Astrid couldn't believe what the heck did he just heard. All the arousal and pleasure left the atmosphere replaced by the shock and cold he detached himself from Jinx sitting with his legs crossed so as to avoid showing her the little mess down there, he looked at her "what do you mean I have to drink 'your blood '? Didn't you say we just have to like....do eachother?"
The last word was almost a whisper which any human nor elf would be able to hear yet she a wolf , the lord beast heard clearly as her grey fluffy ear's stood high on alert a cheeky grin plastered on that gorgeous gender neutral face. Ah! Too pretty! Too handsome! Astrid screamed mentally keeping the same serious expression.
Jinx "That's not true I was just teasing you although if you want we can also try it who knows if it might work?"
Astrid rolled his eyes *what does she think I came so late in night to do? Prayers? Or something?* , he was like a little rabbit in the Wolf's den practically delivering himself on silver platter yet the wolf was stupid enough to ask for permission, nevermind that's not important now. He stared at her carefully looking at the smile plastered across her face.
In these few weeks he has seen so much of her that he could recognise that smile was fake her lips were pulled in a little too big arc even showing her large cannies not the usual smirk she had always drawn as though she was lazy to smile wider or she was just someone who was cold enough that they have forgotten how to actually burst into a laugh.
"Jinx. Tell me honestly what is it about?"
As expected the smile on her face froze her shoulders going tense. "How did you know?" If she was asking how did he know she wasn't telling the truth then it was the most useless question after all since the day one she has been like an open book to him letting him read and see every page every emotion as if he was her safe place to express the soft , gentle side of her.
He shrugged "You are bad at lying that's all."
Jinx's mouth twitched at his sarcastic remark, really? A beast lord who built such big pack handled the politics around them wouldn't know how to lie? What a joke! Although she chose to not call Astrid out on that since her baby said so she would accept it.
She dropped her head like a guilty puppy making Astrid crease his brows in confusion "I can give you back your memories any time." Astrid was a bit surprised to hear that if that was the case why didn't she do it when he was little wouldn't that be setting foundation for her love path? But when he heard more he realised why it was so.
Jinx "Astrid.... although I understand you wanting to know about past is from a bit of a curious part as well because you truly feel like there is a part missing but I don't think you are ready to handle the pain.... after all past doesn't only hold memories of joy but also sorrow and i don't want to see you get hurt again by the things which have already happened."
Astrid has thought about it , he knew that life is not always sunshine and joy that there are rainy days the lonely wolf howling in his chest on those quite nights. But that doesn't mean he should not accept what had happened either way he had promised to not be swayed by past but instead accept it with open arms after all the past gives rise to present.
Astrid knew that the deep loneliness he has felt since childhood as though he wasn't quite where he belonged as if no one could actually understand how he looked from inside , how he was from inside his soul, but since he met Jinx that feeling seems to vanish as if they never existed as if they were illusion of a dream. He held her face in his small hands barely able to take her whole face in his hand he stared at her with a gentle yet determined gaze with a soft smile.
Astrid "Ignorance is not bliss it's simply being unaware of the truth and i don't want that."
In that moment Jinx was hit with de ja vu she looked dazed by his words and enchanting smile a geniune half looped smile creeped it's way across her face as she pulled Astrid into her embrace cradling him like a little pillow, Astrid allowed himself to crash into the muscular arms he liked how they wrapped around him in secure way , he nuzzled his face against the broad warm shoulder.
Jinx pressed her warm lips over his nape making him yelp a little as a strange squeak noise left those cherry lips , she held him firmly making it impossible for him to run away as she showered feather like kisses all over him making him giddy from all the ticklish caress, he couldn't control himself from letting out giddy small squeaks which in turn earned him a low growl and a little playful nip at his Addams Apple.
He flinched a little his fingers slipping in between the long silver hairs which were extremely soft and fluffy to touch he wondered if all the beast have such soft and fluffy hairs inherintly when he heard her speak again as she nuzzled her head against his neck breathing deeply in his scent.
Jinx "Astrid..." She called his name as if she was chanting some scared holy mantra.
Astrid "hmmm?"
Astrid hummed in response stroking those soft hairs which looked rediculously gorgeous glowing from the light of moon.
Jinx "Do you really want your memories back? Think clearly you will certainly suffer the pain of all those years of past."
Astrid chuckled wrapping his arms around her as he nuzzled his nose on her head "Yes. I do want them back." He said with cartain voice there was a determination as though with this accepting of past he would be accepting her as well although it's not only about accepting he also wants to know more about Jinx but knowing few things here and there he realised that Jinx probably had a rough life and there is no way she would share her pain with him she loves him too much to burden him with her baggage.
But he wants to take that burden, he wants to share the pain , he wants to become a part of her life just like she has become knowing his darkness and how imperfect he is yet still she loved him unconditionally with no empty promises only action.
He wants to be a part of her as well and to fully understand and be merge you will have to know all about a person often time the present is a reflection of how the past was she appeared so cold , distant away from the world as if she had no desire or attachment to anything let it be material things or any other living beings only in front of him she looked alive again the kindness, gentle, patient even the fear of him getting hurt the desparate forceful kiss the first time they met.
Jinx hugged him rubbing her face against his neck fleckering her ears as her tail swayed side by side in utter comfort, Astrid had heard from indis how soft Covy's ear's were suddenly when he saw those fluffy ear's in front of him he couldn't help reaching out to see if they really are as soft to touch , jinx froze when she felt a small palm touch her ears stroking them but she didn't complain after all ears of feline were one of the feel good spot ,
she enjoyed the soothing feeling of the little fingers rubbing circles over her fluffy ear's when suddenly the little finger screathed against the base of the ear making her let out a soft purr Astrid was startled when he heard the purring sound it was weird yet he did it again and again came a soft purr this time a little longer he laughed it was as if he was pushing some button of toys made by humans
Without realising he did it few more times the softness addicting to his hand and the small cat like sound further making him too lost too realise that what he was doing was proactive to the beastkin species it wasn't until the fourt attempt did his both wrist were caught and pinned to the bed his world view shifting as those dark golden eyes burning with desire stared at his soul taking his breath away.
She bent down and kissed him almost rudely like an animal she pried opened his pink lips sucking his tongue making the little squeaks and whimpers drawn in his throat, his head spun as his blood rushed over head , cheeks flushed with intense desire.
It felt too good! His virgin ass couldn't think at all as the warm and buzzing filled him inside , the sensation of someone else touching him couldn't be compared to when he used to touch himself in secret with eyes closed shut embarrassed of his own body needs.
He couldn't help but cry out in pain when those heavy cannies gnawed at his already bruised mouth as though apologising she licked over the little bruise guiltily he give her a little peck assuring that he was ok besides what could such small wound do? He could heal it in less than a second although that he didn't want to do right now!
She kissed his chin nibbling slightly. The warm mouth and tongue making their way down to his throat and the exposed collar bone which generally in elf due to their flexible bone structure was more prominent. She bit and sucked at it making him squirm as sweet grunts escaped his throat.
Suddenly a heavy weight was pushed on him as Jinx lowered her body fully over him. their bottom half rubbed against eachothers even over the clothes he could feel that it was probably much big than his , he freaking blushed from embarrassment do all Alpha are usually like this or its only her? But that thought soon vanished as he felt heat surge from his lower half when Jinx rubbed their bottom against eachothers.
"Jinx!..Ahh..Mmm"
He moaned as she thirsted in an upward motion it felt too good that with just few thirst he had came making him feel ashamed but good thing that Jinx also finished with a groan panting besides his ear which tickled in a good way.
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"Many have loved the stars for they shine bright but I have eyes only for the one which gives them chance to shine the night sky."
I feel like I took revange on all those shitty op ml stories by writing this chapter 😂 literally those shitty pervert man writing more shitty mc and selling their stories off the se@xy and unrealistic/abnormal female leads! When masterpiece like ORV (omnicent reader's view point) exist! I think they should just go f@ck off! Y'all! Femals don't behave like that in real life! They are human being with feelings! SURPRISED 🙀 NOW ARE WE!?