They all returned back to the pack castle it. The place was so big it would not be an exaggeration to call Jinx an empress instead! The castle and the land her pack occupies simply as big as a human City! Astrid wondered how much time would it have took for her to build this? Astrid absentmindedly took few bites Jinx who was observing him from the side saw this and asked with concern in her eyes "Astrid is the food not to your liking?"
A very gentle and soft tone drew his attention for a second he couldn't understand what she said "um?...ohh no! The food is amazing! It's just I was thinking something."
Jinx "what is it?"
Astrid "How long did it take to build this pack?"
There seems to be something unrecognisable in her eyes maybe she was taken aback by the sudden subject or maybe he poked at something wrong but the next second she fixed her gaze giving a gentle lope sided smile "It took only few years, i started it when I was only 16 years old."
Astrid "...."
F@cking hell!? One year younger than me!? (ʘᗩʘ')
Astrid "Not gonna lie I feel envious! Your pack is so big!"
Jinx stared at his face making him think that he said something offending although it was just him praising her instead Or at least that's what he thought!
Jinx "Our pack. Astrid the only reason this pack exists is because of you."
Her heated gaze made his cheeks flush he looked down and started fidgeting with the poor food on his plate mashing the already mashed potatoes making them look pitiful "umm...well.. thanks... right I want to talk about something with you after dinner." Wtf? ヽ((◎д◎))ゝ why did I say thank you..? Now this is more awkward 🙂
Luckily the later part of his sentence occupied her attention, her brows creased in faint worry or maybe anxiety it looked like she wanted to ask what he wanted to say but she chose to wait giving a simple reply "As you wish."
Since the food for Astrid's mother was sent to her mother and the beckering pair of rival slash lovers sat a little further away from them talking with eachother lost in their own world as they debated over the common topic of their intrest indulging in their own two people world it gives Astrid and Jinx space to just be hence the rest of the time passed quickly.
Astrid and Jinx stood outside the spacious chamber. Jinx pushed opened the doors urging Astrid to enter, Astrid stepped inside heart gripped with anxiety. He was really second guessing his choice right now was it even a better Idea to do this now? He really should have talked with his mother or Indis! There was a soft thud of door closing followed by gentle foot steps, he didn't turn around afraid that words won't come out if he were to face her , peer into those warm and love filled eyes.
He balled his hands into fist putting the thumb inside sweating profusely from nervousness "what did you want to talk about?"
"I...I...I... just-"
Jinx frowned at his stammering making Astrid afraid that she would mistake his anxiety with fear of getting locked with a wolf that too with the strongest beast alive "I love you!"
Silence descended on the entire room Astrid even stopped breathing, just now he has blurted that out in panic although now he felt more nervous for the outcome at least he said it! Neither of them moved making him more crazy with anxiety each passing moment so he turned around "I-" yet unexpectedly he fell into an strong embrace the very same embrace when they had first met.
Astrid could feel the accelerated heart beat inside her chest as her arms tighten more around his waist her hand cupping his head as if she wanted them to be merged as one. Astrid could feel the strong hold but not too strong as if she was making sure to not break the percious person in her embrace.
As if she was holding her whole world in her arms Astrid buried his head nuzzling his face onto her shoulders,
"I wanted to say this to you since this morning, i don't care about the past nor about future the only thing that is making me happy in the present is you although I do feel I am .....selfish for choosing you for my own benifit."
Astrid felt a lump in his throat admitting it all but he needed to be truthful future may change but he indeed wants to choose the present which brings him happiness. A low chuckle sounded above his head making him look up only to be met by a searing hot stare making him a bit dazed "Then please continue to be selfish. The only thing which can ever bring me happiness is to see happy." Astrid puffed his cheeks annoyed at her selfless tone, seriously was she serious? Every being is allowed to be selfish for themselves but that doesn't mean you can hurt others even more so you should not hurt yourself by not allowing to be enough selfish to protect yourself.
"Why are you like this?"
Jinx was surprised at his angry face not knowing what she did wrong she asked with a confused and innocent look making Astrid more flustered.
"Like what?"
"Like! So f@cking selfless! You are allowed to be selfish too ok!? Live for yourself have some selfish desires! Don't you think the will to live itself sprouts because there is selfishness and desire? Then why are you like this always so detached from others sacrificing everything for the one you care how terrible! That's not how it works! You can't give love to others if you don't even know how to love yourself!"
Astrid have always believed that if you truly respect and admire yourself and know what you like, don't like you will naturally take care of others that way although many times the voices in your head can say your worthless and useless those times he would pretend that those voices did not belong to his mind but instead a terrible bully and hatable character present in his mind so when it said *you are not important he could always conciously throw back neither are you bald man now go touch some grass!* Having positive thoughts always is impossible but when the negative thoughts arises do you counter them or let them rot in your skull?
Jinx smirked at her little angry bird drawing closer until their noses touched. "My desire my selfishness everything is only you , so tell me can I still be selfish? You are the only desire which have kept me alive so tell me can I desire you?"
Astrid swallowed his Addams Apple bobbing, her warm breath on his cheeks and her rediculously overbearing way of saying each and every word's made him feel drunk and dizzy making him unable to think as he wrapped his arms around her neck his eyes half dropped softly.
He looked so fragile and small in her hands as if a little extra force and she might accidentally crush him but she won't this beast here won't do it instead it will kill and due or even live through hell for him and he knew it. He closed the gap between them rubbing his soft lips over her.
Her eyes darkened a strange golden hue covering them as a brief blue light passed through them she looked at the little vulnerable thing in her arms rosy cheeks dropped eyes as he stuck close to her body like a vine on tree branch. the sight was indeed pretty strange the prey clinging to it's predator.
Astrid parted a little and said "Yes.be as selfish as you want I am yours to desire."
This made Jinx lose her restraint as she held the back of his head crushing her lips on his ravaging them savagely biting, nibbling making Astrid hiss and muffle out moans weakly her cannies even drew blood the metallic taste made Astrid a bit light headed his knees buckled but she held him by his waist licking across the slight tear on his bottom lip.
She grabbed his waist and lifted him up making him wrap his legs around her , Astrid felt ashamed in such position his front was practically glued giving away how much he was excited but to his good her beast instinct were so much stirred that she attacked his neck sucking and nibbling leaving behind visible marks on his fair delicate skin. Astrid trembled when the wet moist tongue glided across his neck reaching to his sacred ear's.
The most sensitive part of an elf are the ear's and as she licked it making him whimper uncontrollably goosebumps breaking all over his skin the warmth rushing over his head and stomach making him unconsciously tilt his head to side to avoid the ruthless assault on the his ears, Jinx didn't let him go instead holding him in place by his chin.
As she gently played with his pointy ear's, Astrid couldn't hold his voice the warm and moist tongue on such sensitive part was making him feel as if he was being eaten whole
"Ah..hh"
Jinx's hold on his waist tightened she was already using last of her retrain to not f@ck her little lover ruthlessly until he cried from pleasure but his shaking and all the little sounds he made every time she touched him was driving her insane.
Astrid was muddle headed from the searing hot rain of kisses that he gained a little consciousness after his back gently hit the soft mattress with the weight pressing on his body. he tilted his head back a little breathing heavily with a flushed face he could see that charming cold face of her break into a flush she eyed him like a praditor making Astrid shiver a little from the thrill of seeing a ruthless cold giant beast worked up because of him.
He smiled making Jinx almost stop breathing he could see his own reflection in those golden iris he looked so messy, golden thread scattered his blue eyes filled with water as well the charming red cheery lips giving him such alluring and enchanting look that even a saints will can quiver, he was surprised that he practically looked more seducing than an Omega in heat.
Jinx buried her head in the cervix of his neck making him feel ticklish he squirmed while chuckling but since their bodies were practically on top of eachothers his thigh rubbed against something hard making Jinx grunt lowely he froze, offcourse he could recognise what it was since he is a boy himself making him gulp subconsciously, Jinx nibbled on the smooth skin making him yelp successfully distracting him.
"Ahhhmm..Ji.i..nx..stopp..."
And she did she was stiff halting all the movements Astrid thought she misunderstood that he now regretted his decision and wanted to back out he didn't want to make her feel that in any way especially when he was the one who had imagined of such romance since small age.
He would often want to experience what would other persons lips feel like on his , how would the touch of their hand feel, how would the bare skin intimately rubbing on eachothers would feel both in a soft lazy cuddly way and in a fever driven by desire and lust. He has unknownly craved it but since young all he could see were failure, Betrayal how people have backstabbed eachother, cheated breaking the heart's
He was a hopeless romantic living in a wrong or messed up reality he often grieved and suffered the endless lonely nights and days believing that his silly wishes are just fantasy but Jinx she came out of nowhere she grabbed him give him a tight embrace touched him so deep that the lonely that felt like endless strech was just illusion as if it was never really only a realistic dream.
He grabbed both her face with both hands cupping and giving a gentle forehead kiss as he murmured softly and soothingly "Jinx... Before we continue can I ask you something?"
Jinx's muscle relaxed over him as she hummed.
Astrid "When will I gain the past memories?"
Jinx "You will go in a sleep state for few hours."
Astrid "wait! that's it?"
Jinx nodded "Also we don't actually have to do anything you can gain your memory by drinking few drops of my blood."
Astrid "...." Wtf?
Blood?
What blood ('◉⌓◉')?
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