"If I know what love is, it is because of you."
- Hermann Hesse
Amelia's POV
Awkward!
Uncomfortable!
Totally terrifying!
That's what I'm feeling now. Sitting with Liam Cartwright and having dinner together wasn't something that I was looking forward to. I had already embarrassed myself so much in front of him that now I want to become invisible so that he can't see me anymore.
Although it wasn't our first time eating together, still it was very very awkward. Considering that it's not normal for employees to have food with their boss at his house. Looking like I'm a special case.
First breakfast, now dinner!
I will not be surprised even if you do lunch together next time.
"Why aren't you eating?" Mr. Cartwright asked raising his eyebrows at me, his lips pursed in a thin line.
I was about to say that I'm not hungry but unluckily my stomach made a loud grumble noise at the right time making me totally speechless and embarrassed.
Ah! Talk about embarrassment.
I'm sure I can be the ambassador of embarrassment if there's actually something like that.
"I'm going to do that only," I said with a nervous smile and picked up my spoon.
I looked at the soup bowl placed in front of me, I'm not a soup lover. But I have it occasionally, but for the last few days, I'm having it frequently. No surprises though! But I thought for once I will get to eat something else but look like nothing goes in my favor.
I quickly took a sip of the soup, although my mouth was quite bitter and sour from earlier still the soup tasted freaking amazing and so delicious. I couldn't realize how much hungry I was until now! I almost forget about Mr. Cartwright and concentrated on my food until he decided to speak up,
"You must be very hungry?" he asked looking at me with an amusing smile, "You shouldn't have skipped your lunch, at least not in this condition."
I just nod, not knowing what to say. I was about to continue eating when I suddenly realized what he said.
"Wait—about what condition you are talking about? I don't think I told you about my condition." I blurted out.
He let out a small laugh upon hearing my question. Well, his laugh was contagious but for now, ignore that because it's making me irritated. I rolled my eyes at annoyance seeing his ignorant behavior.
The guy ---
"I thought you will not ask. I wanted to talk about that only. When you fainted, I called our family doctor. I was worried because you weren't responding at all. He only informed me about your so-called condition," he explained, "In fact, I accidentally saw your medical file. That you are 2 months pregnant, so I was curious." I raised my eyebrows at him questionably.
"Curious about what?"
He leaned forward on the table, "Did you tell your boyfriend?" he asked me, with a smirk.
"I don't have a boyfriend!"
"So, you're one of those who sleeps around."
"Judgemental much?" I asked cocking my eyebrows at him, "Well last time, I checked it's none of your business!" the sarcasm was dripping from my voice.
If it would have another situation then I wouldn't have dared to say all this in front of him. But no one has the right to judge me or my character when they barely know me.
"Feisty much?" he said, smirking at me, which just made me more irritated. "But last time I checked, we slept together. So, it's definitely my business." He said smirking at me.
The nerve of the guy!
"Moreover, you brought your medical file and also fainted in my house. Now, what if you claim this child to be mine just because we slept together." he further added looking at me, there was a glint in his eyes, "I don't want that to happen."
"What if it is true?" I asked in a challenging tone, his mouth twitching in distaste.
"Are you mocking me?" he sneered at me, "Do you think I believe that child of yours is mine just because we have slept once."
"Who asked you to believe anyway?" I asked in a mocking voice leaning forward on the table, his face becoming red due to anger.
Strike one!
Taking a breath, I calmed myself before saying something.
"Let me be clear, I don't care what you think. Your opinion hardly matters to me." I clarified.
"However, I will be honest with you. You see, in my entire life, I had sex with only one person; that's you," his stare become intense when I told him, "So even if you deny it, it's your baby only. And I'm not claiming anything because it's your mistake that you didn't use any condoms. Lastly, I didn't think I will get pregnant." I said with a frustrated sigh.
"That's why I avoided the topic, now because of the baby--- do you know how hard it was for me to accept that I'm pregnant! Pregnant, like really? That too by a person like you." I said, fuming in anger. My whole face was red and hot due to anger.
"At first, I felt guilty for deciding to abort it without telling you about the baby. But now, don't care anymore. Because a jerk is always a jerk!" I said pointing my finger at him, the stupefied look on his face worth watching.
"And you know I didn't come here to claim anything. I just brought the file with me by mistake. That's all." I said getting up from the chair.
"And I don't want to clarify myself to you, but I'm not like those girls who sleep around with any guy. It's just that night I was drunk that's why I made a mistake by sleeping with you. And it's my biggest regret that I lost my virginity to a person like you." I said in one breath.
I felt a little relieved after telling him all these shits that he deserves to know.
After all, he's a freakin' A-hole.
I walked out of there immediately without giving him a chance to insult me again. I'm not ashamed of myself and he's no one to judge me.
That night was a freakin' terrible mistake.