has a wife and three kids.
My mom was heavily pregnant when she found out and ended things with him. Unfortunately she died while giving birth to me. Back then my family where not living in country A, so i came back with the rest of the family as an infant.
My father already has three boys and i was the only girl so my step mom not having a girl decided to keep me.
Two years later she took in and gave birth to a girl and i was pushed to the side.
I did not lack in education or food. What i did lack is parental love, care and attention. Not that i ever complained.
My brothers favored their biological sister over me and my step mother favored her daughter over me as for my dad, well he made a mistake to begin with and i am a constant reminder of that.
If not for the fact that they've already introduced me as their daughter to the whole of country A, i would have long been thrown out; that's what my step mother told me when i went to visit them last year after which i was thrown out.
My mother's younger sister was the one who filled me in on what transpired between my mom and dad when i was fifteen after i found out that i have a different mother.
I was already questioning why my parents paid more attention to my siblings than myself. So when i even found out i have a different mother i was not all that surprised. It was then i decided to do what i love and pursue a career in entertainment.
Looking at it now, maybe that's why Dylan got away with what he did. That's why he fooled and used me.
I thought i found a place to finally call home with him.
I thought i finally had someone to call mine.
Too bad how it all ended up.
I'm just so unlucky and unfortunate.
Everything surrounding me is dull and gloomy.
There is no love in my life, maybe i'm undeserving of it. Everyone in my life has failed me.
Haaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaa before pointing at others i should first point at myself. For i failed myself first. This is all on me. I should have known better.
I don't know if going back to acting is the right decision.
Although i missed it terribly, i won't lie to myself.
Anyway at least i now have a home and wont't roam the street.
For this kindness and this second chance Ian has given to me, i will put my all into my career not just for him but for myself. I refuse to be use ever again.
As for Dylan i'm done crying over someone who saw me as a stepping stone.
Crazy how the love i once had for him has turned into disgust and fury and it hasn't even been 48hours. I guess deep down over the years i've always known he hasn't been keeping it real with me but since i love him i turned a blind eye.
I will sleep the old Vee away and when i wake up. I will wake up as a new person with a new chance at life.